30th August

A tired day today... Yesterday only sleep for less than 2 hours. But the tiredness is not as bad as I had think, maybe my mood is good after knowing her thinking... But I can't expect too much as I still seem to be on the losing end till she had decided to be single again... Not going to pressure or ask her as in the past even though I wish to know eagerly. I just leave it to her... When I feel is the time to go, I will just leave silently no matter how unbearing it is... that will also mean the time to end has come...

I never know what my place in her heart is till she told me that night. It is out of my expectation and I was quite happy with it. It has kept me going for yesterday. I wonder how is my letter now? Hope it is not inside the rubbish bin...How she feel after reading my letter?

Somehow I feel things are predestined. The letter that I prepared and the blog that I going to post for the next day is a result of I not sure of her thinking. But before I going to do that, she actually told me her thinking and I know if I had knew it earlier, I would not had written the same thing. But I think is also good for her to know how I feel before she told me her thinking. I think I had to wait for some time again before she “update” me her feeling and thinking again...