Finally.......

I thought today will be different but turn out is still the same, still nothing from her... I am tired... I had given her a lot chances, delaying my plans again and again... I guess I should wake up by now after numerous times of disappointment and hurt. Since he is the one that she feel is more suitable for her, I will respect her decision. From now on, I will not pressure her again... She is "free" to do anything she want... This blog most probably will be drawing it curtain soon...

No matter how unbearing or sad, I will not show it in front of anyone. I never thought that "the time" will come so soon. Initial plan is end of the year but maybe the recent happening "trigger" me to bring forward. To give up my 13th month which is coming in Dec, I never imagine I am so "noble"... As what her boss and others had told me, my future doesn't end here. Thinking back, a 40% increment in switching to this job and another 40% in 3 years here, this should prove my ability...

Partly why I like water so much is because I am just the same as it. Water can float a boat but it can also sunk it... I can put in 101% effort but I also can don't put in at all. All is depend if I see is it worthwhile. I believe as what her boss say "no one is indispensable" but to a certain extend, it will cause a certain "disruption" and earth will seem to be turning slower than usual.

Anyway, a few of the core team members are getting tired over here, maybe is time we go separately to search for greener pasture. What I am going to do everyday is to count the days till the final day come...