Agreement...

Last night, don't know why.. We finally bare everything out... During dinner, everything is still ok... only when at night chatting, something lead us to say or ask what had been bothering in our heart.. After all this, I finally realised in her heart, I just a good friend to her... At that moment, my heart shattered again.. It seem like quite long ago, she had hurt me once... but when I think back now, is just last thursday... Why that night, she say she want reconsider if she want to treat me as a good friend only? I still can't explained... Maybe as what she say this is just the wrong timing... She told me now she is on cold war and IF there is a break, she will remain single for some time and don't wish to think about relationship.... On a guy view, my advice to her is he will not be a good husband.... whether what decision she want to make will be up to her...

I thought this National Day will be different from previous... Not only my wish cannot be fulfill, is different in such a way that, this National Day is more disappointing, hurt and sad than previous... Maybe this will "forced" me to let ignite my ambition flame again...

After a sleepless night, I finally made my decision.. My current career status is still not good enough to go after anyone including her... Within the next 2 years, I want to restraint my feelings for her and focused on my career and attain a stable manager appointment.. not assistant manager... By that time I attained that, I will come back for her again... Hope she will be single by that time... and we can have a happy ending... I can also used this period of time to think how much is my feelings for her, can this feeling endure the test of time? I also hope she can use this time to think who is the one that she can give her hand to, give her happiness... I know she ask me not to think about the chance is because she scare I will be hurt again.... I understand her kind intention which may seem cruel but I think it is also not easy for her to say this...

"不曾错过, 也就不能拥有, 更好的你, 更好的一个我" Can we agreed that we will continue to share our happiness and unhappiness, problems, troubles, go out walk walk, lunch, dinner, chat, sms and msn even if we are on different sites? I will not think much until I achieved my career objective... Can we have that agreement?
我想或许就是要过这么久,
花的等待才能够结成果.
路一定要蜿蜒直到这个路口,
才最适合再重逢.
你的眼和我的手都比从前柔软许多,
更懂面对,更懂紧握.
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这一路点滴苦痛
原来全都是收获
不曾错过
也就不能拥有
更好的你
更好的一个我
当然我们都可能会再犯错
但这次一定更容易就渡过
未来像神秘包裹
等着你我
用天真勇气去打开
快乐感动
我的笑在你怀中
都比从前暖的多
能够重来
我感谢得颤抖
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此刻的我们
刚刚好最芳香成熟
请你陪我
往明天慢慢走
种下爱
看长出什么梦
绕了一圈的你我
终于等到最好的时候
尝到爱的丰硕
收获
这一路点滴苦痛
原来全都是收获
不曾错过
也就不能拥有
更好的你
更好的一个我
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