I finally understand why love is blind cos today I clock another silly action, waiting for her to come and go off together. Actually I can go off at 12 but I know she coming in the afternoon, then I hang around till she come and help her with asset inventory. In the process, I feel like fall in love. I help her count asset and she record. To be exact, not only during that moment, is since then till just now, when we sms each other.. Our sms is just like couple bickering... How come I feeling like falling in love? Does she feel the same also?
"Wise man say
only fools rush in.
But I can't help
falling in love with you.
Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin?
If I can't help
falling in love with you."
Can't Help Falling in Love
I often teased her as muddlehead as she is quite forgetful at times and I wish I got the chance to stay by her side and constantly reminding her. Tired is what she always "complained". Actually I don't mind providing support to her, lessen her workload and watch drama with her, so at the same time, she can watch her favorite drama and relax and not tiring herself by going out to have the enjoyment of been loved..
"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all"
Because You Loved Me
I think I slowly supervising more and more cleaning job as what my security concierge had asked me why. Just like today, I go and check the meeting room chairs, diffuser, white board, etc and ask the cleaner to go and clean them. By doing this, I not stepping over her work scope but trying to let the cleaning team know that what she everyday doing is not trying to find fault with them but to improve their standard... Another way, I can be the "bad" man for her.... haha.. But I think because they know me long enough and my way of working, they will not find my "instruction" as demanding and will do "willingly"...
She asked me a few times if I am going back to office tomorrow. By the time she read this, she should have guess the answer.. The answer is since she not going back, I most probably will not be going back either..."
I think today I had the longest sms conversation with her... Another record!!! hahaha...
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
3rd July
On a facebook likeness quiz, I score 85% when choosing the 10 things that range from most important to least and match with her chosen choices... What does that shown? Our vision perspective is similar? I remember reading a newspaper, the most important factor in a relationship is vision perspective (信念). Having the same vision will have lesser conflict in the future.
After all these days, I finally decided to use the initiative and courage that I had in my working life and let her know this blog. I just want to know if I stand a chance... I really can't believe that she can't sense that I got feelings for her.... even my colleague start to suspect already.. I believed after she get to know this, our working relationship and friendship will be affected, is just a matter of how large the degree is...
"我们以后
会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案
再靠近一点点
就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点
我就跟你走
你还等什么
时间已经不多
再下去
只好只做朋友
恋人未满
After all these days, I finally decided to use the initiative and courage that I had in my working life and let her know this blog. I just want to know if I stand a chance... I really can't believe that she can't sense that I got feelings for her.... even my colleague start to suspect already.. I believed after she get to know this, our working relationship and friendship will be affected, is just a matter of how large the degree is...
"我们以后
会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案
再靠近一点点
就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点
我就跟你走
你还等什么
时间已经不多
再下去
只好只做朋友
恋人未满
3rd July
It friday... 3 more days... Early in the morning, received a sms. I thought she sms me to say she taking mc as the previous day she is not feeling well. It will be a boring day without her in office. Luckily, the sms is not from her...
Today site manager asked to packet bee hoon for the whole team but I remember she said before that she want to try glutinous rice. If I just buy her glutinous rice specially, she sure will reject. So I come out with a "reason" that I want to eat and ask her if she want also and she say ok.
I start to act blur whenever she receive sms. Deceiving myself that the sms is not from that someone. I hope my heart can do that but my brain can't help thinking of it. What should I do?
Tonight is the final episode of the 10pm chan u drama. Will me and her have the same happy ending as the actor and actress in the drama?
"I have a life time full of hopes and dreams
I thought I seek true love but it's never what it seems
I've been broken but I know how to survive
Somehow I always keep my dreams alive
But I wasn't prepare for the feeling that I would find
The first time that I held you
For the fuzz that came to mind
The love that I've been waiting for all those years
Was holding on to me and easing all my fears
Every part that I ever prayed
Has been answered in a heart beat
My spirit wants to sing every time we meet
Now my only fear is that it's too good to be true
Every dream that I ever dreamed
Is coming true in you
Some sort of connection
What a wonderful surprise
Change my life direction with the look in your eyes
You've always a part of me
I just didn't know
Now I've finally found you and I will never let you go
Every part that I ever prayed
Has been answered in a heart beat
My spirit wants to sing every time we meet
Now my only fear is that it's too good to be true
Every dream that I ever dreamed
Is coming true in you
It's all coming true in you..."
Coming True In You
Sunday plan failed as she is not required to come back and had arranged to get her hair for a makeover. Consolation is tonight I got a chance to dine with her. We chat about our job experience and so coincidence, we both like event organising. I had done this during my 3 years of poly days. I have to admit the feeling of organising an event successfully is undescrible but as I am already in FM line, I had no choice but to carry on FM. But I will consider if she were to switch field as striving side by side with the gal I loved is one of my dream.
During dinner, I also hint her that to some guy, career isn't the most important. As she is "muddlehead" at times, does she know that the guy I referring to is me?
