11th July

I think this is the first time we watch a movie together... on my laptop inside the office... A pity is that we only manage to watch the first part as she need to rush off for her "weekly" appointment.. At first, I thought there is a major scheduled maintenance work, so she need to come back to supervise. Later I found out that the work had been rescheduled and left only a minor A&A work. I wonder why she still come back? I hope the reason is because I am going back but I think the possibility is not high...

I think she is watching transformer 2 tonight as I "accidentally" saw her screen on the booking tickets page. I can sensed that she is feeling unhappy again. Firstly, when I ask her what time she leaving, she answered don't know with a depressed tone. Secondly, she keep going into the cinema seating booking plan but wait till timed out. My guess will be she is unsure whether that "someone" want to watch with her... I don't know if I should hope my guess is correct or not. If correct, she will be unhappy and I will unhappy also. If incorrect, I will be demoralised... But anyway, I managed to let her have a few laughs from the movie we watched. Hope this will let her mood be better.

Even though is just a mere 2.5 hours together, I already contented. Maybe my subconscious told me I can be with her is not an entitlement but a privilege. I think my thinking has "matured"... Worse, I help her to look out for any watch sale as this is most probably a gift from her to the "someone".... What am I doing??
"The smile on your face
Let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all"
When You Say Nothing At All