Afternoon my mood get better, I start to chat with her again... two different person from the morning... I tried very hard not to talk to her or see her in the morning but I just can't bear it... Whenever she wanted me to give up, I find I had sunk deeper and more determined to win her over... Tuesday night, she had told me that how can a guy be without ambition, everyday just counting the days to pay day.. I am different from them.. Without clearing the issue between her and me, I will not shift my focus back to career... Going after her is like journey to the west, full of obstacles and patience is needed to brave through all the obstacles before getting the sutra... I believe I will success one day...
Evening time stay back at the office again.. I find it funny, this time round, don't know how this job become under my care... but my mood seem good, even she didn't stay back... don't know why... my head keep thinking what stupid excuses she trying to make me give up.. every excuse she give is just exposing her how she is not confident of her current relationship.. I can give her reasons why she should break... The best reason, I am definitely better in the way of treating her.. But if in terms of breaking heart and commit "offence", he is surely better than me....
Now I just waiting for her to online and start our "debate"...
Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
How you got me blind is still a mystery
I cant get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me
As Long As You Love Me
Thursday, July 30, 2009
30th July (morning)
I thought I can express freely in my blog but I never expect it will cause her to think so negative... From now on, I will only post things that are positive. This will be my last post on negative things..
Despite I had put in so much effort and done so much, the word "give up" never seem to leave her mouth. Not sure if she know the word is very disheartening to me... Are "can't bear to see you leave", "feel touched", "a place in her heart", "happy when with you" just words only, does that have significant meaning? If there is, can show me with some action... My blog, sms and action seem like a one way "transmission", or writing my feeling and problem on to a piece of paper and throw into the sea. There is always no response, I never get to know what her "feedback" thinking is. Her only reaction to them end up "ok, thanks" or "do you sleep well"... Sometime I already can predict her answer... Maybe to her and him, love is only words.. She say she is considering on the relation between three of us... But does I actually stand on the same level as him during the consideration? Where I stand in her heart? If I not wrong, first is family, second him, third friends, follow by work and maybe the last is me... The idea she give me is she can still do anything even when she tired except going out with me.. Only when I really troubled or feeling low, she will offer me a support... or start to show her concern...
Yesterday had a bad day with my manager, he seem to finding faults with me.. Then the kid remind me that I must had "offend" my boss again, that why bad feedback is floating around. I thought she can share my problems but end up between us also got problems. Go back home, my mother also give me problems... I wonder what did I do to deserve this? So many problems and yet in front of others, I still had to 强言欢笑... acting like nothing had happened at all...
男人不坏, 女人不爱... I start to believe it... All his "wrong doing" seem forgivable and acceptable by her.. Her interaction with him also doesn't seem to show a sign of slow down which I known of. Maybe the only way I can take over him is after he committed an offence again. That maybe is also the time where her consideration will have a conclusion. I also slowly understand the phase 自作多情, come to think of it, beside that sunday when I sensed her concern, there is never other times... Most of the time, I had to initial stuff such as when free to meet, and this also subject to if she want to... 尽人事, 听天命, what I can do, I already did... maybe I should stop asking her this and that.. just wait for her to tell me... "也许放弃才能靠近你, 不再想你, 你才会把我记起" maybe this is true.. Her action tell me, in her heart, he is always the first priority... No matter how much effort I put in and what wrong he did as long as it is not breach of agreement, I will never be able to replace him.. 努力的付出不一定会有回报... is really tiring and disappointing when one had really put in a lot of effort and yet there is no sign of positive sign...
Can she tell me all this is wrong? This is what I assume only.. Most importantly, stop giving me "reasons" that she also can't convince herself... I really wonder what drug he had given her, making her to be so forgiving and so "loyal"... Since she so free to think of so many stupid excuses for me to give up, why don't she think of "requirements" on how I can win her over...
Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
That's Why You Go Away
Despite I had put in so much effort and done so much, the word "give up" never seem to leave her mouth. Not sure if she know the word is very disheartening to me... Are "can't bear to see you leave", "feel touched", "a place in her heart", "happy when with you" just words only, does that have significant meaning? If there is, can show me with some action... My blog, sms and action seem like a one way "transmission", or writing my feeling and problem on to a piece of paper and throw into the sea. There is always no response, I never get to know what her "feedback" thinking is. Her only reaction to them end up "ok, thanks" or "do you sleep well"... Sometime I already can predict her answer... Maybe to her and him, love is only words.. She say she is considering on the relation between three of us... But does I actually stand on the same level as him during the consideration? Where I stand in her heart? If I not wrong, first is family, second him, third friends, follow by work and maybe the last is me... The idea she give me is she can still do anything even when she tired except going out with me.. Only when I really troubled or feeling low, she will offer me a support... or start to show her concern...
Yesterday had a bad day with my manager, he seem to finding faults with me.. Then the kid remind me that I must had "offend" my boss again, that why bad feedback is floating around. I thought she can share my problems but end up between us also got problems. Go back home, my mother also give me problems... I wonder what did I do to deserve this? So many problems and yet in front of others, I still had to 强言欢笑... acting like nothing had happened at all...
男人不坏, 女人不爱... I start to believe it... All his "wrong doing" seem forgivable and acceptable by her.. Her interaction with him also doesn't seem to show a sign of slow down which I known of. Maybe the only way I can take over him is after he committed an offence again. That maybe is also the time where her consideration will have a conclusion. I also slowly understand the phase 自作多情, come to think of it, beside that sunday when I sensed her concern, there is never other times... Most of the time, I had to initial stuff such as when free to meet, and this also subject to if she want to... 尽人事, 听天命, what I can do, I already did... maybe I should stop asking her this and that.. just wait for her to tell me... "也许放弃才能靠近你, 不再想你, 你才会把我记起" maybe this is true.. Her action tell me, in her heart, he is always the first priority... No matter how much effort I put in and what wrong he did as long as it is not breach of agreement, I will never be able to replace him.. 努力的付出不一定会有回报... is really tiring and disappointing when one had really put in a lot of effort and yet there is no sign of positive sign...
Can she tell me all this is wrong? This is what I assume only.. Most importantly, stop giving me "reasons" that she also can't convince herself... I really wonder what drug he had given her, making her to be so forgiving and so "loyal"... Since she so free to think of so many stupid excuses for me to give up, why don't she think of "requirements" on how I can win her over...
Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
That's Why You Go Away
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
29th July
Alcohol has been my companion for third consecutive days.. Only after that, I will be able to sleep without waking up in between. Is this the only solution for not to think too much?
I surprise the company I rejected two times looked me up today again... They hinted me that if I crossed over, I can be an account manager.. I just smiled as a reply... Meet the kid for dinner... as usual "debating" with him over career perspective.. I told him do everything he should have an objective.. just like crossing over to the next job, he should know what he want.. Then he asked me why I am still here when I had almost fulfilled the requirement of an account manager.. As I had promised to keep the secret between her and me, I just told him I am not so career minded.. Then he told me he noticed I am different from when he just joined this company, during that time, I was a career driven guy... now I seen like a "slacker".. but can be seen he still don't know what the real reason behind..
I accidentally force and pressurise her for a decision again... I really sorry.. I don't know why I can't keep my cool and patience and do it again.. I had sms her to apologise but she seem to ignore it... What should I do to appease her? I really really very sorry....
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Right Here Waiting
I surprise the company I rejected two times looked me up today again... They hinted me that if I crossed over, I can be an account manager.. I just smiled as a reply... Meet the kid for dinner... as usual "debating" with him over career perspective.. I told him do everything he should have an objective.. just like crossing over to the next job, he should know what he want.. Then he asked me why I am still here when I had almost fulfilled the requirement of an account manager.. As I had promised to keep the secret between her and me, I just told him I am not so career minded.. Then he told me he noticed I am different from when he just joined this company, during that time, I was a career driven guy... now I seen like a "slacker".. but can be seen he still don't know what the real reason behind..
I accidentally force and pressurise her for a decision again... I really sorry.. I don't know why I can't keep my cool and patience and do it again.. I had sms her to apologise but she seem to ignore it... What should I do to appease her? I really really very sorry....
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Right Here Waiting
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
28th July
Stay back inside office till almost 9.. as usual, I am not required to stay but I do it just to accompany her or cover for her if needed... She had a backache today.. wanted her to go back early to rest but she insist on staying... it is because I am staying also??
Receive an offer from my vendor today.. They are going to tender for a site and required experienced personnel to station there... If I were to go over, I might be leading the FM team there with another guy... but nothing seem to attract me except her.. she is just too important to me and I can't bear to leave her... so I decided to reject their offer for the second time...
Alcohol seem to become my companion for the past two nights.. will there be a third time and so on? Alcohol cannot help to solve any troubles but it can help to forget troubles for that moment... Maybe after drinking, I can really don't think too much... How long do I still need to wait? Till he commit an "offence" again? Can I be that patient?
解开我 最神秘的等待
星星坠落 风在吹动
终於再将你拥入怀中
两颗心 颤抖
相信我 不变的真心
千年等待有我承诺
无论经过多少的寒冬
我绝不放手
神话
Receive an offer from my vendor today.. They are going to tender for a site and required experienced personnel to station there... If I were to go over, I might be leading the FM team there with another guy... but nothing seem to attract me except her.. she is just too important to me and I can't bear to leave her... so I decided to reject their offer for the second time...
Alcohol seem to become my companion for the past two nights.. will there be a third time and so on? Alcohol cannot help to solve any troubles but it can help to forget troubles for that moment... Maybe after drinking, I can really don't think too much... How long do I still need to wait? Till he commit an "offence" again? Can I be that patient?
解开我 最神秘的等待
星星坠落 风在吹动
终於再将你拥入怀中
两颗心 颤抖
相信我 不变的真心
千年等待有我承诺
无论经过多少的寒冬
我绝不放手
神话
Monday, July 27, 2009
27th July
Regarding work, I usually full of confidence even when challenging with superior.. But when facing her, my confidence gone down to zero.... A slight "movement" will make me feel insecure.. Just like today, when someone ask her why she only lunch with me alone, I scared that will affect her and shaken her decision... I hope she will not be "shaken" so easily and give in to those "pressure" or others "saying"...
I can understand why she still like him, no matter what, it is still a 2 years relationship.. how will she be able to give it up just overnight? I hope time will fade her feelings for him and replaced it with mine... But she must also learn to slowly let go... Maybe decrease the frequency of contacting with him such as sms, call, meet with him, etc.. I think slowly he will know the meaning and resulted in a peaceful break up... I hope she will summon her "勇气" and work towards it... I will try my very best not to let her regret the decision she made.. I will not repeat his mistake as she is the only girl I will think of... giving her all I can, happiness, blissfulness... sharing with her everything... not letting her to shed a tear of sadness for me... Will she give me a chance to do that?
终于作了这个决定 别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定 我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易 我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气 来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定 我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气 去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里 你的真心
如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒 我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你
勇气
I can understand why she still like him, no matter what, it is still a 2 years relationship.. how will she be able to give it up just overnight? I hope time will fade her feelings for him and replaced it with mine... But she must also learn to slowly let go... Maybe decrease the frequency of contacting with him such as sms, call, meet with him, etc.. I think slowly he will know the meaning and resulted in a peaceful break up... I hope she will summon her "勇气" and work towards it... I will try my very best not to let her regret the decision she made.. I will not repeat his mistake as she is the only girl I will think of... giving her all I can, happiness, blissfulness... sharing with her everything... not letting her to shed a tear of sadness for me... Will she give me a chance to do that?
终于作了这个决定 别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定 我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易 我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气 来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定 我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气 去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里 你的真心
如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒 我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你
勇气
Sunday, July 26, 2009
26th July
Went back to office today to normalise back my fire system and put back all those AV equipment that I had dismantled for some refurnishing works.. I also can use this time to escape from the noisy house for a while..
