29th July

Alcohol has been my companion for third consecutive days.. Only after that, I will be able to sleep without waking up in between. Is this the only solution for not to think too much?

I surprise the company I rejected two times looked me up today again... They hinted me that if I crossed over, I can be an account manager.. I just smiled as a reply... Meet the kid for dinner... as usual "debating" with him over career perspective.. I told him do everything he should have an objective.. just like crossing over to the next job, he should know what he want.. Then he asked me why I am still here when I had almost fulfilled the requirement of an account manager.. As I had promised to keep the secret between her and me, I just told him I am not so career minded.. Then he told me he noticed I am different from when he just joined this company, during that time, I was a career driven guy... now I seen like a "slacker".. but can be seen he still don't know what the real reason behind..

I accidentally force and pressurise her for a decision again... I really sorry.. I don't know why I can't keep my cool and patience and do it again.. I had sms her to apologise but she seem to ignore it... What should I do to appease her? I really really very sorry....
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Right Here Waiting