Shutdown

Finally the day had come. Even though is a major event, I don't feel much bothered by it. Maybe there another thing in my heart. I had sms her a few times and as usual, her reply is always got "delay". Is it due to she didn't check her handphone or she just don't bother to reply? She had asked me to concentrate on shutdown first. Now shutdown is almost over, what else I need to wait again? I want to ask for her answer but I scare she will give me an answer that I don't want to hear. Aren't we both very happy when together? Doesn't her heart have feeling for me? When I am moody, doesn't she feel affected also? Since we both have feeling for each other and I am so good to her, why doesn't she want to be pamper by me? I will let her be a blissful girl, happier than now. Can she forget about him?

Shutdown to me is nothing but tired. Before I can sleep well, I had to wake up again.. Preparing shutdown is like organising event. You can waste a lot of time and effort in preparation but all will be gone in just a few hours... Leaving after shutdown is one of the plan that I had considered. Not for career advancement, prospect or money, but to run away from this site. Maybe when I decided to do that, I am too tired of waiting... Can this don't happen? Can I just have a happy outcome? I should wait for this shutdown to be over and see if there is any "surprise" or "good news" for me...

She told me she will be coming back tomorrow. But I can't find a reason for her to come back. What need to be done is only minor work. Can she tell me she coming back is for me? Just to lessen my longing for her? But I rather she don't come back as her leg is still in pain and too much walking will worsen it. Some more she had to deliver mooncake to her aunt later tomorrow. No matter how much I miss her, I also don't want her to over tire... I rather I suffer than her...