27th September

F1 Singapore is over, another year had passed without noticing... Before knowing it, time had already gone... Can she please treasure the time before it gone? I promise it will be better than what she is in now. Took a nap to "recuperate" from my tiredness. But it seem like sleep is never enough... Why she want to come back today? Just for work only? But the work is very minor, don't need her deliberately to come... Anyway, I was quite happy to see her and my tiredness lessen for that few hours.. Shown her the Fann Wong wedding clip that she had missed on TV due to going to concert.. She had asked me why I download the clip.. I wondered she really don't know the reason or just wanted to ask only... Isn't that obvious I download is to let her watch it?

Maybe I too sensitive, I feel she is getting "reserved" in sms-ing.. She will not reply when I ask a bit more over the border.. But when face to face, the feeling she give me is different... Is she considering something? Did something happened between them? Can she please tell me? Seem like is quite some time that I had seen her online in msn.. Is she really that busy or tired or just trying not to "face" me?

I wondered is my expectation high or other people standard is too low.. The engineering team overall standard is getting from bad to worse especially after the start of shift system.. None of them seem to be able to "perform".. even the most "outstanding" one.. Ask them to do something, they can only accomplished with supervision.. Just like today, when I am with them, they will work.. When I go round with her, they will just stopped... I can leave the office when power resume.. as it is their responsbility to resume back everything... In the end, I still had to stay to ensure...

I thought the kid only work wise is "below average" but outside life is also the same... His thinking is just too immature.. He got tons of girlfriends is not surprising... Recently he know of another and start to go after her.. But the girl promise to only meet him on Christmas day and he agreed.. Then he told me he is treating this girl very serious and "discuss" with me how he going to prepare a surprise for her. He say he going to put in a lot of effort and ask me for ideas and accompany him to buy a diary so he can record everyday her sms, his feeling, etc and give her. This happened on the Wednesday that just passed.. Then today, he told me he know another girl and decided to go after her and "forsake" the previous girl.. This happened in just a few days only.... I just can't understand why girls still like this kind of person, playboy I should say.... And he said if he were me, he will not wait for her and just go out know other "better" ones... or he will continue to go after her but at the same time, go after others.... Luckily, I am the "devoted" type and I only want her and no one else.. nothing can change my thinking.. Then this stupid kid always frustrate me... His thinking not only immature and too naive.. Friday "forced" me to go tea break with boss, today again "forced" me to go breakfast with boss but in the end, saw many "high management" people there and he decided not to join... worse, at night, he give my number to a girl which he even don't know but he saw it online that she look quite pretty... and that girl call me cause she is bored... I rejected and blacklisted that girl call... No girl will catch my attention except the she in my heart... I will prove to her I am not those guy that can't resist temptation...