25th July

An exceptional busy day... 7 vendors at one go but nothing matters me after last night talking.. A 强心针 has been injected into me because I know I got chance :) She commented she is tired due to not enough rest today but somehow I sensed there is still some happiness when she said that.. Maybe is I am too over sensitive, I find her mood today is a bit brighter than in the past.. Is it the effect of our last night conversation?

She is the only girl that I had told about my family issue.. Does that mean in front of her, I can faced her with my true self without putting on any "armor"? I really feel sad for her when she told me her sad stories of him... I don't think this is fair to her.. I regret not knowing her earlier, so I can tide over the sad period with her.. When a guy cannot honor anything to a girl, then don't waste the girl time and saying excuse like it will be changed after getting married.. When he can't do it now, how he can do it in the future..

You ask me how? What should you do? I think my answer is ask you to break with him.. Once you make up your mind, don't think too much, don't turn back, just tell him. Words might be difficult to come out from the mouth, close your eyes and say it like there is nobody around will make it easier. You might need to do some explanation to some parties but no one can blame you as this is your life and eventually it is you that determine it. Letting go can means the ending of a thing but it also means the beginning of another.. The hours before the break of dawn is always the darkest. Once you went past it, you will see the beauty of sunrise... Don't be afraid, I will always be there with you, tiding through every obstacle.. please believe me..
"愿我会查火箭 带你到天空去
在太空中两人住
活到一千岁 都一般心醉
有你在身边多乐趣

共你双双对 好得戚好得意
地塌天崩当间事
就算翻风雨 只需睇到你
似见阳光千万里"
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