She also went back today... Initially she planned to go home after the works but when I told her I wanted to go walk walk to escape from the noisy house, she agreed to accompany me even she is feeling tired... Maybe I was a "simple" guy, I was touched by her intention, whether will it come true, that another thing... After work completed, we proceed to Vivocity and walk around.. Happy times passed fast.. soon it is time for her to go home for her home cooked dinner.. Wanted to ask her some questions but the questions just can't come out from my mouth... After she board the bus, I decided to sms her the questions "How is she and him?" and "How is the "how ah".. The answer she replied is quite depressing.. I had walked down to the mrt but upon hearing the answer, I went up again to look at the sea... hoping the sea can bring my troubles away... but things just always don't happen as expected... The sea is still, same as my troubles.. She had sms me a few times but I just don't know what to reply... I scare I might caused her as miserable as me.. I already knew that I should not pressure her for a decision again and again but my heart just can't do it... Now I understand how selfish love is.. To give her up, I can't bear to... To continue as it is, I feel insecure, I scare one day she will just go back to him.... What should I do??
Decided to walk back home from there.. The route is so familiar even though it is 3 years back during my 2nd job... During that time, my mood when walking this route is that dreadful feeling.. Maybe it is fated that when I take this route this time, the feeling is similar... don't know what to do.. the difference is this time round, I think she will be there to lead me through the mist.. but I might not accept her offer as I know after this mist, she might disappear and I had to face a thicker mist alone... so why should I let a single problem affecting 2 person in the first place when eventually I am the only one that need to face it... One person miserable is better than two...
也许放弃 才能靠近你
不再见你 你才会把我记起
时间累积 这盛夏的果实
回忆里寂寞的香气
我要试着离开你不要再想你
虽然这并不是我本意
盛夏的果实
Nonsense from home, conflicts, stress from work, issues between me and her, how long can I hold on my strong front in front of others and acting like nothing had happened at all... I think only she know about all my problems as family matters I usually don't revealed to others...
She also went back today... Initially she planned to go home after the works but when I told her I wanted to go walk walk to escape from the noisy house, she agreed to accompany me even she is feeling tired... Maybe I was a "simple" guy, I was touched by her intention, whether will it come true, that another thing... After work completed, we proceed to Vivocity and walk around.. Happy times passed fast.. soon it is time for her to go home for her home cooked dinner.. Wanted to ask her some questions but the questions just can't come out from my mouth... After she board the bus, I decided to sms her the questions "How is she and him?" and "How is the "how ah".. The answer she replied is quite depressing.. I had walked down to the mrt but upon hearing the answer, I went up again to look at the sea... hoping the sea can bring my troubles away... but things just always don't happen as expected... The sea is still, same as my troubles.. She had sms me a few times but I just don't know what to reply... I scare I might caused her as miserable as me.. I already knew that I should not pressure her for a decision again and again but my heart just can't do it... Now I understand how selfish love is.. To give her up, I can't bear to... To continue as it is, I feel insecure, I scare one day she will just go back to him.... What should I do??
Decided to walk back home from there.. The route is so familiar even though it is 3 years back during my 2nd job... During that time, my mood when walking this route is that dreadful feeling.. Maybe it is fated that when I take this route this time, the feeling is similar... don't know what to do.. the difference is this time round, I think she will be there to lead me through the mist.. but I might not accept her offer as I know after this mist, she might disappear and I had to face a thicker mist alone... so why should I let a single problem affecting 2 person in the first place when eventually I am the only one that need to face it... One person miserable is better than two...
也许放弃 才能靠近你
不再见你 你才会把我记起
时间累积 这盛夏的果实
回忆里寂寞的香气
我要试着离开你不要再想你
虽然这并不是我本意
盛夏的果实
Nonsense from home, conflicts, stress from work, issues between me and her, how long can I hold on my strong front in front of others and acting like nothing had happened at all... I think only she know about all my problems as family matters I usually don't revealed to others...
Fear......
Never saw her reply since last night.. When I am unsure of how she are, I will wake up a few times in a night, checking for any sms from her... The only recent night that I sleep well is friday night where I feel a sense of "assurance"...
Suddenly I got a fear that she might choose to give up and stay put as it is.. I still remember friday night she keep asking me "how ah" and her cute expression when speaking "I don't know how to say" in cantonese, this make me feel she is prepared to let go of her current relationship.. Can she please assure me again that she will not give chances to that guy anymore?
Tell me babe, how many do I shed my tears?
EVERY HEART, every heart is not a gentle yet
Shall I do, I can never say my loneliness
EVERY HEART, doesn't know so what to say or what to do
Was afraid of darkness cause I felt that I was left alone
So I prayed for help to distant million stars
Every Heart
Every Heart (English)
Suddenly I got a fear that she might choose to give up and stay put as it is.. I still remember friday night she keep asking me "how ah" and her cute expression when speaking "I don't know how to say" in cantonese, this make me feel she is prepared to let go of her current relationship.. Can she please assure me again that she will not give chances to that guy anymore?
Tell me babe, how many do I shed my tears?
EVERY HEART, every heart is not a gentle yet
Shall I do, I can never say my loneliness
EVERY HEART, doesn't know so what to say or what to do
Was afraid of darkness cause I felt that I was left alone
So I prayed for help to distant million stars
Every Heart
Every Heart (English)
Saturday, July 25, 2009
25th July
An exceptional busy day... 7 vendors at one go but nothing matters me after last night talking.. A 强心针 has been injected into me because I know I got chance :) She commented she is tired due to not enough rest today but somehow I sensed there is still some happiness when she said that.. Maybe is I am too over sensitive, I find her mood today is a bit brighter than in the past.. Is it the effect of our last night conversation?
She is the only girl that I had told about my family issue.. Does that mean in front of her, I can faced her with my true self without putting on any "armor"? I really feel sad for her when she told me her sad stories of him... I don't think this is fair to her.. I regret not knowing her earlier, so I can tide over the sad period with her.. When a guy cannot honor anything to a girl, then don't waste the girl time and saying excuse like it will be changed after getting married.. When he can't do it now, how he can do it in the future..
You ask me how? What should you do? I think my answer is ask you to break with him.. Once you make up your mind, don't think too much, don't turn back, just tell him. Words might be difficult to come out from the mouth, close your eyes and say it like there is nobody around will make it easier. You might need to do some explanation to some parties but no one can blame you as this is your life and eventually it is you that determine it. Letting go can means the ending of a thing but it also means the beginning of another.. The hours before the break of dawn is always the darkest. Once you went past it, you will see the beauty of sunrise... Don't be afraid, I will always be there with you, tiding through every obstacle.. please believe me..
"愿我会查火箭 带你到天空去
在太空中两人住
活到一千岁 都一般心醉
有你在身边多乐趣
共你双双对 好得戚好得意
地塌天崩当间事
就算翻风雨 只需睇到你
似见阳光千万里"
分分钟需要你
She is the only girl that I had told about my family issue.. Does that mean in front of her, I can faced her with my true self without putting on any "armor"? I really feel sad for her when she told me her sad stories of him... I don't think this is fair to her.. I regret not knowing her earlier, so I can tide over the sad period with her.. When a guy cannot honor anything to a girl, then don't waste the girl time and saying excuse like it will be changed after getting married.. When he can't do it now, how he can do it in the future..
You ask me how? What should you do? I think my answer is ask you to break with him.. Once you make up your mind, don't think too much, don't turn back, just tell him. Words might be difficult to come out from the mouth, close your eyes and say it like there is nobody around will make it easier. You might need to do some explanation to some parties but no one can blame you as this is your life and eventually it is you that determine it. Letting go can means the ending of a thing but it also means the beginning of another.. The hours before the break of dawn is always the darkest. Once you went past it, you will see the beauty of sunrise... Don't be afraid, I will always be there with you, tiding through every obstacle.. please believe me..
"愿我会查火箭 带你到天空去
在太空中两人住
活到一千岁 都一般心醉
有你在身边多乐趣
共你双双对 好得戚好得意
地塌天崩当间事
就算翻风雨 只需睇到你
似见阳光千万里"
分分钟需要你
24th July
Today is like election day. In the morning, my vote seem on the low end. Thinking should I just withdraw from the election. At night, it turn out my votes is on the high side, overtaking him. I was so happy..
The dreadful feeling come back to me again after last night msn with her.. The feeling of standing at the crossroad, don't know what to do... Wanted someone to provide me advice but no one is there.. Everything in front seem like a mist, can I really walk through it alone? After doing so much, I still don't know what her thinking and I am getting tired of guessing her thinking and worse, most of the time she said is wrong. With the office conflict and her "issue", I don't know how long I can still hold on... Throughout the whole day, I don't know what should I do or talk to her, so I remain quiet.. She also noticed my strange behavior and asked me am I all right... I keep thinking will my give up really make her feel happy and is this what she truly want? If that is so, I would "fulfill" her wish. As I had said before, the reason why I still at this job is because of her.. so if give up, it will also mean I would leave this job and disappear from her sight so as not to bring back any sad memories.. I am prepared for the night talk and if the worst scenario is to happen, the following monday will be my last day in the office and my leave will be used to cover the whole notice of termination..
At night, I finally know her thinking. My morning initial plan to leave has changed.. She shared with me her story. After listening, I seriously not regretting making my move of letting her know how I feel in the first place.. I will most probably be a more suitable person to her and treat her better than him. To me, I will suggest her to break as the feel is not there anymore. It may pain but is better short term than long term. Summon the courage and tell him the word "break". She might not have the chance to do it again because I will try my very best not to let her say it. She keep told me she don't have an answer but in her heart, I can see she had already make a decision. I guess she just looking for a way to break the news to him. Who know that is what he waiting to hear also.. Haha... I am bad...
For a long long time, I had never feel so happy before. You had added colors to my life and I hope one day, my life will become a master artpiece by you. Even though this is an old phase, but I hope the moment when I can say it to you directly can come sooner. "I LOVE YOU!!"
"Now, I belong to you
From this day until forever,
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you every part of me.
Oh, don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without us.
Be always true to me,
Keep this day in your heart eternally."
Lover's Concerto
The dreadful feeling come back to me again after last night msn with her.. The feeling of standing at the crossroad, don't know what to do... Wanted someone to provide me advice but no one is there.. Everything in front seem like a mist, can I really walk through it alone? After doing so much, I still don't know what her thinking and I am getting tired of guessing her thinking and worse, most of the time she said is wrong. With the office conflict and her "issue", I don't know how long I can still hold on... Throughout the whole day, I don't know what should I do or talk to her, so I remain quiet.. She also noticed my strange behavior and asked me am I all right... I keep thinking will my give up really make her feel happy and is this what she truly want? If that is so, I would "fulfill" her wish. As I had said before, the reason why I still at this job is because of her.. so if give up, it will also mean I would leave this job and disappear from her sight so as not to bring back any sad memories.. I am prepared for the night talk and if the worst scenario is to happen, the following monday will be my last day in the office and my leave will be used to cover the whole notice of termination..
At night, I finally know her thinking. My morning initial plan to leave has changed.. She shared with me her story. After listening, I seriously not regretting making my move of letting her know how I feel in the first place.. I will most probably be a more suitable person to her and treat her better than him. To me, I will suggest her to break as the feel is not there anymore. It may pain but is better short term than long term. Summon the courage and tell him the word "break". She might not have the chance to do it again because I will try my very best not to let her say it. She keep told me she don't have an answer but in her heart, I can see she had already make a decision. I guess she just looking for a way to break the news to him. Who know that is what he waiting to hear also.. Haha... I am bad...
For a long long time, I had never feel so happy before. You had added colors to my life and I hope one day, my life will become a master artpiece by you. Even though this is an old phase, but I hope the moment when I can say it to you directly can come sooner. "I LOVE YOU!!"
"Now, I belong to you
From this day until forever,
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you every part of me.
