2nd October

Today shall be a busy day due to tonight event. Today is also her boss birthday. Somehow I think she also feel that we will be having a "party" for her, just that she don't know the timing.

She offered to queue with me to buy the Goodwood Park mooncake. Is there any "meaning" or am I thinking too much again? Anyway I am buying for her and her boss, the 2 most "important" person in my workplace.

After everything is almost 10pm, as we are waiting, I start to leak some of her boss consideration and one of the plans we intend to do. I not threatening her but just to remind her time left isn't that long. As what I had expected, she still can't give me an answer but the ending didn't end as bad as last time.

I know you will be reading this blog. I can PROMISE you are one and only in my heart. I will not go out and "play". I wanted to tell you "我非常非常喜欢你". Why I want to send good night and morning sms everyday is because I really hope you can let go and be my girlfriend before the D-day comes. I don't want to take cab below ORQ is because I want to be with you longer. I really can't the feeling of been apart from you. But I give up once you say you are in pain. My love for you will definitely be more than him. I know he some time doesn't mean what he want, but if can agree to break up means to certain extend, he actually don't mind. How can a guy be unhappy with a girl accompanying him? But I think he will be happier with girls and buddies at the same time. If a better girl approach him now, you think he will reject or accept her? He will tell you to break up and come to me. Your 喜欢 for him can actually be replace by 喜欢 for me, just that you don't want to try. How long can your 喜欢 last? I guess his 喜欢 for you is getting lesser when time goes. Even you also agree you can't trust him as much now. Just think of how he break your heart that time, maybe you can bring yourself to take the first step. How can a guy don't mind his girlfriend got another guy in her heart?

Enough of him.. If I were to leave, I know I will be very miserable and sad. I really very 舍不得 you. I think you will feel the same too. I think my tears will drop on my last day as I know once I step out of ORQ, there will be no return. Do you really want that to happen? I can promise I will try my best to be the only guy in your life. No other girls will ever able to overtake your place in my heart. I may like drinking in the past but now I only drink occasionally, that why just now I don't even want to touch 1 drop and I will not say is because of you. I want to let you know is not you "forced" me but is I do it willingly. You will not regret for been with me. You will have a more attentive, considerate, caring, filial boyfriend that can help you in whatever ways. I hope you can really break with him but if you just because of 喜欢 and don't want to break, that fine. I will try harder till the day I left. I think you will feel more sad than leaving him by that time. I know no matter what I say is nothing. Your no reply will eventually lead to 1 thing, I LEAVE. I know you are tired now. Good night.