Children Day..

Today is children day, it is so good to be them. No need to bother and think so much like adults..

So fast it has been 1 week since we went to the F1 rocks concert. The memories of that night is still deeply in my mind. Is it also the same for her?

She seem to feel sad if her boss and I were to leave. She already feel like this as she just come for a few months. What about me? Me and her boss are the only ones that has been around since day one of this site. 天底下没有不散的宴席. But I will stay with her throughout if she give me a chance. I will never leave her no matter what. I will delay the situation of her boss and me leaving as long as possible. Is breaking up with him really so hard for her? I wanted to ask her how she is going to spend the mid autumn festival, with him or her family? Should I ask? I wish I can spend it with her but I already been "booked" for family dinner.

I wonder how often does she read my blog... Does she know how I feel? Can she just accept me? Can she just let go everything and be with me? If there is sorrow, I will share the burden with her. If there is problem, I will solve with her. If there is joy, I will laugh with her. If her leg is pain, I will support and walk with her. If she suffer, I will suffer with her. If she afraid she can't take care of the plant as good as me, I will not mind as long as she have the intention to. I will "cover" for her "shortcoming" and let the plant continue to grow. Can we start a new chapter of our life?

Don't know if it is call fate... Tomorrow got an event that is actually all of us will stay but slowly, one by one need to leave earlier and in the end only left 2 of us.. Don't she feel I really care for her? I also don't know why I will put her interest in the first place in everything I do. Just like today, I intend to buy a strawberry cheesecake for her boss as an early birthday cake. Somehow I decided to buy one more for her. I think I had love her so deep till she had become part of me. My thinking will "automatically" include her without considering.. Even though her birthday is still a few months away, I actually start to plan what I am going to give her and how to celebrate with her IF I got the chance.. I will make sure her every birthday is full of surprise and happiness. I can tell her she will not regret for been with me... Since she already start to feel the "sadness" of her boss and I leaving, can she just treasure the time we had.. I don't wish to leave when we haven't even started....

Should I tell her how I feel tomorrow night? I scare it will made the night turn bad again.... Will she tell me anything? I will see if she will bring up anything tomorrow night before I decide to tell her my feeling....