Oh, don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without us.
Be always true to me,
Keep this day in your heart eternally."
Lover's Concerto
Thursday, July 23, 2009
23rd July
A packed day today. Helping her to do all the keypress and finally it had completed. Today is also the first time I let my personal feeling into my work when we are chatting over the office chatting system. I told her for her only, I will help and cover her duty...
After last night long msn chat, I seem to know more about her relationship but also unsure of what holding her back at the same time. She told me to give up for a "cannot tell" reason. She say I will not be able to accept her "flaws". But the thing I like in her is not her appearance only. A relationship is full of give and take. I hope my action and feeling will let her know that I am not those superficial type and I am able to accept her "flaws". No one is perfect including me. Love is not only words but also action. I will let my action, care and concern do the talking. No point saying so much. Or act remorseful after doing something that shouldn't happen in the first place. "一次不忠，百次不容". She can give that "vase breaker" chances, tolerate all his nonsenses and let him be away for half a year but can't give me a chance. Is this fair to me? How do she expect me to admit defeat and give up?
"就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人 让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你 付出我所有"
让我欢喜让我忧
After last night long msn chat, I seem to know more about her relationship but also unsure of what holding her back at the same time. She told me to give up for a "cannot tell" reason. She say I will not be able to accept her "flaws". But the thing I like in her is not her appearance only. A relationship is full of give and take. I hope my action and feeling will let her know that I am not those superficial type and I am able to accept her "flaws". No one is perfect including me. Love is not only words but also action. I will let my action, care and concern do the talking. No point saying so much. Or act remorseful after doing something that shouldn't happen in the first place. "一次不忠，百次不容". She can give that "vase breaker" chances, tolerate all his nonsenses and let him be away for half a year but can't give me a chance. Is this fair to me? How do she expect me to admit defeat and give up?
"就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
你这样一个女人 让我欢喜让我忧
让我甘心为了你 付出我所有"
让我欢喜让我忧
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
22nd July
As days went passed, I get to know more about her... People say "因误会而在一起, 因理解而分开".. But this prove otherwise for me... When I know her more, I sunk deeper for her.. She had told me she worked even later at her previous site.. maybe over there, she had to do everything by herself.. but over here, even when all others don't help her (which don't seem will happen), I will still help her... I heard all her coming weekends will be burnt for office works. If that is going to happen, I will stay throughout with her and clear the works together... even if she planned to go out with him, :( I will still stay back and clear the job for her...
Today she suddenly asked me how is my shutdown preparation.. At that moment, I really very happy, think everything is worthwhile even the preparation is very tedious. I not sure and also don't want to find out what her real intention of asking. I will take it as a concern from her...
At one hand, she persuade me to give up and say her relationship is not as bad as what I think.. At the other hand, she told me she is unhappy and lost trust.... Contradicting but no matter what, I will not give her up and time will prove my love for her... I hope one day she will open her heart and share all her worries, problems and happiness with me..
I think a relationship is just like shopping. When a person went shopping, she may took an apple on first sight, thinking that she will buy it. But along the way, second apple maybe spotted. The second apple might seem to be more suitable to her. There are no rules stating that she need to buy the first apple just because she put it in her trolley. As long as she haven't proceed to the cashier, she still can change it for the second apple. The first apple might not be tastier than the second apple, but why she still insist on getting the first apple, giving it chances hoping it will become tastier? Why can't she just give the second apple a chance even though it is not been spotted in the first place? People might say there maybe third or fourth apple down the road, but if I am the second apple, I will remain fresh and tasty, so she will not think of getting any other apples..
"是你让我看透生命这东西
四个字 坚持到底
如果没有你
我的生活回到一片狼藉
是你让我翻破爱情的秘笈
四个字 坚持到底
不管有多苦
我会全心全力
爱你到底"
坚持到底
Will she be online tonight?? Even though I face her the whole day in office today... It just seem not enough...
Today she suddenly asked me how is my shutdown preparation.. At that moment, I really very happy, think everything is worthwhile even the preparation is very tedious. I not sure and also don't want to find out what her real intention of asking. I will take it as a concern from her...
At one hand, she persuade me to give up and say her relationship is not as bad as what I think.. At the other hand, she told me she is unhappy and lost trust.... Contradicting but no matter what, I will not give her up and time will prove my love for her... I hope one day she will open her heart and share all her worries, problems and happiness with me..
I think a relationship is just like shopping. When a person went shopping, she may took an apple on first sight, thinking that she will buy it. But along the way, second apple maybe spotted. The second apple might seem to be more suitable to her. There are no rules stating that she need to buy the first apple just because she put it in her trolley. As long as she haven't proceed to the cashier, she still can change it for the second apple. The first apple might not be tastier than the second apple, but why she still insist on getting the first apple, giving it chances hoping it will become tastier? Why can't she just give the second apple a chance even though it is not been spotted in the first place? People might say there maybe third or fourth apple down the road, but if I am the second apple, I will remain fresh and tasty, so she will not think of getting any other apples..
"是你让我看透生命这东西
四个字 坚持到底
如果没有你
我的生活回到一片狼藉
是你让我翻破爱情的秘笈
四个字 坚持到底
不管有多苦
我会全心全力
爱你到底"
坚持到底
Will she be online tonight?? Even though I face her the whole day in office today... It just seem not enough...
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
21st July
A normal tuesday went past without noticing... Whole day is busy with rearranging keys.. Again is not my job scope... Seeing her busy with her inventory, I decided to help her with the keys rearrangement...
Since letting her know how I feel, I seem like 2 different person in the day and night... During the day, I had to control what I do or say.. During the night, I tend to be more emotional, can say what is in my heart... Is really liking someone is so hard? If I work hard enough, will I get the happiness I striving for? Is what I been doing doesn't show my sincerity? Why every night I keep thinking of her, hoping she will drop me a sms? Why am I always staring at my ceiling, wondering what I should do next? Why can't a chance been present to me just because I came late? Does been early got the entitlement to have her? Why should I been sentenced to death even before trial? Is my feelings and actions fail to touch her? Why I can't just get her out of my heart? Why am I hoping for something that it might not happen at all? Isn't liking someone is suppose to be happy? But why I am more sad than happy? Does he really make a better choice than me? To her, am I really that inferior to him? Is it I really don't stand any chance to shower her with care and concern, take care of her? There are many questions in my heart waiting for an answer but who can answer them? Maybe the answer is he still far better than me :(....
"喔~相信我无悔无求
我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲
我愿陪你
直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
相信我"
男人不该让女人流泪
Since letting her know how I feel, I seem like 2 different person in the day and night... During the day, I had to control what I do or say.. During the night, I tend to be more emotional, can say what is in my heart... Is really liking someone is so hard? If I work hard enough, will I get the happiness I striving for? Is what I been doing doesn't show my sincerity? Why every night I keep thinking of her, hoping she will drop me a sms? Why am I always staring at my ceiling, wondering what I should do next? Why can't a chance been present to me just because I came late? Does been early got the entitlement to have her? Why should I been sentenced to death even before trial? Is my feelings and actions fail to touch her? Why I can't just get her out of my heart? Why am I hoping for something that it might not happen at all? Isn't liking someone is suppose to be happy? But why I am more sad than happy? Does he really make a better choice than me? To her, am I really that inferior to him? Is it I really don't stand any chance to shower her with care and concern, take care of her? There are many questions in my heart waiting for an answer but who can answer them? Maybe the answer is he still far better than me :(....
"喔~相信我无悔无求
我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲
我愿陪你
直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
相信我"
男人不该让女人流泪
Monday, July 20, 2009
20th July
A busy day due to user move from other site to my site... But early part of the day I not busy with my scope of work... somehow I find by helping others, they will treat me better in return or my "face" value will increase... A good example, if I were to stay, the cleaning supervisor will also stay back with me... maybe due to I always help him out just like helping him to find keys today.. I hope how they treat or give "face" to me, they will also do the same to her... even when I not around..
Since the guy first job, his performance had been quite good.. Within 3 months, he had overtake his colleague to become the building manager and he is also the youngest among the whole team of building managers. With less than 6 month experience, he is been task to handle a 1.3 million A&A project.. He had also become the longest building manager for that particular building as there are many problems with the site.. Imagine a site that change 8 managers in a year... He had managed to solve the problems one by one... During his one and a half stay there, he had done a total of 1.7 million worth of project which is one of the highest in the whole team and not to mentioned all the outstanding problems been solved... but the management say his performance is just satisfactory and no increment or bonus... he quit.... Then he found a short term job which only last for a month...
After which, he found his third job which is doing outsource FM for a investment bank. His role is been switched from total FM to M&E focus.. Without a technical trained background, this job seem to be a challenge to him.. especially when inside a bank, M&E is very critical, advanced and complicated. Everything seem strange to him, his superior only tell him to follow vendor around and handed him a set of drawing to study. He told him anything he don't know, can go and ask him... But the problem is he also not sure what he is suppose to know, so he just learn whatever he could... After 6 months, his superior told him he is transferring back to the main office, there will be someone to cover him but he will be the lead engineer instead of that newcomer.. This cause a fear in him as he scare without his superior around and he is quite inexperienced, he might not be capable to handle the bank front office alone.. Around 1 month later, his superior gone... left only him around.. he learn and work as the time goes by... maybe he is lucky, he managed to overcome one obstacle by another.. completing the task and challenging difficulties from the client, win the support of his vendor.. and eventually overtaking all his same level colleagues in terms of technical knowledge.. become the youngest to handle a site alone.. not only familiar with his site but also another nearby new site... his keen learning has let him to be able to complete the whole power shutdown testing...
Slowly, the site seem to be going on well with him around... Many people including the client managers, say that he got bright future and staying in his current role will only diminish his career prospect.. They told him that a managerial role shouldn't be a problem to him and advise him to move on and he had planned to do so... But when that time is getting closer, a girl was transferred to his site... Initially, that doesn't affect his plan but since don't know when, he start to have feelings for her and drop the idea of career advancement and choose to stay back for her... He also done a lot of things that either he long time doesn't do already or he doesn't do before.. just to let her can have a better working environment and relationship with others...
Base on that guy work performance, he seem to have a bright career.. Maybe others think it is a pity for him to give up, but that guy think otherwise.. when he complete the 1.3 million project, when he overcome every challenge, "traps" set by the client, when he complete the whole power shutdown single handedly, not to mention his vendors.. who is there to share his joy, his achievement? when he face difficulties, who is there to lend him a support? now he finally found the girl and hope she can be the one to share his joy and sorrow... No matter how bright the career, without her, is just dim to him...
People say career is the most important to a guy.. If a guy give up his career advancement because of a girl, what does that mean? How will the girl feel?
"我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果 都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧"
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Since the guy first job, his performance had been quite good.. Within 3 months, he had overtake his colleague to become the building manager and he is also the youngest among the whole team of building managers. With less than 6 month experience, he is been task to handle a 1.3 million A&A project.. He had also become the longest building manager for that particular building as there are many problems with the site.. Imagine a site that change 8 managers in a year... He had managed to solve the problems one by one... During his one and a half stay there, he had done a total of 1.7 million worth of project which is one of the highest in the whole team and not to mentioned all the outstanding problems been solved... but the management say his performance is just satisfactory and no increment or bonus... he quit.... Then he found a short term job which only last for a month...
