12th September

You had brighten up my mood last night. But too bad, you still don't have any decision.. A good boyfriend doesn't mean a good husband. Is his character that you want? He might say things in a reverse way but how you know that not what he want? You may have like him a lot but can that let you accept all his disappointment, clubbing and his "playful" character? Guys that care a lot about face sometime will not initiate breakup even when he wants to.. When the girl initiate, he will accept, so this will be seem like the girl is the "bad" person while the guy is "innocent". Hope he don't belong to this cateory...

Is true that a 2.5 years relationship can't be compared. But do you know if this drag on, you will told me 2.6, 2.7 or even 3 years relationship. Maybe if we don't be together, the feelings for him in your heart will never be replaced. With every more "incidents" you both went through together, it will increase the feeling you had for him. How will I be able to overtake him in your heart then? What he say is true, feelings can be develop as time goes by. I think feeling is hard to go off by itself unless been replaced, don't you agree? If he commit wrong again, you say you definitely will leave him but the love for him can also gone overnight? It can't be... If you really can leave him if that happen, why can't you do it now? Isn't that contradicting? Why you want to let yourself hurt again before deciding?

You say you will tell your mum everything including the wrong he made. I agreed you should do that but I think your mom answer will most probably same as what I guess. The choice is up to you. She can only advise but can't decide. Even if you ask thousands of people, the final decision is still with you and you will be more confused as there will be different advices.

Everything I went through with you will be in my memory. I remember 13th june is our first "outing". We went to IT show but in the end, we had a chat at Marina Square Macdonald. 19th june is the most memorable. We had steamboat, walk around Bugis and end up at Singapore River. I noticed you seem troubled but I don't think is convenient for me to ask why at that moment, so I just accompany you silently till you decided to go home. Later I then realised is because of him. That night I am quite happy, maybe is because I already start to have feeling for you. You don't remember the date, I will not blame you as I know you are "absent minded". :) I will stay by your side and constantly remind you of any reminder if we are together...

A sentence "I like you" from you make me feel energised. No matter how busy I am today, I still think is ok. I can't imagine if you told me directly, I think I will be over the moon. Will I be able to hear it?

You had ask me if I am enduring my work. I can't say is enduring as I don't mind doing anything, even saturday work till late. I just hope once in a while, you can drop me a message, accompany me at the end of the day. This will already make me happy. I want you to feel proud of my career, ability one day and introduce me to your parents or relatives. Again, this is my thinking only...

No matter how long I want to wait, my tiredness seem to have taken over my patience...You already know how important you are to me, how will I treat you, how much I treasure you, how much my attention to you and last but not least, my care and concern for you. You will always be my priority if I am to choose between you and my friends. I believe you also think that if we were together, your feeling for me will be more than what you have for him now. I really hope you can tell me what I want to hear soon before I proceed with my "plan".