22nd July

As days went passed, I get to know more about her... People say "因误会而在一起, 因理解而分开".. But this prove otherwise for me... When I know her more, I sunk deeper for her.. She had told me she worked even later at her previous site.. maybe over there, she had to do everything by herself.. but over here, even when all others don't help her (which don't seem will happen), I will still help her... I heard all her coming weekends will be burnt for office works. If that is going to happen, I will stay throughout with her and clear the works together... even if she planned to go out with him, :( I will still stay back and clear the job for her...

Today she suddenly asked me how is my shutdown preparation.. At that moment, I really very happy, think everything is worthwhile even the preparation is very tedious. I not sure and also don't want to find out what her real intention of asking. I will take it as a concern from her...

At one hand, she persuade me to give up and say her relationship is not as bad as what I think.. At the other hand, she told me she is unhappy and lost trust.... Contradicting but no matter what, I will not give her up and time will prove my love for her... I hope one day she will open her heart and share all her worries, problems and happiness with me..

I think a relationship is just like shopping. When a person went shopping, she may took an apple on first sight, thinking that she will buy it. But along the way, second apple maybe spotted. The second apple might seem to be more suitable to her. There are no rules stating that she need to buy the first apple just because she put it in her trolley. As long as she haven't proceed to the cashier, she still can change it for the second apple. The first apple might not be tastier than the second apple, but why she still insist on getting the first apple, giving it chances hoping it will become tastier? Why can't she just give the second apple a chance even though it is not been spotted in the first place? People might say there maybe third or fourth apple down the road, but if I am the second apple, I will remain fresh and tasty, so she will not think of getting any other apples..
"是你让我看透生命这东西
四个字 坚持到底
如果没有你
我的生活回到一片狼藉
是你让我翻破爱情的秘笈
四个字 坚持到底
不管有多苦
我会全心全力
爱你到底"
坚持到底

Will she be online tonight?? Even though I face her the whole day in office today... It just seem not enough...