After which, he found his third job which is doing outsource FM for a investment bank. His role is been switched from total FM to M&E focus.. Without a technical trained background, this job seem to be a challenge to him.. especially when inside a bank, M&E is very critical, advanced and complicated. Everything seem strange to him, his superior only tell him to follow vendor around and handed him a set of drawing to study. He told him anything he don't know, can go and ask him... But the problem is he also not sure what he is suppose to know, so he just learn whatever he could... After 6 months, his superior told him he is transferring back to the main office, there will be someone to cover him but he will be the lead engineer instead of that newcomer.. This cause a fear in him as he scare without his superior around and he is quite inexperienced, he might not be capable to handle the bank front office alone.. Around 1 month later, his superior gone... left only him around.. he learn and work as the time goes by... maybe he is lucky, he managed to overcome one obstacle by another.. completing the task and challenging difficulties from the client, win the support of his vendor.. and eventually overtaking all his same level colleagues in terms of technical knowledge.. become the youngest to handle a site alone.. not only familiar with his site but also another nearby new site... his keen learning has let him to be able to complete the whole power shutdown testing...
Slowly, the site seem to be going on well with him around... Many people including the client managers, say that he got bright future and staying in his current role will only diminish his career prospect.. They told him that a managerial role shouldn't be a problem to him and advise him to move on and he had planned to do so... But when that time is getting closer, a girl was transferred to his site... Initially, that doesn't affect his plan but since don't know when, he start to have feelings for her and drop the idea of career advancement and choose to stay back for her... He also done a lot of things that either he long time doesn't do already or he doesn't do before.. just to let her can have a better working environment and relationship with others...
Base on that guy work performance, he seem to have a bright career.. Maybe others think it is a pity for him to give up, but that guy think otherwise.. when he complete the 1.3 million project, when he overcome every challenge, "traps" set by the client, when he complete the whole power shutdown single handedly, not to mention his vendors.. who is there to share his joy, his achievement? when he face difficulties, who is there to lend him a support? now he finally found the girl and hope she can be the one to share his joy and sorrow... No matter how bright the career, without her, is just dim to him...
People say career is the most important to a guy.. If a guy give up his career advancement because of a girl, what does that mean? How will the girl feel?
"我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果 都算了 不要呢
或许吧 或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧"
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
19th July
Today is a day of mixed feelings. Initial plan in the morning is to go back office even though I am not really required to do so... because I know she will be back.. Late morning, I had decided not to go back as I had drop the idea of asking her out after work due to this week is quite busy for her and same goes to the next few weeks.. I wanted her to have more rest and do not want to see her over tired.. Then in the early afternoon, due to some reasons, I was back in office.. Since there was a change in plan, I asked her if she want to go out for a walk with me and she agreed.. I was contented for the times with her even it is just only 2 hours... everything seem to be worthwhile including the almost 12 hours of work yesterday..
A thing that make me happy today is when she told me the watch she looking for is for herself and not for him.. :D
"无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能
无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人"
无条件为你
A thing that make me happy today is when she told me the watch she looking for is for herself and not for him.. :D
"无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能
无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人"
无条件为你
Saturday, July 18, 2009
18th July
Reached office at 8+, whole office is empty... Thought vendor will be early but they failed to surprise me.. The earliest vendor come at 9+... Maybe I been through all these for "so many" times, this long maintenance work seem normal to me...
Since nothing to do, I turn on my laptop and listen to some songs.. If she is more observant, she will know that all the songs I played is those with special "meaning".. Slowly, one by one vendor came in and I do all the necessary arrangement. I know all these work is not under my duty to take care and she had reminded me of that.. But don't she think it is useless as my mind already set to cover for her? I am extremely happy to know her honest answer from her heart when she told me been with me, she feel happy.. All my efforts seem to be worthwhile.. I don't know how honest her answer is, but I choose to believe it...
Think the "greatest" thing of the day will be I suggested to cover for her during the evening, so she can go ahead with her weekly "appointment" with him.. Why I would do that? Cos I know the feeling of waiting, the feeling of can't be with someone and I know if she miss this "appointment", she will most probably get to see him again in a week's time.. All these will only result in unhappiness... If I let her go, I will be unhappy... If I let her miss the "appointment", she will be unhappy.. I really don't wish to see the latter, so I choose to cover for her.. just let me be the only person to "suffer" rather than two person... That also the reason why I keep persuading her to go off early... The longer she stay and I know she will be meeting him after that, it just make me more depressed....
Tonight got fireworks for NDP, I hope one day I can watch the short beautiful moments with her, just the both of us... maybe there is no maybe at all... I had sms her if she had saw the fireworks with him, she had replied no and asked me what time I left the office.. I choose not to reply as I know this might only affect her tonight mood... Each time she ask me what time I am leaving office today, I hope it is a concern from her and not just for the sake of asking or to feel less guilty.. Please don't feel bad or guilty for what I had done and pity or sympathize me for that...
Tonight is the only night that I feel not to reply your sms or waiting for u to online in msn...
"我不管你用任何眼光看我 我都不会选择放弃
我要坚持到底 忽略那些冷言冷语
爱是如此珍贵 值得我们彼此相信
两颗心才越靠越近
And no one knows
Why I’m into you
Cause you'll never know
what its like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That’s why we'll break through
And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by
things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that
give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like,
I lean you on that Prada
You ain’t got to match with the shoes
我知道每一次的沟通 就会让我爱你更多
跟一次的拥抱 温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸 美好或相同"
Be With You
Since nothing to do, I turn on my laptop and listen to some songs.. If she is more observant, she will know that all the songs I played is those with special "meaning".. Slowly, one by one vendor came in and I do all the necessary arrangement. I know all these work is not under my duty to take care and she had reminded me of that.. But don't she think it is useless as my mind already set to cover for her? I am extremely happy to know her honest answer from her heart when she told me been with me, she feel happy.. All my efforts seem to be worthwhile.. I don't know how honest her answer is, but I choose to believe it...
Think the "greatest" thing of the day will be I suggested to cover for her during the evening, so she can go ahead with her weekly "appointment" with him.. Why I would do that? Cos I know the feeling of waiting, the feeling of can't be with someone and I know if she miss this "appointment", she will most probably get to see him again in a week's time.. All these will only result in unhappiness... If I let her go, I will be unhappy... If I let her miss the "appointment", she will be unhappy.. I really don't wish to see the latter, so I choose to cover for her.. just let me be the only person to "suffer" rather than two person... That also the reason why I keep persuading her to go off early... The longer she stay and I know she will be meeting him after that, it just make me more depressed....
Tonight got fireworks for NDP, I hope one day I can watch the short beautiful moments with her, just the both of us... maybe there is no maybe at all... I had sms her if she had saw the fireworks with him, she had replied no and asked me what time I left the office.. I choose not to reply as I know this might only affect her tonight mood... Each time she ask me what time I am leaving office today, I hope it is a concern from her and not just for the sake of asking or to feel less guilty.. Please don't feel bad or guilty for what I had done and pity or sympathize me for that...
Tonight is the only night that I feel not to reply your sms or waiting for u to online in msn...
"我不管你用任何眼光看我 我都不会选择放弃
我要坚持到底 忽略那些冷言冷语
爱是如此珍贵 值得我们彼此相信
两颗心才越靠越近
And no one knows
Why I’m into you
Cause you'll never know
what its like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That’s why we'll break through
And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by
things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that
give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like,
I lean you on that Prada
You ain’t got to match with the shoes
我知道每一次的沟通 就会让我爱你更多
跟一次的拥抱 温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸 美好或相同"
Be With You
17th July
Not a peaceful day today.. One of the glass inside the office shattered, I believed a person ability can only be shown during emergency or alarms. As I had experienced this before, I can handle the situation calmly... While waiting for the vendor to come and cleared the mess, my security concierge ask me to postphone my plan of throwing letter till the sept shutdown is over.. Although my answer to him is see how, but I already decided to defer my plan till "further notice".. Reason is not because of anything but her...
I thought the night will be ending after dinner when she told me she going to take mrt home.. I wanted to ask her for a drink as it is not easy to be alone with her recently due to "the kid" always so fated to be with us.. But I scare that will make her feel uneasy as I don't know how she will think.. so no choice but to keep quiet and accompany her to mrt.. Luckily upon reaching mrt, she say she wanted to get a drink, then I know the night will be "extend". While drinking at macdonald, we watch and discuss about the drama.. As the aircon is quite cold after some time and she is wearing sleeveless, I suggested to go to the outdoor where it will be warmer. Even though I wanted to continue watching the drama with her but the time is late, so I told her she had to go home after that episode. Don't want to put her in difficult position, I decided not to send her home even though I wanted to..
Tomorrow will be a busy day again.. She is asked to come in the morning but I think she should know that with me around, she can just go for her training and come in the afternoon. And only she has the ability to make me do it for her voluntarily.. So I told her I will cover for her and she agreed.
I really enjoyed the times with her, make me forget all the day problems and doing anything just for that few moments with her is also worthwhile. Human is greedy, now I hoping she isn't meeting "anyone" tomorrow as the work has no fixed completion timing.. but even she meeting "that one", I will also respect her wish and cover for her till the work completed... I can do anything as long as she is happy...
"咖啡麻醉不了孤单 只会让心更烫
哦 都一样 所谓梦想 终究飘飘荡荡
在迷乱的台北流浪 寻找一个幻想
突然很渴望在我身上 找到妳要的靠岸
这一刻 当我们都感觉到彼此的心愿
爱情早已经开始 思念早已经蔓延"
靠岸
I thought the night will be ending after dinner when she told me she going to take mrt home.. I wanted to ask her for a drink as it is not easy to be alone with her recently due to "the kid" always so fated to be with us.. But I scare that will make her feel uneasy as I don't know how she will think.. so no choice but to keep quiet and accompany her to mrt.. Luckily upon reaching mrt, she say she wanted to get a drink, then I know the night will be "extend". While drinking at macdonald, we watch and discuss about the drama.. As the aircon is quite cold after some time and she is wearing sleeveless, I suggested to go to the outdoor where it will be warmer. Even though I wanted to continue watching the drama with her but the time is late, so I told her she had to go home after that episode. Don't want to put her in difficult position, I decided not to send her home even though I wanted to..
Tomorrow will be a busy day again.. She is asked to come in the morning but I think she should know that with me around, she can just go for her training and come in the afternoon. And only she has the ability to make me do it for her voluntarily.. So I told her I will cover for her and she agreed.
I really enjoyed the times with her, make me forget all the day problems and doing anything just for that few moments with her is also worthwhile. Human is greedy, now I hoping she isn't meeting "anyone" tomorrow as the work has no fixed completion timing.. but even she meeting "that one", I will also respect her wish and cover for her till the work completed... I can do anything as long as she is happy...
"咖啡麻醉不了孤单 只会让心更烫
哦 都一样 所谓梦想 终究飘飘荡荡
在迷乱的台北流浪 寻找一个幻想
突然很渴望在我身上 找到妳要的靠岸
这一刻 当我们都感觉到彼此的心愿
爱情早已经开始 思念早已经蔓延"
靠岸
Thursday, July 16, 2009
16th July
Nothing special today.. But been with her, it become like a fruitful day.. Clearing office storeroom today, actually it is not my job but eventually I suggest ideas on how to rearrange and move the stores. I think I really had changed since she arrived here.. I start to become more "helpful" and my working interaction with everyone seem to have improve..
I thought somehow by letting her know how I feel, it will affect our daily working interaction. But surprise it doesn't affect much, still the same as in the past, I hope this will continue...
Maybe really is fate, tomorrow we are meeting for dinner again due to got after office hour work.. I will try my best not to let her feel so bored again... I feel like I get to know her better with everyday went past.. I will keep my promise and wait for her till the day I can moved her heart..
Found a song that can really describe my feeling at the moment..
"Let's fall in love 她却不晓得
我每一分钟都等着 她这样承诺
Let's fall in love 在匆忙人世中
我从来没怀疑过 这样一个选择
她微笑诉说 心中想些什么
我多么希望她能够 其中提到我
Let's fall in love 她还不晓得
在她眼中我的脸 是多么的失落
Let's fall in love 在拥挤的寂寞中
哪一天她会开口 说
Let's fall in love"
Let's fall in love
I thought somehow by letting her know how I feel, it will affect our daily working interaction. But surprise it doesn't affect much, still the same as in the past, I hope this will continue...
