14th August

People say girls are more sensitive but I think some guys are just as sensitive...

These few days really like in the past, as like nothing had happened before... Does she can take it like nothing happened also? My intuition told me that an important date is coming up for her and she is busy planning for that... Is all right for her to do that as all the while is just I 自作多情... I think is time to stop spoiling their relationship even though I can't accept the idea of nothing had happened at all... But I need to accept the fact I can't change her heart and her heart consist of him only... I had asked for her last decision but I know it will not be of any difference from her previous ones... Her don't tell decision and action during these few days is her best expression of her decision... Seem like she had really forgotten the happenings between us... Is that a good thing?

If I am not wrong, tomorrow is an important day to her. Something more important than work. She can forgo her training in the morning and come to work and go off in the afternoon. To make such arrangement, it can't be something simple. I can guess what it is and that also tell me I don't stand a chance at all... no matter what she had said in the past...

Going back to my usual lifestyle tomorrow... running and training to keep myself occupied... only then I can have back the carefree feeling... Why should I scare about injury when end of the day is just me alone that will face everything... Isn't that happened in the past also? From today onwards, I will just suffer alone, no point causing so much misery to others.. I decided not to bother her again on love matters.... even though I really can't bear to let go... I thought we can strive together at work, go dating after that and cover for each other if any of us need to go off earlier... but I know this will not be happen anymore.... I don't know how long I need to let go my feelings for her... I will continue to restraint my feelings just like what I had been doing for the past few days.. Acting like nothing when she sms, rushing off or doing anything that concern him a not... I think she might feel better this way... I hope she and him can have a happy ending and he can be a good husband to her...
好久没有你的信
好久没有人陪我谈心
怀念你柔情似水的眼睛
是我天空最美丽的星星
异乡的午夜特别冷清
一个男人和一颗热切的心
不知在远方的你是否能感应

我从来不敢给你任何诺言
是因为我知道我们太年轻
你追求的是一种浪漫感觉
还是那不必负责任的热情
心中的话到现在才对你表明不知道
你是否会因此而清醒
让身在远方的我不必为你担心

一颗爱你的心 时时刻刻为你转不停
我的爱也曾经
深深温暖你的心灵
你和他之间是否已经有了真感情
别隐瞒 对我说别怕我伤心
別怕我伤心