first concert with her!!

First time going to a concert and also first time going with the girl I liked. After work, we went to buy some drinks and sushi, intending to eat while watching the concert. Along the way, we chat and have fun, just like a couple. But upon reaching, we are been told outside food and drink are not allowed, no choice, we consume what we can and surrender the rest. After walking a distance, we finally get to see the concert. Throughout the concert, we also behave like a couple, standing or sitting so near to each other till we can touch each other. When we are about to leave, her leg old injury suddenly act up again and is pain till she had to hold on to me to walk. I get to "hold" her hand but I think she had no choice. At that moment, I am "evil", wishing her pain will be longer, so she can hold my hands longer. But when her leg slightly better, she quickly let go. After which will be as usual, going back home no matter how I wish the night haven't end...

Even though the concert is not very good, AV technical fault, no direction signage, can't bring own food and drink due to they are selling, etc, I am still very happy and I really don't feel tired despite the walking, standing and fanning for you, maybe the reason is you are with me. Do you feel happy too? If I got the chance, I will want to go with you again. But I think maybe you want to go it with "someone". I actually don't prefer crowds, but I don't mind if you are with me. The crowds is nothing as compare to festive seasons in Chinatown. On the way there, I know you had deliberately position your hand away from mine. I had consider holding it but I had decided not to do it as I guess you are still not ready despite what I had done and the previous few happy lunch hours. And my guessing is correct. I don't blame you, I know some things need time. But I hope you can consider faster and let me hold your hand and walk with you.

There are 2 songs that leave a deep impression. First is the song that I tell you is nice , 永远在身边 by 大嘴巴. This song I say nice because is meaningful. "我要和你手牵手，一步一步一起走，永远永远要记得，我们要一起生活". Second song is Let Me Go by 张学友. Can you let him go? Letting him go might just a release to him. I guess because of you, he had suppressing his interest like clubbing. I believe you are not the only girl in his heart. Since his friends and character is not what you prefer, you think on long term, will there be happiness? You want him to "forgo" his friends forever or put him in a difficult spot between you and them?

Do you feel happy last night? I guess he will not do the same as me... Knowing what you like and give you "surprise", or fanning for you throughout the night. I guess there are girls last night that are envy of you for having a guy to keep fanning for you. I don't know what is still bothering and holding you back. I believe you also feel the same as me, I can give you happiness, take care of you, care and attentive more than him. I guess the plant has grown after these few days, am I right? The kid had told me a girl better than you is not a hard thing to find and I also know that but I told him I just like you and you are different from others to me. I wanted to ask you some questions last night but I afraid it will spoilt our mood, so I just keep quiet. Can we go for a dinner and u tell me the "consideration" you had? Even though you keep telling me don't have but I just don't believe from my understanding of you.

1 more day to shutdown. Today and tomorrow will be the busy day. After that will be quite relax. I hope these 2 days I can don't think of you but I know is impossible to do that. Will you have an answer for me after this weekend? I can promise what I had done so far is not only for the wooing process but a neverending process. I will not break your heart. Can you believe me?