3rd July

It friday... 3 more days... Early in the morning, received a sms. I thought she sms me to say she taking mc as the previous day she is not feeling well. It will be a boring day without her in office. Luckily, the sms is not from her...

Today site manager asked to packet bee hoon for the whole team but I remember she said before that she want to try glutinous rice. If I just buy her glutinous rice specially, she sure will reject. So I come out with a "reason" that I want to eat and ask her if she want also and she say ok.

I start to act blur whenever she receive sms. Deceiving myself that the sms is not from that someone. I hope my heart can do that but my brain can't help thinking of it. What should I do?

Tonight is the final episode of the 10pm chan u drama. Will me and her have the same happy ending as the actor and actress in the drama?
"I have a life time full of hopes and dreams
I thought I seek true love but it's never what it seems
I've been broken but I know how to survive
Somehow I always keep my dreams alive

But I wasn't prepare for the feeling that I would find
The first time that I held you
For the fuzz that came to mind
The love that I've been waiting for all those years
Was holding on to me and easing all my fears

Every part that I ever prayed
Has been answered in a heart beat
My spirit wants to sing every time we meet
Now my only fear is that it's too good to be true
Every dream that I ever dreamed
Is coming true in you

Some sort of connection
What a wonderful surprise
Change my life direction with the look in your eyes
You've always a part of me
I just didn't know
Now I've finally found you and I will never let you go

Every part that I ever prayed
Has been answered in a heart beat
My spirit wants to sing every time we meet
Now my only fear is that it's too good to be true
Every dream that I ever dreamed
Is coming true in you
It's all coming true in you..."
Coming True In You

Sunday plan failed as she is not required to come back and had arranged to get her hair for a makeover. Consolation is tonight I got a chance to dine with her. We chat about our job experience and so coincidence, we both like event organising. I had done this during my 3 years of poly days. I have to admit the feeling of organising an event successfully is undescrible but as I am already in FM line, I had no choice but to carry on FM. But I will consider if she were to switch field as striving side by side with the gal I loved is one of my dream.

During dinner, I also hint her that to some guy, career isn't the most important. As she is "muddlehead" at times, does she know that the guy I referring to is me?

I think I had sunk deeper... In the past, I wish when working,the time passed quickly, so I can go home... But now, I wished time pass slowly especially when I am with her.. Just like tonight, even though we are just supervising vendors renovating an office, I am already contented just by chatting with her and wish time pass slowly....