25th October

Finally don't need to wake up so early today... These few days really tired... Every nights after updating this blog, my eyes will start to close...

Sometime I ask myself, if she were to choose me now, will I still be able to accept her? Even though I still got feelings for her... Maybe to me, once something had passed, you can't get back the same thing again... Just like a person can be very good to me but that doesn't mean I will forget it bad... Is that call realistic? Is it a good or bad thing?

Site manager yesterday ask me do I feel pity for missing the chance to be DSM due to the wrong info I received. She told me I should ask her how much the company is offering for that appointment instead of relying on the kid. I do feel a little pity but if I don't miss the chance, how will I know I am "qualified" for that post and the "popularity" I had in the team... I will take it as a blessing in disguise...