21st July

A normal tuesday went past without noticing... Whole day is busy with rearranging keys.. Again is not my job scope... Seeing her busy with her inventory, I decided to help her with the keys rearrangement...

Since letting her know how I feel, I seem like 2 different person in the day and night... During the day, I had to control what I do or say.. During the night, I tend to be more emotional, can say what is in my heart... Is really liking someone is so hard? If I work hard enough, will I get the happiness I striving for? Is what I been doing doesn't show my sincerity? Why every night I keep thinking of her, hoping she will drop me a sms? Why am I always staring at my ceiling, wondering what I should do next? Why can't a chance been present to me just because I came late? Does been early got the entitlement to have her? Why should I been sentenced to death even before trial? Is my feelings and actions fail to touch her? Why I can't just get her out of my heart? Why am I hoping for something that it might not happen at all? Isn't liking someone is suppose to be happy? But why I am more sad than happy? Does he really make a better choice than me? To her, am I really that inferior to him? Is it I really don't stand any chance to shower her with care and concern, take care of her? There are many questions in my heart waiting for an answer but who can answer them? Maybe the answer is he still far better than me :(....
"喔~相信我无悔无求
我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲
我愿陪你
直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
相信我"
男人不该让女人流泪