I think I had sunk deeper... In the past, I wish when working,the time passed quickly, so I can go home... But now, I wished time pass slowly especially when I am with her.. Just like tonight, even though we are just supervising vendors renovating an office, I am already contented just by chatting with her and wish time pass slowly....
Today site manager asked to packet bee hoon for the whole team but I remember she said before that she want to try glutinous rice. If I just buy her glutinous rice specially, she sure will reject. So I come out with a "reason" that I want to eat and ask her if she want also and she say ok.
I start to act blur whenever she receive sms. Deceiving myself that the sms is not from that someone. I hope my heart can do that but my brain can't help thinking of it. What should I do?
Tonight is the final episode of the 10pm chan u drama. Will me and her have the same happy ending as the actor and actress in the drama?
"I have a life time full of hopes and dreams
I thought I seek true love but it's never what it seems
I've been broken but I know how to survive
Somehow I always keep my dreams alive
But I wasn't prepare for the feeling that I would find
The first time that I held you
For the fuzz that came to mind
The love that I've been waiting for all those years
Was holding on to me and easing all my fears
Every part that I ever prayed
Has been answered in a heart beat
My spirit wants to sing every time we meet
Now my only fear is that it's too good to be true
Every dream that I ever dreamed
Is coming true in you
Some sort of connection
What a wonderful surprise
Change my life direction with the look in your eyes
You've always a part of me
I just didn't know
Now I've finally found you and I will never let you go
Every part that I ever prayed
Has been answered in a heart beat
My spirit wants to sing every time we meet
Now my only fear is that it's too good to be true
Every dream that I ever dreamed
Is coming true in you
It's all coming true in you..."
Coming True In You
Sunday plan failed as she is not required to come back and had arranged to get her hair for a makeover. Consolation is tonight I got a chance to dine with her. We chat about our job experience and so coincidence, we both like event organising. I had done this during my 3 years of poly days. I have to admit the feeling of organising an event successfully is undescrible but as I am already in FM line, I had no choice but to carry on FM. But I will consider if she were to switch field as striving side by side with the gal I loved is one of my dream.
During dinner, I also hint her that to some guy, career isn't the most important. As she is "muddlehead" at times, does she know that the guy I referring to is me?
I think I had sunk deeper... In the past, I wish when working,the time passed quickly, so I can go home... But now, I wished time pass slowly especially when I am with her.. Just like tonight, even though we are just supervising vendors renovating an office, I am already contented just by chatting with her and wish time pass slowly....
Thursday, July 2, 2009
2nd July
When she saw the breakfast that I had packet for her, she was a bit surprise as she had not eaten it for a long time. This is also the reason why I bought puttu mayam. Does she know that everything she said, I will remember it? I don't mind packet anything for her even though it require me to queue or walk some distance to buy. As long as I can see her enjoyed the food, I will be happy.
I noticed her that she don't seem to be herself today and she told me she feel a bit sick. The care and concern I showed seem to be over of what a normal colleague should have shown. Does she feel that also?
Indirectly I asked her if she is an easily touched person and she said yes. Will she feel touched when she saw this blog?
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."
Love Me
From tomorrow onwards, there will be some ongoing works through the weekend. I took the chance and asked her what her plans for the weekend. She told me she got a graduation dinner on sat and she need to leave by 5.30pm and sun, she will be free. Don't want to let the chances slip again, I quickly make appointment to dine with her tomorrow and for sunday, I still haven't got any plans yet. If she agreed, I will "fulfill" her wishes again by accompanying her to the places she liked to go to.
Come to think of it, this week she and her boyfriend doesn't have a chance to meet. Does that mean their relationship is on the rock? I ask her if she had watch the movie "transformer" already, her answer is no. I just want to tell her that she deserved to be treated better. Her boyfriend don't seem to understand her well or cherish her. All those places, food, movies that she liked, he failed to do anything. I wonder how they managed to maintain the relationship for 2 years with everyday just a few sms or phone calls. I also noticed she don't like to mention her boyfriend during normal conversation or put their photo on handphone, facebook, etc. Why is it like this? I curious to find out...
At least from our normal conversation, I know what she liked and tried to fulfill her "wishes" and give her surprises just like this morning. Although it is just a breakfast, but I think is the thought that matters. With her, I always tried to crack some joke, so she will laughed which in turn I will feel happy also. No matter what, a gal still need to be pamper... I promise I will try to let you be a blissful little gal.... You are the only person that can let me drop my guard since the first day I stepped into the working environment..
"Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?
I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch when you are sleeping, you belong to me
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?"
Eternal Flame
I noticed her that she don't seem to be herself today and she told me she feel a bit sick. The care and concern I showed seem to be over of what a normal colleague should have shown. Does she feel that also?
Indirectly I asked her if she is an easily touched person and she said yes. Will she feel touched when she saw this blog?
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."
Love Me
From tomorrow onwards, there will be some ongoing works through the weekend. I took the chance and asked her what her plans for the weekend. She told me she got a graduation dinner on sat and she need to leave by 5.30pm and sun, she will be free. Don't want to let the chances slip again, I quickly make appointment to dine with her tomorrow and for sunday, I still haven't got any plans yet. If she agreed, I will "fulfill" her wishes again by accompanying her to the places she liked to go to.