Maybe really is fate, tomorrow we are meeting for dinner again due to got after office hour work.. I will try my best not to let her feel so bored again... I feel like I get to know her better with everyday went past.. I will keep my promise and wait for her till the day I can moved her heart..
Found a song that can really describe my feeling at the moment..
"Let's fall in love 她却不晓得
我每一分钟都等着 她这样承诺
Let's fall in love 在匆忙人世中
我从来没怀疑过 这样一个选择
她微笑诉说 心中想些什么
我多么希望她能够 其中提到我
Let's fall in love 她还不晓得
在她眼中我的脸 是多么的失落
Let's fall in love 在拥挤的寂寞中
哪一天她会开口 说
Let's fall in love"
Let's fall in love
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
15th July
First day back to work.. seem like quite a long break when it is only 7 days... Whole morning busy clearing email and outstanding work.. But it is better than reservist...
Finally got the chance to lunch with her again.. Maybe our conversation has bored her, she seem rather quiet and bored throughout the whole lunch... wanted to change topic so she can involve, but I failed to do so... :( After lunch, as usual, we go walk walk and while waiting for my shift engineer to queue for some phone enquires, me and her sit down there and watch tvb drama.. I really hope this can last forever, sharing our view on the drama and occasionally, seeing her getting over excited over the drama... But happy times don't last, soon we are back to office..
Not long after, is time to knock off and again can go walk walk with her. We decided to walk to Marina Square for dinner.. Along the way, we passed by Mango shop, I guessed she will go in to take a look after dinner and I am correct. Wanted to accompany her to go in but as my shift engineer is around, I don't want her to feel awkward, so I waited outside for her. Then we go for a drink at Suntec.. All the while she just listened to our conversation.. I wanted to talk to her but guessed she doesn't want "others" to be suspicious, so I just have to carry on the conversation... Then her phone ring, first thought is that "someone" call her, then ask her if she want to go somewhere.. My heart is like suspending in the air.. Then luckily she reject... My mood lighten up but dampen again when I saw her look tired and trying to "endure" through the night... Throughout the whole night, I tried to hold back in many instances just not to arouse any suspicion...
Maybe is fate.. suddenly the next few weekends is full of maintenance works.. does that mean we will have more time together?
"是你在那个雨季冲进我生命 带着一点任信和迷人的表情
是你在那个雨季赶走了孤寂 温暖的笑容还我仅有的坚定
天上一万颗星星 我却只看见你
要说这是幸运 还是不可思议
身边有太多风景 我却停在这里
说我傻得可以 还不是因为你
是你的声音 带给我勇气
恋爱的频率 直到我心底
如果你愿意 是的我愿意
爱在我幸福的主旋律"
愛的主旋律
Finally got the chance to lunch with her again.. Maybe our conversation has bored her, she seem rather quiet and bored throughout the whole lunch... wanted to change topic so she can involve, but I failed to do so... :( After lunch, as usual, we go walk walk and while waiting for my shift engineer to queue for some phone enquires, me and her sit down there and watch tvb drama.. I really hope this can last forever, sharing our view on the drama and occasionally, seeing her getting over excited over the drama... But happy times don't last, soon we are back to office..
Not long after, is time to knock off and again can go walk walk with her. We decided to walk to Marina Square for dinner.. Along the way, we passed by Mango shop, I guessed she will go in to take a look after dinner and I am correct. Wanted to accompany her to go in but as my shift engineer is around, I don't want her to feel awkward, so I waited outside for her. Then we go for a drink at Suntec.. All the while she just listened to our conversation.. I wanted to talk to her but guessed she doesn't want "others" to be suspicious, so I just have to carry on the conversation... Then her phone ring, first thought is that "someone" call her, then ask her if she want to go somewhere.. My heart is like suspending in the air.. Then luckily she reject... My mood lighten up but dampen again when I saw her look tired and trying to "endure" through the night... Throughout the whole night, I tried to hold back in many instances just not to arouse any suspicion...
Maybe is fate.. suddenly the next few weekends is full of maintenance works.. does that mean we will have more time together?
"是你在那个雨季冲进我生命 带着一点任信和迷人的表情
是你在那个雨季赶走了孤寂 温暖的笑容还我仅有的坚定
天上一万颗星星 我却只看见你
要说这是幸运 还是不可思议
身边有太多风景 我却停在这里
说我傻得可以 还不是因为你
是你的声音 带给我勇气
恋爱的频率 直到我心底
如果你愿意 是的我愿意
爱在我幸福的主旋律"
愛的主旋律
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
14th July
What should I say? Today is the last day of reservist and also the clocking of 4th high key in camp training.. But more happy is I can see her again daily from tomorrow onwards.. to add up my happiness, tomorrow we are going out for dinner even though there is someone else joining... Waiting to go out with her make me become a small kid waiting for excursion.. Where has the usual me that can command a power shutdown goes to?? I think only she has the ability to make my usual self disappear...
To conclude, this reservist is the most relax as compared to all my previous but as usual, the waiting for next thing to happen is what I hate.. Luckily, her sms had support me through the period.. I think the longest waiting that I had without getting frustrated is to wait for her during weekends...
"忘了怎么开始
也许就对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你 真很简单
爱地暗天黑都已无所谓
非非无法抉择
没有后悔 为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂人我 喔～
I LOVE YOU 无法不爱着你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你
不可能更快乐 只要能一起 做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停 用最真诚心 让爱变简单"
爱很简单
I agree a relationship consists of many factors. Is true that unhappy might not end up in giving up but maybe if we do it in a more "logical" way, list out all the affecting factors and analysis which factors fail to make the mark, it might help one more easy to make the decision. If the relationship is giving the person more trouble than happiness, why don't just face the short term pain rather than the long term "torturing".. It might benefit both parties in the long run..
My preception: whatever matters that concern love, it is better not to deceive oneself, because eventually you might not be the only one that get hurt or regret, surrounding people might also be hurt in the process.. Be fair to oneself and follow your heart.. it might lead you the wrong way but at least you had tried before and will not regret as much...
To conclude, this reservist is the most relax as compared to all my previous but as usual, the waiting for next thing to happen is what I hate.. Luckily, her sms had support me through the period.. I think the longest waiting that I had without getting frustrated is to wait for her during weekends...
"忘了怎么开始
也许就对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你 真很简单
爱地暗天黑都已无所谓
非非无法抉择
没有后悔 为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂人我 喔～
I LOVE YOU 无法不爱着你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你
不可能更快乐 只要能一起 做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停 用最真诚心 让爱变简单"
爱很简单
I agree a relationship consists of many factors. Is true that unhappy might not end up in giving up but maybe if we do it in a more "logical" way, list out all the affecting factors and analysis which factors fail to make the mark, it might help one more easy to make the decision. If the relationship is giving the person more trouble than happiness, why don't just face the short term pain rather than the long term "torturing".. It might benefit both parties in the long run..
My preception: whatever matters that concern love, it is better not to deceive oneself, because eventually you might not be the only one that get hurt or regret, surrounding people might also be hurt in the process.. Be fair to oneself and follow your heart.. it might lead you the wrong way but at least you had tried before and will not regret as much...
Monday, July 13, 2009
13th July
Today is the earliest day to fall out from the camp due to we had finished our proficiency test sooner than expected. So fast tomorrow is the last day of reservist..
I promised to wait for her but sometime I simply just can't hold on my feelings.. Whenever my phone received new message, I hope it is from her but always it is those nuisance user complaints tickets from my office.. Recently become so emotional, maybe is due to I had not seen her for so many days and the only way of contact is through msn or sms.. Somehow without seeing her make me feel rather uneasy.. Once again, I admire her boyfriend can only meet her once a week and go overseas for half a year.. I just didn't see her for 3-4 days, I already find it hard to endure even there is sms and msn going on... The feeling is I never experienced before, does that mean I didn't treat my previous relationship as serious as this? I know because of my "status", many things got a limitation such as I wanted to know how she have been? Busy for the day? Anything she need help or share with me? None of this I can do as I afraid she might just ignore me forever...
This time round, I admit defeat.. I don't know how but she managed to break me down emotionally... She had told me don't think too much but no matter how hard I tried, my thinking would eventually goes to her... I don't wish to give her up as I know I might not find another one that is same like her... If fate arranged for the site rotation which permits us to know each other, when can we be together?
A couple in love should be happy but why she always don't seem so.. and this made me feel sad also... Is she just holding on? Does she feel anything for me? Touched for all the things I done for her? Her boyfriend more suitable for her? Her boyfriend can bring more happiness to her? Does I got any place in her heart? Did she ever got think of me? Does she know my "suffering" everyday? I got too many questions to ask her but I know this will just pressurize her more... so all these questions will remain in my heart... I just hope one day, she can pick up her courage, be fair to herself and follow her heart... I remember she said before, during a breakup, the gal will suffered tremendous stress and sadness.. I wanted to let her know, no matter what happen, I will be there for her...
"没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你"
对不起我爱你
I notice one thing, whenever I sms her, there will sure be some delay in her reply which I don't mind... As long as she got replied, I am already contented.. But what make me curious is why she need to delay in replying? I "choose" to act blur for thinking of an answer... as I don't want to face any "bad" news anymore...
For her info, every song in all the post represent my thinking to her...
I promised to wait for her but sometime I simply just can't hold on my feelings.. Whenever my phone received new message, I hope it is from her but always it is those nuisance user complaints tickets from my office.. Recently become so emotional, maybe is due to I had not seen her for so many days and the only way of contact is through msn or sms.. Somehow without seeing her make me feel rather uneasy.. Once again, I admire her boyfriend can only meet her once a week and go overseas for half a year.. I just didn't see her for 3-4 days, I already find it hard to endure even there is sms and msn going on... The feeling is I never experienced before, does that mean I didn't treat my previous relationship as serious as this? I know because of my "status", many things got a limitation such as I wanted to know how she have been? Busy for the day? Anything she need help or share with me? None of this I can do as I afraid she might just ignore me forever...
This time round, I admit defeat.. I don't know how but she managed to break me down emotionally... She had told me don't think too much but no matter how hard I tried, my thinking would eventually goes to her... I don't wish to give her up as I know I might not find another one that is same like her... If fate arranged for the site rotation which permits us to know each other, when can we be together?
A couple in love should be happy but why she always don't seem so.. and this made me feel sad also... Is she just holding on? Does she feel anything for me? Touched for all the things I done for her? Her boyfriend more suitable for her? Her boyfriend can bring more happiness to her? Does I got any place in her heart? Did she ever got think of me? Does she know my "suffering" everyday? I got too many questions to ask her but I know this will just pressurize her more... so all these questions will remain in my heart... I just hope one day, she can pick up her courage, be fair to herself and follow her heart... I remember she said before, during a breakup, the gal will suffered tremendous stress and sadness.. I wanted to let her know, no matter what happen, I will be there for her...
"没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你"
对不起我爱你
I notice one thing, whenever I sms her, there will sure be some delay in her reply which I don't mind... As long as she got replied, I am already contented.. But what make me curious is why she need to delay in replying? I "choose" to act blur for thinking of an answer... as I don't want to face any "bad" news anymore...
For her info, every song in all the post represent my thinking to her...
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Will She Believe?
Will she believe that she is always on my mind? I think her habit of checking her phone of sms had influenced me, now I also constantly checking my phone for her sms even though I know she will only reply sms and not initial... I don't blame her as my status is still a friend to her... Whenever I am happy or sad, I wish she is the first person that I can shared with... I am always thinking of how to give her surprise, make her laugh, so she can be happier and forget the unhappy stuff at least for that moment... I feel worried for her when I know she is out for the night and never replied back my sms... and now after the recent taekwondo accident, I was scared that she will be injured during training, so I constantly reminded her to be more careful.. I feel like telling her I miss her... but I know doing that will only make her more miserable, forcing her to make a decision.. so I would rather "suffer" than let her know....
