4th September

Wake up in the middle of the night again. Feel like sms her but I don't know if I should "disturb" her. I feel I had neglect her these few days as I was quite busy with my work. But I know this shouldn't be an excuse. I think I should do something to make up despite my busy work... and that is buy bubble tea!!!!

Had a farewell dinner tonight. Maybe the next farewell will be mine... I had enjoy the dinner tonight, had been "cooking" food for her. Will there still be next time? I don't know will this also the last time I sending her to the bus. Do she have anything to tell or ask me? I know I got many questions but I don't dare to ask. I scare she isn't ready to answer me and make her more vex. She ask me why I have no mood today, I had type the reply but I just didn't send it out.. I know there is still no answer from her. Every night, my handphone is waiting for her sms but there is always none...

Trying my luck to see if I walk along the bus route, will there be any bus just happened to pass by and I can hop on to it. But I just don't seem to have any luck. Either the bus just pass before I reach or come after I go. Maybe the timing is really just wrong. Without noticing, I came back to Singapore River again. Maybe it is true that where things start, it should also end at there. Sometime I just can't force things to happen as what I had wished... I know things happened from now on will be a privilege and I will have to treasure it when it happens...

Today make a big progress in my shutdown preparation... maybe that will be the last thing I will help the company do... I hope I will not be label as "heartless" when I left as I fulfill the annual important thing to the company.

She told me she would think over the weekend. But same as what he had told her, if she need to consider, I think she no need to consider anymore... how can a 2 month happening compare with a 2 years relationship? Is not that my character is same as him, but sad to say, this is what I believe. I am already very happy that she say she will consider even though I believe the outcome is not to my favor... I think it is unfair for her to force her for an answer. Don't bother or think too much... Just enjoy the weekend....