24th October

Lying on my bed listening to A-mei japanese song... I can imagine her emotion when listening to this song live... She will be very happy enjoying the song. But I will not be with her unlike the previous concert.

Now then I realise I had been "helping" her so much. It is pretty obvious after I start to "withdraw". Maybe I am too sensitive, she seem to be "isolating" from the team... It could be our attitude towards work and way of working is different in the first place. Given the current situation, I don't think my help is needed.

Today I then find out her boss don't know I had missed the chance to be DSM... Her boss told me I should had told her earlier, she will find ways to pull me in during that time.... Her boss feel pity that I had missed the first chance but she will try to help me in the second chance... But come to think of it, during that time, me and her boss is not so close, not even having meals together, so don't mention about talking "personal" stuff.

Maybe is all fated... Today work end unexpected late. And I overheard she seem to be meeting him. But I not going to be foolish to cover for her again. Some more her boss also ask me to go off with her. Her boss also suspect she got appointment but her boss don't want to ask me to stay. Maybe her boss also find that I had done beyond what is required. Somehow I feel that I can manage to persuade her boss to cross over... at least for short term... But currently, I don't have the intention.

I guess she must be thinking her previous site is better even though the exposure here is greater. Previous site, weekend going back to office is almost none, not to say staying for so late... Weekdays also don't need to stay so late... And last but not least, the management style over there suit her...

I can still remember when is the first time she had dressed like today since her arrival to this site. Does he also so attentive? Actually, all will be going on fine but too bad... Haiz...