From don't know when, our sms had "expand" from work related only to also non work related.. I wish to tell her to follow her heart and "don't think too much" but I scared that it will become a misinterpretation of breaking her current relationship... What should I do??
"我的心想唱首歌给你听 歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞 我没有勇气 等你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语 难道你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意
千言万语裏 只有一句话能表白我的心
千言万语裏 只要一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的梁山伯
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
把爱不放开"
梁山伯与茱丽叶
I had also include one of her favorite song "容祖儿-心淡" as the background music... The chorus part music is nice but the meaning doesn't represent how I feel... cos my feeling for her is not 淡.. :)
From don't know when, our sms had "expand" from work related only to also non work related.. I wish to tell her to follow her heart and "don't think too much" but I scared that it will become a misinterpretation of breaking her current relationship... What should I do??
"我的心想唱首歌给你听 歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞 我没有勇气 等你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语 难道你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意
千言万语裏 只有一句话能表白我的心
千言万语裏 只要一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的梁山伯
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
把爱不放开"
梁山伯与茱丽叶
I had also include one of her favorite song "容祖儿-心淡" as the background music... The chorus part music is nice but the meaning doesn't represent how I feel... cos my feeling for her is not 淡.. :)
游龙戏凤
幸福是一个水晶球, 从天空掉了下来, 掉到地上摔的粉碎, 碎片到处都是, 无论你怎么努力, 都捡不完, 我相信只要我们努力了, 玻璃球的碎片怎么都会捡到一点, 那就是幸福
Just finished the 2nd part of 游龙戏凤, the above phase is the declaration from Andy Lau to Shu Qi.. If one really try and work hard, will he really get the happiness he want?
I think the most touching part will be the last part "幸福是要争取的". Is love really can let people overcome all barrier? Like the views from other people when the driver and the single mother is together... Will a gal be touched after the guy had changed and done so much for her? Like how Andy Lau had given up the investment plans and learn how to sms in chinese... The giving or saying of her may not be significant to her but to him, it mean a lot.. just like the champagne glass in the movie...
I like the part when Andy Lau ask his driver 3 question: 喜不喜欢? 喜不喜欢? 喜不喜欢? If everything can based on 喜不喜欢, then there will not be so much problem... I hope she can follow her heart also...
Waiting for her to online to send her the coreplayer, so she can watched video on her handphone.. Hope this time round, the player can work or my yesterday night effort will go down the drain...
Just finished the 2nd part of 游龙戏凤, the above phase is the declaration from Andy Lau to Shu Qi.. If one really try and work hard, will he really get the happiness he want?
I think the most touching part will be the last part "幸福是要争取的". Is love really can let people overcome all barrier? Like the views from other people when the driver and the single mother is together... Will a gal be touched after the guy had changed and done so much for her? Like how Andy Lau had given up the investment plans and learn how to sms in chinese... The giving or saying of her may not be significant to her but to him, it mean a lot.. just like the champagne glass in the movie...
I like the part when Andy Lau ask his driver 3 question: 喜不喜欢? 喜不喜欢? 喜不喜欢? If everything can based on 喜不喜欢, then there will not be so much problem... I hope she can follow her heart also...
Waiting for her to online to send her the coreplayer, so she can watched video on her handphone.. Hope this time round, the player can work or my yesterday night effort will go down the drain...
12th July
Here comes the Sunday again... Wake up at 6+ due to an unusual feeling, feel worried as I never saw her replying my sms since last evening and never saw her online.. Wonder if I should sms her to find out how she is but eventually I does that.. I know that action seem to beyond the "limitation" of a friend should do and instead of showing concern, it will become like a pressure to her.. Hope she don't seem it that way... Anyway, I glad that she replied she is all right..
"若不是因为爱着你 怎会有不安的情绪
每个莫名的日子里 我想你 想你 好想你
爱是折磨人的东西 却又舍不得这样放弃
不停揣测你的心里 可有我姓名
爱是我唯一的秘密 让人心碎却又着迷
无论是用什么言语 只会 只会思念你"
爱情
After all the recent "happenings", I had decided to stay after my site power shutdown. It will mean I can still be with her for some more time but it will also mean a lot a lot of work and preparation need to be done.. not to mention is the "play me out" session from my boss and that will also mean my next "advancing" appointment will be delayed.. I know questions will be asked if this is worthwhile? For her, I think the answer is yes.. As what she usually say, don't think too much.... hahhahaaa :p
Tomorrow is another boring day again.. proficiency test.. but think positively, is the 2nd last day of reservist... once tomorrow is gone, nothing much left as last day is for feedback and debrief... then I can have lunch with her again... hahaaa..
If only she can practise her decisiveness on her work to her relationship matters, then situation might be different... 天底下没有不散的宴席, hope she will understand.. as what I had come across somewhere before, don't hold on because of duration, but hold on because of interest (feel)...
"若不是因为爱着你 怎会有不安的情绪
每个莫名的日子里 我想你 想你 好想你
爱是折磨人的东西 却又舍不得这样放弃
不停揣测你的心里 可有我姓名
爱是我唯一的秘密 让人心碎却又着迷
无论是用什么言语 只会 只会思念你"
爱情
After all the recent "happenings", I had decided to stay after my site power shutdown. It will mean I can still be with her for some more time but it will also mean a lot a lot of work and preparation need to be done.. not to mention is the "play me out" session from my boss and that will also mean my next "advancing" appointment will be delayed.. I know questions will be asked if this is worthwhile? For her, I think the answer is yes.. As what she usually say, don't think too much.... hahhahaaa :p
Tomorrow is another boring day again.. proficiency test.. but think positively, is the 2nd last day of reservist... once tomorrow is gone, nothing much left as last day is for feedback and debrief... then I can have lunch with her again... hahaaa..
If only she can practise her decisiveness on her work to her relationship matters, then situation might be different... 天底下没有不散的宴席, hope she will understand.. as what I had come across somewhere before, don't hold on because of duration, but hold on because of interest (feel)...
Saturday, July 11, 2009
11th July
I think this is the first time we watch a movie together... on my laptop inside the office... A pity is that we only manage to watch the first part as she need to rush off for her "weekly" appointment.. At first, I thought there is a major scheduled maintenance work, so she need to come back to supervise. Later I found out that the work had been rescheduled and left only a minor A&A work. I wonder why she still come back? I hope the reason is because I am going back but I think the possibility is not high...
I think she is watching transformer 2 tonight as I "accidentally" saw her screen on the booking tickets page. I can sensed that she is feeling unhappy again. Firstly, when I ask her what time she leaving, she answered don't know with a depressed tone. Secondly, she keep going into the cinema seating booking plan but wait till timed out. My guess will be she is unsure whether that "someone" want to watch with her... I don't know if I should hope my guess is correct or not. If correct, she will be unhappy and I will unhappy also. If incorrect, I will be demoralised... But anyway, I managed to let her have a few laughs from the movie we watched. Hope this will let her mood be better.
Even though is just a mere 2.5 hours together, I already contented. Maybe my subconscious told me I can be with her is not an entitlement but a privilege. I think my thinking has "matured"... Worse, I help her to look out for any watch sale as this is most probably a gift from her to the "someone".... What am I doing??
"The smile on your face
Let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all"
When You Say Nothing At All
I think she is watching transformer 2 tonight as I "accidentally" saw her screen on the booking tickets page. I can sensed that she is feeling unhappy again. Firstly, when I ask her what time she leaving, she answered don't know with a depressed tone. Secondly, she keep going into the cinema seating booking plan but wait till timed out. My guess will be she is unsure whether that "someone" want to watch with her... I don't know if I should hope my guess is correct or not. If correct, she will be unhappy and I will unhappy also. If incorrect, I will be demoralised... But anyway, I managed to let her have a few laughs from the movie we watched. Hope this will let her mood be better.
Even though is just a mere 2.5 hours together, I already contented. Maybe my subconscious told me I can be with her is not an entitlement but a privilege. I think my thinking has "matured"... Worse, I help her to look out for any watch sale as this is most probably a gift from her to the "someone".... What am I doing??
"The smile on your face
Let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all"
When You Say Nothing At All
11th July
It has been very very very long that I woke up at 8+am on a saturday morning... The feeling is so shiok and some more, get to see her again in the afternoon after such a "long" time... hahaa.. How can such a simple thing make me so happy? If it is in the past, I would rather stayed at home than making a trip to office.. But now, I don't mind doing anything just for the sake of her.. Is it the knowing of her have changed me?
"有个女孩让我好想念
我的心已经飞到这个城市的另一边
想看着你 我爱的脸
把心里的感情都对你说
那马路上天天都在塞
而每个人天天在忍耐
没有你日子很黑白
原来这样就是恋爱
我想要你在我身边
分享生命中的一切
我想要 天天说 天天说
天天对你说 我有多爱你"
天天
"有个女孩让我好想念
我的心已经飞到这个城市的另一边
想看着你 我爱的脸
把心里的感情都对你说
那马路上天天都在塞
而每个人天天在忍耐
没有你日子很黑白
原来这样就是恋爱
我想要你在我身边
分享生命中的一切
我想要 天天说 天天说
天天对你说 我有多爱你"
天天
Friday, July 10, 2009
10th July
The long boring week has ended finally... no more lecture, waiting and briefing... Today ended quite late due to after action review but lucky is tomorrow no need to go back. By the time, I leave camp is already 6.25pm... Strange, when I am in office, I don't find that time is late, I even think that it is still early.. maybe the reason lies with she is around....
Even though is just 6 days, I got a feeling like very long never saw her.. Can't wait for tomorrow to come even it will just a few hours of together... Wonder does her boyfriend have this feeling also? If he does, he will not only meet her once per week... oops.. I talk bad about him again.. haha.. If I am not wearing that stupid green uniform, I will sure meet her for dinner and go walk walk near her place as my camp is around that area also.. But too bad... those have chance don't cherish, those cherish but no chance.....
I am getting easier satisfied nowadays.. Just msn or receive sms from her will make my day happy.. Even happier when she asking me how I am... Maybe I have realised love doesn't mean possession.. as long as she is happy, I will also happy... But it will be better if I can have the privilege of possession... hahahaaaa
"虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂 就算牵的不是我的手 我不真的难过
不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容 有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己 I Believe
你终会看到我 在某个时候 想让你陪伴的是我"
I Believe
Even though is just 6 days, I got a feeling like very long never saw her.. Can't wait for tomorrow to come even it will just a few hours of together... Wonder does her boyfriend have this feeling also? If he does, he will not only meet her once per week... oops.. I talk bad about him again.. haha.. If I am not wearing that stupid green uniform, I will sure meet her for dinner and go walk walk near her place as my camp is around that area also.. But too bad... those have chance don't cherish, those cherish but no chance.....
I am getting easier satisfied nowadays.. Just msn or receive sms from her will make my day happy.. Even happier when she asking me how I am... Maybe I have realised love doesn't mean possession.. as long as she is happy, I will also happy... But it will be better if I can have the privilege of possession... hahahaaaa
"虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂 就算牵的不是我的手 我不真的难过
不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容 有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己 I Believe
你终会看到我 在某个时候 想让你陪伴的是我"
I Believe
Thursday, July 9, 2009
9th July
Yeah!! Half of the whole reservist had passed.. I think this is what all NSman is looking forward to. Today is a boring day full of lecture, luckily sms with her managed to keep me awake... Saturday most probably will drop by office as I do not need to go back to camp as I had my IPPT cleared.
