12th July

Here comes the Sunday again... Wake up at 6+ due to an unusual feeling, feel worried as I never saw her replying my sms since last evening and never saw her online.. Wonder if I should sms her to find out how she is but eventually I does that.. I know that action seem to beyond the "limitation" of a friend should do and instead of showing concern, it will become like a pressure to her.. Hope she don't seem it that way... Anyway, I glad that she replied she is all right..
"若不是因为爱着你 怎会有不安的情绪
每个莫名的日子里 我想你 想你 好想你
爱是折磨人的东西 却又舍不得这样放弃
不停揣测你的心里 可有我姓名
爱是我唯一的秘密 让人心碎却又着迷
无论是用什么言语 只会 只会思念你"
爱情

After all the recent "happenings", I had decided to stay after my site power shutdown. It will mean I can still be with her for some more time but it will also mean a lot a lot of work and preparation need to be done.. not to mention is the "play me out" session from my boss and that will also mean my next "advancing" appointment will be delayed.. I know questions will be asked if this is worthwhile? For her, I think the answer is yes.. As what she usually say, don't think too much.... hahhahaaa :p

Tomorrow is another boring day again.. proficiency test.. but think positively, is the 2nd last day of reservist... once tomorrow is gone, nothing much left as last day is for feedback and debrief... then I can have lunch with her again... hahaaa..

If only she can practise her decisiveness on her work to her relationship matters, then situation might be different... 天底下没有不散的宴席, hope she will understand.. as what I had come across somewhere before, don't hold on because of duration, but hold on because of interest (feel)...