22nd August

Today is the site 7th month praying again. So fast 1 year passed... Somehow I had become the centre of the topic. My vendors ask me how is me and my "gf"... to make it more happening, the kid 加盐加醋. They ask me 2 topics that are important to guys, love and career... Question been raised is why I still don't action? What I am waiting for? Then they asked when I can take over as manager? As usual, I can just replied with a smile. At that moment, how I wish I can say she is my gf...

After the lunch inside office, topic somehow change to korea drama... Site manager say guys that 默默地守护和关心着某个人，细心 or 真心地对代 are good guys and girls will often prefer them and those always appear in korean drama... that why she find the drama attractive. Is that really the truth? Good guys will have a happy ending with the girls they liked?

This is the first saturday that I left so early... cause my bro is having his birthday party. Again, all my relative ask me back the same old question "do you have gf, why you never bring her?" after my answer is no, the question will be "is time to look for one since you got your career". Despite my career is one of the most "successful" among my cousins, I am still single... Is my expectation high? Or I 爱上一个不该爱的人? Nothing to do throughout the night, wine and beer accompany me. How I wish she were there and I can proudly introduce her to everyone and accompany me, stopping me from drinking. Whole night I been thinking of her, does she feel the same also? Does she feel like dropping me a sms? I know the answer is NO... If it is last time, I will sms her but now I decided to leave her alone. Don't want to let my sms disturb her again...

No matter how much I want to know, I managed to "subdue" all the questions in my heart. But I guess she will be meeting him again tonight... Maybe her no reply is the best answer. Don't expect too much and will not disappointed as much... Anyway, I am not that "good and perfect"... so not surprise that I am not "chosen"... I really appreciate of her last reply to my blog. But I know she don’t own me an explanation, so I can’t expect she telling me everything…

Even though it is suppose to be a happy event, quarrel break out again. Some time just can't stand someone behavior but what to do, they still family...