Tired...

Today I had completed the master copy of the shutdown script. Base on this, anyone should have no problem taking over... I had do my part for the company already, does that mean I can leave "peacefully"? I was surprise that I had completed much earlier than expected.. No mood for lunch today and she had packet a few sushi for me. I am grateful but also wonder what is the "intention" she coming from when she buying the sushi? Care and concern? For who? Colleague or ??? Because of me, I know her mood is also affected...

Feeling very tiring since morning even though I had sleep quite "early" last night. Maybe all those work and personnal happening had really tire me out. Anyway I had planned my leave... Will be able to relax after this... Will try to let go everything...

I know one shouldn't leave a relationship just because she met a better person. But why should you confine to him only, shouldn't you give others a chance also especially you also had feelings for that person? Unless you tell me you already confirm he will be the ideal guy that you want to marry.

I believe there are other considerations that you didn't tell me. If just because of troublesome to answer questions from your family on why you break, then you rather be with him, it may seem a bit ridiculous. It is also common to break in this "era", you don't need to stay with him throughout just because of others...

The guys had told me to continue ask you out. But you know what I told them? I tell them you are considering now and I don't want to affect your thinking. I know it will somehow affect your decision if I continue to ask you out or told you what I have done again. I guess the more I spend more time with you, you would be more touched. I want you to consider fairly, so I don't want to do anything more for last week. But I never know your way of fair thinking is different from me.

I don't know how much trust you still had in the relationship. But the most important factor that for both together is trust. If you feel disappointed with his character, how long can you "force" yourself to continue accept? If you told me you got no other choices or got choices but you didn't have feeling for them, that why you continue to be with him, then is ok. But now is a different story, you got choice and he had done a lot and you are touched and also had feelings for him, but why you just don't want to consider?

The time when you told him my existence, instead of trying to persuade you "stay", he just say up to you. You sure this is the answer you want to hear? If I were him, I would do what I can to persuade you to "stay" and let you have faith in this relationship but at the end, I will still leave the choice to you... as I know I had do what I can, eventually it is you that have the final say...

Knowing you had made me become foolish.. Have you wonder why lately I buy so many different kind of snacks? Actually I also don't know around this area got so many snacks that I never try or heard before.. I just search on the net for any recommendation and end up finding all those. I just want you to try all the nice food.. Seeing you saying is nice and eating happily, I will be happy... I am very foolish hor? When you told me which drama that you wanted to watch, I will find for you and convert the format, so you can watch it in your handphone on the move. When you told me you can't watch it, I will reconvert the drama again, so you can watch.. Even though it is time consuming, I don't mind doing it for you.. Again, am I very silly? What you told me, I always remember it in my heart. You say you don't like me to drink, I will give up for you.. No matter what I am doing, when I saw you are not "participating", I will stop what I doing and accompany you. Remember last saturday, I was still busy with the smart arms, but you told me you were leaving at 530pm, so I just stop what I am doing at 520pm and quickly transfer the files for you before I go down to continue the work again. Again, I am very foolish hor? I don't know if I still got the chance to be the foolish guy that always stand by you. If I am not the lucky guy, I hope he will be the lucky one...

11.05pm
Somehow I got a feeling she is not at home at this hour now... But I don't want to ask her anything... Whether she want to tell me, I leave it to her. Too tired to keep chasing for an answer....