Last night finally I get to know what she think. Even though the answer is not what I had hope for, but I have confidence that one day my action will moved her heart. I will continue to work towards this target as good things is usually hard to get. Ganbatte!!!! 精诚所至,金石为开
"我的世界 变得奇妙更难以言喻
还以为 是从天而降的梦境
直到确定 手的温度来自你心里
这一刻 我终于勇敢说爱你
一开始 我只顾着看你
装做不经意 心却飘过去
还窃喜 你 没发现我 躲在角落
忙着快乐 忙着感动
从彼此陌生到熟 会是我们从没想过
真爱 到现在 不敢期待
要证明自己 曾被你想起 Really
我胡思乱想就从今天起 I wish
像一个陷阱 却从未犹豫 相信
你真的愿意 就请给我惊喜"
说爱你
Relationship is like a plant. It need two party to water and add fertilizer for it to grow. If both party don't understand each other, they might over water or didn't water the plant due to no communication or don't know each other thinking. Sooner or later, the plant will die off... For it to grow healthily, both will need to shower it with care and concern. If anyone party had lost the feel or interest to take care of the plant, it might not be a bad idea to give it up as holding on to it will only be wasting time and making both party to be unhappy in the future... But on the other hand, if the plant is growing well, it should be able to survive through all kinds of weather.
I hope "someone" will agree with me on the above same view...
A love story that is familiar
洪俊扬 杜蕙甹 明年1月结婚
洪俊扬靠狗求婚 杜蕙甹感动落泪
Project SuperStar are getting married!
Last night finally I get to know what she think. Even though the answer is not what I had hope for, but I have confidence that one day my action will moved her heart. I will continue to work towards this target as good things is usually hard to get. Ganbatte!!!! 精诚所至,金石为开
"我的世界 变得奇妙更难以言喻
还以为 是从天而降的梦境
直到确定 手的温度来自你心里
这一刻 我终于勇敢说爱你
一开始 我只顾着看你
装做不经意 心却飘过去
还窃喜 你 没发现我 躲在角落
忙着快乐 忙着感动
从彼此陌生到熟 会是我们从没想过
真爱 到现在 不敢期待
要证明自己 曾被你想起 Really
我胡思乱想就从今天起 I wish
像一个陷阱 却从未犹豫 相信
你真的愿意 就请给我惊喜"
说爱你
Relationship is like a plant. It need two party to water and add fertilizer for it to grow. If both party don't understand each other, they might over water or didn't water the plant due to no communication or don't know each other thinking. Sooner or later, the plant will die off... For it to grow healthily, both will need to shower it with care and concern. If anyone party had lost the feel or interest to take care of the plant, it might not be a bad idea to give it up as holding on to it will only be wasting time and making both party to be unhappy in the future... But on the other hand, if the plant is growing well, it should be able to survive through all kinds of weather.
I hope "someone" will agree with me on the above same view...
A love story that is familiar
洪俊扬 杜蕙甹 明年1月结婚
洪俊扬靠狗求婚 杜蕙甹感动落泪
Project SuperStar are getting married!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
8th July
无惊无险又过一天... Long time never sleep and wake up so early... Sleep at 11, wake up at 530.. tired... Finally experienced back the squeezing inside a train, the last time that I squeeze is during my first job at boon lay... Today is the first time that I can knock off earlier than my normal job.. Hope the next few days is the same.....
I should be happy for having such a not so demanding high key reservist but why am I not feeling this way? Maybe her answer is the thing that is wandering in my mind.. My confidence is like roller coaster, sometime is high and sometime is low... Waiting for her to reply my sms keep me occupied for the day... I wonder does she feel any difference for these few days when I not in the office? Not regarding work matters but personal I mean... Sometime I feel like asking her directly for her decision as I simply can't endure the waiting process anymore but I afraid of the negative outcome.....
Yesterday I also email her the date of her favorite dance performance "The next wave". Even though she only casually mentioned once, I still can remember it clearly. As she is unsure of the performance date for this year, I always keep a look out for her. Will she be touched or surprise to know this?
"我记的有一个人
永远留在我心中
那怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天
爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你
永远不改变……
不管路有多么远
一定会让它实现
我会轻轻在你耳边
对你说……对你说
我爱你……
爱着你……"
老鼠爱大米
Come across this quote somewhere and I wish to let her know
"For the world you are someone but for someone you are the world"
I should be happy for having such a not so demanding high key reservist but why am I not feeling this way? Maybe her answer is the thing that is wandering in my mind.. My confidence is like roller coaster, sometime is high and sometime is low... Waiting for her to reply my sms keep me occupied for the day... I wonder does she feel any difference for these few days when I not in the office? Not regarding work matters but personal I mean... Sometime I feel like asking her directly for her decision as I simply can't endure the waiting process anymore but I afraid of the negative outcome.....
Yesterday I also email her the date of her favorite dance performance "The next wave". Even though she only casually mentioned once, I still can remember it clearly. As she is unsure of the performance date for this year, I always keep a look out for her. Will she be touched or surprise to know this?
"我记的有一个人
永远留在我心中
那怕只能够这样的想你
如果真的有一天
爱情理想会实现
我会加倍努力好好对你
永远不改变……
不管路有多么远
一定会让它实现
我会轻轻在你耳边
对你说……对你说
我爱你……
爱着你……"
老鼠爱大米
Come across this quote somewhere and I wish to let her know
"For the world you are someone but for someone you are the world"
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
7th July
2nd day ended.. I surprise I still can complete the route march after 5 years never walk for such a long distance with full battle order. And some more I manage to keep up the pace. Long time never sweat so much, feeling is good but something still bothering in my heart...
Somehow I feel uneasy when I didn't see her or sms her.. Maybe I too used to it... Thinking I will not sms her today but eventually, I let my heart override my head and sms her... I really admired her boyfriend, can choose to meet her only once per week... wonder how he can do it.....
"如果你突然打了个喷嚏
那一定就是我在想你
如果半夜被手机吵醒
啊那是因为我关心
常常想你说的话是不是别有用心
明明很想相信却又忍不住怀疑
在你的心里我是否就是唯一
爱就是有我常烦着你"
爱你
Read on a newspaper that there is a taekwondo accident where a red belt accidentally kick on a green belt during friendly sparring and he become unconscious and now in critical condition... Hope she will be more careful during training and don't injure herself..
Somehow I feel uneasy when I didn't see her or sms her.. Maybe I too used to it... Thinking I will not sms her today but eventually, I let my heart override my head and sms her... I really admired her boyfriend, can choose to meet her only once per week... wonder how he can do it.....
"如果你突然打了个喷嚏
那一定就是我在想你
如果半夜被手机吵醒
啊那是因为我关心
常常想你说的话是不是别有用心
明明很想相信却又忍不住怀疑
在你的心里我是否就是唯一
爱就是有我常烦着你"
爱你
Read on a newspaper that there is a taekwondo accident where a red belt accidentally kick on a green belt during friendly sparring and he become unconscious and now in critical condition... Hope she will be more careful during training and don't injure herself..
Monday, July 6, 2009
6th July
1st day of reservist.. full of waiting and listening to boring briefing... time seem to pass slowly... maybe I too used to stay in office for some reason... all along I hate reservist, especially during this period of time... haiz... Tomorrow will be a "tough" day as I am going for route march with full battle order... But thinking after that march, it will be a day nearer to see her again, so I think enduring through it will not be a big problem..
My office has a "legendary curse". Whenever "new" or covering duty personnel comes, there sure got some unlucky incident happened. Today both me and my site manager is not in office, so I hope it will be a peaceful day, if not she will be very busy. I think my wish had come true and today went past without major hiccups. I was gratified.
Human is contradicting, at one moment, I wish that day will come sooner, at another moment, I hope that day don't come as I afraid the outcome is not what I had expected. But no point running from reality, what will come, will come..
"I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to
I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days 'till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you, it will be so right
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
I'll be yours, you'll be mine"
What Will I Do
My office has a "legendary curse". Whenever "new" or covering duty personnel comes, there sure got some unlucky incident happened. Today both me and my site manager is not in office, so I hope it will be a peaceful day, if not she will be very busy. I think my wish had come true and today went past without major hiccups. I was gratified.
Human is contradicting, at one moment, I wish that day will come sooner, at another moment, I hope that day don't come as I afraid the outcome is not what I had expected. But no point running from reality, what will come, will come..
"I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to
I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days 'till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you, it will be so right
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
I'll be yours, you'll be mine"
What Will I Do
Sunday, July 5, 2009
5th July
I had let her know this blog yesterday. I was surprised she had replied me today, telling me that we will talk after my reservist.. Now my mood is like a student eager to know his result... From her reply, I had a feeling that the outcome is not as what I had expected.. :( Anyway, as what I had said, I will respect her decision. I believed in fate, those not meant to be mine, it will not be mine.. I hope that this action of mine will not affect our normal daily interaction as in the past... All I can do now is just to keep my finger cross... 10 more days to go.... Gloomy weather today.. same as how I feel....
"我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你"
就是愛你
"我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你"
就是愛你
Declaration
After getting to know you "officially" for 46 days, today I finally summon my courage and let you know what I am going to tell you. I believed you already sensed that all this while, I am not treating you as a simple normal friend. I not sure what your decision or reaction will be. Will you ever consider me? Will you feel any difference when I not inside the office?
"我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞沒了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么的重要
有了你 生命完整的剛好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远愛你到老"
小酒窝
I can't promise you anything different from your current boyfriend but I will try my best to give you all that I have. I hope one day I can replaced him in your heart. Remember I ask you at esplanade library before, career and love, which is more important? Same as you, my answer will be love. I will choose to stay with you and forgo any career advancement chance or long term overseas trip. I believe if I missed this moment to be with you, I will not get back no matter how good my career is. With you beside me, I believed I can brave through any obstacle or endure anything from the cunning sly boss. I keep asking myself, why a simple gal like you can make me fall for you? I think it is your character and personality and the same interest that you had as me. I hope you still remember there is a suspected case in the office on a thurs night, first thing that come into my mind is shall it be confirmed case and the severity like SARS, I would volunteer to go back in your place even though you might just treat me as a normal friend at that time.
"爱上了一个人 能够为她牺牲
就算付出了生命 我甘心为了你
两个人在一起 分享爱的命运
永远都不会忘记 我们生活点滴
你是我最深爱的女人 你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神 你带给我幸福和快乐"
你是我最深爱的人
Maybe we only know each other for a short duration, but I believed this is not a moment of impulse. When I first met you a few times at atrium or samsung hub, seriously I don't have a deep impression of you. This is the same even when you just come to ORQ. I thought I will treat you the same as previous DSM, not so much of helping each other. I will still go ahead with my engineering team for kopi or lunch. But as times goes by, I get to know you better and slowly got an urge to help you out, accompany you whenever you go. To let the team have a better view of you, I tried to be the mediator between you and them and even helped them to do things that I had not done for a long time to show them actually your "expectation" is not impossible. When you are not at site, I got an uneasy feeling. Slowly I realised that I had develop feelings for you and I start to ask you out with some stupid excuse. When you agree to go out with me for the first time, I thought I got chance to go after you. But later you told you got boyfriend and is already together for 2 years, I feel quite upset. I consider for a long time whether I should continue and I decided to leave it to fate and follow my heart. Whenever you mention about the word "boyfriend" or start sms, I will feel a pain in my heart or rather my confidence dropped. The more time we spent together, I realised I didn't make the wrong decision, you are the gal I been looking for. We shared a lot of common interest, topics and chat with almost everything under the sun. I know it will be awkward if I let you know this blog and the next day we meet. That why I choose to let you know now and for this 1 week plus, you can consider before you can give me an answer. Don't know why, I always got the feeling that you and your boyfriend is not exactly that happy together, your interest is different from him and you feeling insecure due to he didn't spend enough time with you. Either you or him is just enduring with the other party... I hope you understand that I don't have any motive for what I had done. Time will show you that my action is not only the initial period but every now and then. I hope I got the chance to tell you directly how I feel, the chance of showering you with love and care, sharing with you all the happiness and sorrow, spending all the important moments with you... maybe this chance is never meant to come.....
"Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care
Tell Me That You Need Me And I'll Be There
I'll Be There Waitin'...
I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do
Come To Me Now
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
I'm In Love With You..."
In Love With You
My dream will be working in the same office with you, sharing your workload, be it personal or work, knock off together, eating all the food you like and go out walk walk, witnessing all the beautiful fireworks, sitting by the sea or river enjoying the night scene, taking stroll hand in hand, watching and discuss all those TVB drama, taiwan variety show, gossiping, staying by your side, reminding you all those issue that you always forget. By now, you should had known that our current job doesn't have a fixed working hour, so I will try to cherish the time we had together. I always remember the time we spent together and the special memorable night with you at singapore river. Thanks for the night, it has been long time since I feel so relaxed and happy with a gal..
"我能想到最浪漫的事 就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑 留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事 就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老得哪儿也去不了 你还依然把我当成手心里的宝"
By telling you all these, I don't expect you to break with your boyfriend. But love is selfish, of course, I hope you will give me a chance to go after you. I know fate comes at the wrong time but I just hope you can be fair to yourself and make a decision.. If you scare that by giving me a chance will affect our working relationship with rest of the team or vendor, I can assure you that I will draw a line between work and personal. I will still treat you the same as what it has been during normal office hours. Don't worry, I respect your final decision, should your decision is to reject me, I hope you can still treat me as a normal friend or colleague. No matter your decision is give me a chance, reject or need time to consider, I hope you got an answer for me. No matter what, I will still treat you the same and support you from behind till my last day at site. I will leave is not due to you had reject me but I afraid the longer I spent time with you, the deeper I will sunk into.
"明夜我将离开，熟悉的地方和你，要分离，我眼泪掉下去。我会牢牢记住你的脸，我会珍惜你给的思念，这些日子在我心中永远不会被抹去"
再见
Should I am lucky to be given the chance, I hope the wednesday when I come back from reservist, you will agree to have dinner with me...
"我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞沒了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么的重要
有了你 生命完整的剛好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远愛你到老"
小酒窝
I can't promise you anything different from your current boyfriend but I will try my best to give you all that I have. I hope one day I can replaced him in your heart. Remember I ask you at esplanade library before, career and love, which is more important? Same as you, my answer will be love. I will choose to stay with you and forgo any career advancement chance or long term overseas trip. I believe if I missed this moment to be with you, I will not get back no matter how good my career is. With you beside me, I believed I can brave through any obstacle or endure anything from the cunning sly boss. I keep asking myself, why a simple gal like you can make me fall for you? I think it is your character and personality and the same interest that you had as me. I hope you still remember there is a suspected case in the office on a thurs night, first thing that come into my mind is shall it be confirmed case and the severity like SARS, I would volunteer to go back in your place even though you might just treat me as a normal friend at that time.
"爱上了一个人 能够为她牺牲
就算付出了生命 我甘心为了你
两个人在一起 分享爱的命运
永远都不会忘记 我们生活点滴
你是我最深爱的女人 你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神 你带给我幸福和快乐"
你是我最深爱的人
Maybe we only know each other for a short duration, but I believed this is not a moment of impulse. When I first met you a few times at atrium or samsung hub, seriously I don't have a deep impression of you. This is the same even when you just come to ORQ. I thought I will treat you the same as previous DSM, not so much of helping each other. I will still go ahead with my engineering team for kopi or lunch. But as times goes by, I get to know you better and slowly got an urge to help you out, accompany you whenever you go. To let the team have a better view of you, I tried to be the mediator between you and them and even helped them to do things that I had not done for a long time to show them actually your "expectation" is not impossible. When you are not at site, I got an uneasy feeling. Slowly I realised that I had develop feelings for you and I start to ask you out with some stupid excuse. When you agree to go out with me for the first time, I thought I got chance to go after you. But later you told you got boyfriend and is already together for 2 years, I feel quite upset. I consider for a long time whether I should continue and I decided to leave it to fate and follow my heart. Whenever you mention about the word "boyfriend" or start sms, I will feel a pain in my heart or rather my confidence dropped. The more time we spent together, I realised I didn't make the wrong decision, you are the gal I been looking for. We shared a lot of common interest, topics and chat with almost everything under the sun. I know it will be awkward if I let you know this blog and the next day we meet. That why I choose to let you know now and for this 1 week plus, you can consider before you can give me an answer. Don't know why, I always got the feeling that you and your boyfriend is not exactly that happy together, your interest is different from him and you feeling insecure due to he didn't spend enough time with you. Either you or him is just enduring with the other party... I hope you understand that I don't have any motive for what I had done. Time will show you that my action is not only the initial period but every now and then. I hope I got the chance to tell you directly how I feel, the chance of showering you with love and care, sharing with you all the happiness and sorrow, spending all the important moments with you... maybe this chance is never meant to come.....
"Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care
Tell Me That You Need Me And I'll Be There
I'll Be There Waitin'...
I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do
Come To Me Now
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
I'm In Love With You..."
In Love With You
My dream will be working in the same office with you, sharing your workload, be it personal or work, knock off together, eating all the food you like and go out walk walk, witnessing all the beautiful fireworks, sitting by the sea or river enjoying the night scene, taking stroll hand in hand, watching and discuss all those TVB drama, taiwan variety show, gossiping, staying by your side, reminding you all those issue that you always forget. By now, you should had known that our current job doesn't have a fixed working hour, so I will try to cherish the time we had together. I always remember the time we spent together and the special memorable night with you at singapore river. Thanks for the night, it has been long time since I feel so relaxed and happy with a gal..
"我能想到最浪漫的事 就是和你一起慢慢变老
一路上收藏点点滴滴的欢笑 留到以后坐着摇椅慢慢聊
我能想到最浪漫的事 就是和你一起慢慢变老
直到我们老得哪儿也去不了 你还依然把我当成手心里的宝"
By telling you all these, I don't expect you to break with your boyfriend. But love is selfish, of course, I hope you will give me a chance to go after you. I know fate comes at the wrong time but I just hope you can be fair to yourself and make a decision.. If you scare that by giving me a chance will affect our working relationship with rest of the team or vendor, I can assure you that I will draw a line between work and personal. I will still treat you the same as what it has been during normal office hours. Don't worry, I respect your final decision, should your decision is to reject me, I hope you can still treat me as a normal friend or colleague. No matter your decision is give me a chance, reject or need time to consider, I hope you got an answer for me. No matter what, I will still treat you the same and support you from behind till my last day at site. I will leave is not due to you had reject me but I afraid the longer I spent time with you, the deeper I will sunk into.
"明夜我将离开，熟悉的地方和你，要分离，我眼泪掉下去。我会牢牢记住你的脸，我会珍惜你给的思念，这些日子在我心中永远不会被抹去"
再见
Should I am lucky to be given the chance, I hope the wednesday when I come back from reservist, you will agree to have dinner with me...
Changes......
Actually do she know that since the day she arrived at my site, I had changed a lot... Last time, I am always missing from my desk, hiding at some corner playing my laptop, seldom helping out with the rest of the team, often go for kopi break with my boss, weekend go off early when nothing to do, will not deliberately come back to do something when I can just ask the shift engineer to do (such as reset fire system), on the dot 6 knock off, lunch with boss, etc... But when she just came, my daily routine workstyle is still the same... From don't know when, I start to change, everyday sit at my desk, turning my head to glimpse at her, intranet chatting with her, stop bringing laptop, help out the team to lighten their workload and their impression towards her, have lunch with her instead of boss, reject most kopi break with boss, waiting for her to knock off together which is usually half an hour past 6, deliberately go back on sunday to meet her, saturday stay back with her, thinking of ways to make her laugh, "enlighten" her of something that she do not know, etc... Maybe this is so call the power of love....
"这是一个沒有答案的问题
我感觉我变了 谁让我变了
因为这是一个没有答案的問题
却被你解开了 简单的解开了
你走过來 帶着和別人不同的对白
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好
慢慢的 这份愛 悄悄的住下來
深深的 在心里 沒人看的出來
安靜的 但却一直都在是你默默的愛
慢慢的 这份愛 已经变成依赖
浅浅的 笑容里 却让我充满期待
不用说 我就能夠明白OH你默默的爱"
默默
Most of my friends told me that they will not find their other half in the same office.. They say it will be difficult to work together next time and also hard to "flirt" with other gals. But to me, this is a different story. I would like to find my other half at the same workplace. I believed working together, we will understand each other job constraint (maybe is due to my job field always got last minute happening), share the workload, help out and cover for each other, when knock off together, we will have more to time to plan for more activities after that. Working together also means we will spend more time together. I believed no matter where the place is, as long as both love each other, they will still enjoy each other company even when it is in the office. If I find a gal that I like, she will have all my attention. I don't understand why a guy will "flirt" around if he had already found the someone that suit him.. I definitely not that kind..
Actually we have a lot in common.. We like to watch TVB, magic show, fireworks, taiwan variety... For work, we also like to go for perfection but I later give up when I realised all my shift engineer can't make it.. We also like to "gossip" and look at entertainment news... I had also decided to change the layout of my posting to 音乐日记 style. This is also one of the common items that we both like...
"听着你 聊到从前和未来 你心里所有的梦跟我很像
OH YOU LIGHT UP MY LIFE所以我也希望 我们心中频率都一样
梦加点感觉 思念裝上翅膀 愛是无限可能的飞翔
OH YOU LIGHT UP MY LIFE我想让你分享 我们心动时分的梦想
这是一个开始 还是一种幻想 未来正在等待不是吗(未来我想和你分享)
OS：一直想跟你说 那天一起吃晚飯 想问你 开心嗎 这些日子
看着你 追着自己的梦想 快乐 专心的每个样子 我想
我们的梦有一样的頻率 不是吗"
恋爱频率
"这是一个沒有答案的问题
我感觉我变了 谁让我变了
因为这是一个没有答案的問题
却被你解开了 简单的解开了
你走过來 帶着和別人不同的对白
你甚至不让我知道 你对我有多好
慢慢的 这份愛 悄悄的住下來
深深的 在心里 沒人看的出來
安靜的 但却一直都在是你默默的愛
慢慢的 这份愛 已经变成依赖
浅浅的 笑容里 却让我充满期待
不用说 我就能夠明白OH你默默的爱"
默默
Most of my friends told me that they will not find their other half in the same office.. They say it will be difficult to work together next time and also hard to "flirt" with other gals. But to me, this is a different story. I would like to find my other half at the same workplace. I believed working together, we will understand each other job constraint (maybe is due to my job field always got last minute happening), share the workload, help out and cover for each other, when knock off together, we will have more to time to plan for more activities after that. Working together also means we will spend more time together. I believed no matter where the place is, as long as both love each other, they will still enjoy each other company even when it is in the office. If I find a gal that I like, she will have all my attention. I don't understand why a guy will "flirt" around if he had already found the someone that suit him.. I definitely not that kind..
Actually we have a lot in common.. We like to watch TVB, magic show, fireworks, taiwan variety... For work, we also like to go for perfection but I later give up when I realised all my shift engineer can't make it.. We also like to "gossip" and look at entertainment news... I had also decided to change the layout of my posting to 音乐日记 style. This is also one of the common items that we both like...
"听着你 聊到从前和未来 你心里所有的梦跟我很像
OH YOU LIGHT UP MY LIFE所以我也希望 我们心中频率都一样
梦加点感觉 思念裝上翅膀 愛是无限可能的飞翔
OH YOU LIGHT UP MY LIFE我想让你分享 我们心动时分的梦想
这是一个开始 还是一种幻想 未来正在等待不是吗(未来我想和你分享)
OS：一直想跟你说 那天一起吃晚飯 想问你 开心嗎 这些日子
看着你 追着自己的梦想 快乐 专心的每个样子 我想
我们的梦有一样的頻率 不是吗"
恋爱频率
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