Declaration

After getting to know you "officially" for 46 days, today I finally summon my courage and let you know what I am going to tell you. I believed you already sensed that all this while, I am not treating you as a simple normal friend. I not sure what your decision or reaction will be. Will you ever consider me? Will you feel any difference when I not inside the office?
"我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹

幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞沒了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么的重要
有了你 生命完整的剛好

小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远愛你到老"
小酒窝

I can't promise you anything different from your current boyfriend but I will try my best to give you all that I have. I hope one day I can replaced him in your heart. Remember I ask you at esplanade library before, career and love, which is more important? Same as you, my answer will be love. I will choose to stay with you and forgo any career advancement chance or long term overseas trip. I believe if I missed this moment to be with you, I will not get back no matter how good my career is. With you beside me, I believed I can brave through any obstacle or endure anything from the cunning sly boss. I keep asking myself, why a simple gal like you can make me fall for you? I think it is your character and personality and the same interest that you had as me. I hope you still remember there is a suspected case in the office on a thurs night, first thing that come into my mind is shall it be confirmed case and the severity like SARS, I would volunteer to go back in your place even though you might just treat me as a normal friend at that time.
"爱上了一个人 能够为她牺牲
就算付出了生命 我甘心为了你
两个人在一起 分享爱的命运
永远都不会忘记 我们生活点滴

你是我最深爱的女人 你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神 你带给我幸福和快乐"
你是我最深爱的人

Maybe we only know each other for a short duration, but I believed this is not a moment of impulse. When I first met you a few times at atrium or samsung hub, seriously I don't have a deep impression of you. This is the same even when you just come to ORQ. I thought I will treat you the same as previous DSM, not so much of helping each other. I will still go ahead with my engineering team for kopi or lunch. But as times goes by, I get to know you better and slowly got an urge to help you out, accompany you whenever you go. To let the team have a better view of you, I tried to be the mediator between you and them and even helped them to do things that I had not done for a long time to show them actually your "expectation" is not impossible. When you are not at site, I got an uneasy feeling. Slowly I realised that I had develop feelings for you and I start to ask you out with some stupid excuse. When you agree to go out with me for the first time, I thought I got chance to go after you. But later you told you got boyfriend and is already together for 2 years, I feel quite upset. I consider for a long time whether I should continue and I decided to leave it to fate and follow my heart. Whenever you mention about the word "boyfriend" or start sms, I will feel a pain in my heart or rather my confidence dropped. The more time we spent together, I realised I didn't make the wrong decision, you are the gal I been looking for. We shared a lot of common interest, topics and chat with almost everything under the sun. I know it will be awkward if I let you know this blog and the next day we meet. That why I choose to let you know now and for this 1 week plus, you can consider before you can give me an answer. Don't know why, I always got the feeling that you and your boyfriend is not exactly that happy together, your interest is different from him and you feeling insecure due to he didn't spend enough time with you. Either you or him is just enduring with the other party... I hope you understand that I don't have any motive for what I had done. Time will show you that my action is not only the initial period but every now and then. I hope I got the chance to tell you directly how I feel, the chance of showering you with love and care, sharing with you all the happiness and sorrow, spending all the important moments with you... maybe this chance is never meant to come.....
"Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care
Tell Me That You Need Me And I'll Be There
I'll Be There Waitin'...
I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do
Come To Me Now
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
I'm In Love With You..."
In Love With You

My dream will be working in the same office with you, sharing your workload, be it personal or work, knock off together, eating all the food you like and go out walk walk, witnessing all the beautiful fireworks, sitting by the sea or river enjoying the night scene, taking stroll hand in hand, watching and discuss all those TVB drama, taiwan variety show, gossiping, staying by your side, reminding you all those issue that you always forget. By now, you should had known that our current job doesn't have a fixed working hour, so I will try to cherish the time we had together. I always remember the time we spent together and the special memorable night with you at singapore river. Thanks for the night, it has been long time since I feel so relaxed and happy with a gal..
"我能想到最浪漫的事 就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑 留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事 就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老得哪儿也去不了 你还依然把我当成手心里的宝"

By telling you all these, I don't expect you to break with your boyfriend. But love is selfish, of course, I hope you will give me a chance to go after you. I know fate comes at the wrong time but I just hope you can be fair to yourself and make a decision.. If you scare that by giving me a chance will affect our working relationship with rest of the team or vendor, I can assure you that I will draw a line between work and personal. I will still treat you the same as what it has been during normal office hours. Don't worry, I respect your final decision, should your decision is to reject me, I hope you can still treat me as a normal friend or colleague. No matter your decision is give me a chance, reject or need time to consider, I hope you got an answer for me. No matter what, I will still treat you the same and support you from behind till my last day at site. I will leave is not due to you had reject me but I afraid the longer I spent time with you, the deeper I will sunk into.
"明夜我将离开，熟悉的地方和你，要分离，我眼泪掉下去。我会牢牢记住你的脸，我会珍惜你给的思念，这些日子在我心中永远不会被抹去"
再见

Should I am lucky to be given the chance, I hope the wednesday when I come back from reservist, you will agree to have dinner with me...