Come to think of it, this week she and her boyfriend doesn't have a chance to meet. Does that mean their relationship is on the rock? I ask her if she had watch the movie "transformer" already, her answer is no. I just want to tell her that she deserved to be treated better. Her boyfriend don't seem to understand her well or cherish her. All those places, food, movies that she liked, he failed to do anything. I wonder how they managed to maintain the relationship for 2 years with everyday just a few sms or phone calls. I also noticed she don't like to mention her boyfriend during normal conversation or put their photo on handphone, facebook, etc. Why is it like this? I curious to find out...
At least from our normal conversation, I know what she liked and tried to fulfill her "wishes" and give her surprises just like this morning. Although it is just a breakfast, but I think is the thought that matters. With her, I always tried to crack some joke, so she will laughed which in turn I will feel happy also. No matter what, a gal still need to be pamper... I promise I will try to let you be a blissful little gal.... You are the only person that can let me drop my guard since the first day I stepped into the working environment..
"Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?
I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch when you are sleeping, you belong to me
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?"
Eternal Flame
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
1st July
Morning she sms me that she not joining me for lunch. This will be the fourth time she not lunching with me. Seeing that she seem tired, I asked her why and she say top up first aid box is tiring. I offered my help and she agreed. For sure, 2 person will be more "lively" and faster. We managed to finish a few boxes before lunch. Maybe me and her is fated, her friend told her that she can't make it and in the end, she still had lunch with me.. We went for a walk to buy fruit juice and chat along the way. I found out she had more and more similarities as me. We both like to watch sport such as table tennis, olympics games... Almost on all topics we can start a conversation... Is this call affinity?
After a "tiring" day, she received a last min work again. She was tasked to supervise cleaning on a big boss office. Till 6.30pm, she still waiting for the cleaners to come, then she message me why I haven't go back. How she want me to answer? Tell her "Cos I waiting for you to go back together"? I use back her same "tactics" and divert the topic without answering her question.. haha... Since don't know when, waiting for her to knock off together has become my daily routine. I just hope she don't misunderstand all this while, knocking off together is on pure luck, helping her is because of "one team". The truth is because it is her, that why I help or wait for her... I not that noble after all.....
I told her tomorrow I going to packet her breakfast without telling what I buying for her. Going to give her a surprise as I remember she say she like to eat puttu mayam but very few places got sell. What her reaction will be? Will she feel happy and surprise? Can't wait to see her reaction.....
"想念着 每天每秒我们故事 每天每秒说好的事
两个人一起散步 是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使 给我力量能够坚持
那些关心问候 翅膀一样的双手
是我最幸福的所有
心里面有你建的角落
脆弱时我能够躲一躲"
永远在身边
After a "tiring" day, she received a last min work again. She was tasked to supervise cleaning on a big boss office. Till 6.30pm, she still waiting for the cleaners to come, then she message me why I haven't go back. How she want me to answer? Tell her "Cos I waiting for you to go back together"? I use back her same "tactics" and divert the topic without answering her question.. haha... Since don't know when, waiting for her to knock off together has become my daily routine. I just hope she don't misunderstand all this while, knocking off together is on pure luck, helping her is because of "one team". The truth is because it is her, that why I help or wait for her... I not that noble after all.....
I told her tomorrow I going to packet her breakfast without telling what I buying for her. Going to give her a surprise as I remember she say she like to eat puttu mayam but very few places got sell. What her reaction will be? Will she feel happy and surprise? Can't wait to see her reaction.....
"想念着 每天每秒我们故事 每天每秒说好的事
两个人一起散步 是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使 给我力量能够坚持
那些关心问候 翅膀一样的双手
是我最幸福的所有
心里面有你建的角落
脆弱时我能够躲一躲"
永远在身边
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
30th June
Last day of the month... Today I queue for 15 mins to buy some tapioca kueh and bring back to office for the team to eat. Actually my purpose is to buy for her to try. I remember she say before during her previous job, she had tried one nonya buffet and she liked it. I know she don't like to walk long distance especially when she wearing heels, that why I packet her the kueh, so she can enjoy it without having to walk so far.
During lunch, I noticed she is quiet and extremely bored. I tried to chat with her a few times but my friends keep switching the topic back to work which she can't get involved... Once my friend done with his lunch, I suggest to go off and accompany her for a walk to let her release her boredom before proceeding back to office. Her mood seem to be better.
She told me about her daily life, is a routine of work, go home, dinner, watch tv, surf net, then sleep and begin another day. I wanted to tell her I hope I can break her cycle and go to different places after work with her, relaxed ourselves after a day of work...
Don't know for what reason, I feel very tired today. Not physically but mentally... Suddenly I wish after work, I can go out with the gal I like (which is her) and went for a dinner, then go out for a walk or enjoy the night with her before sending her home...
"我怎么都不想睡
天特別亮夜特別的黑
当我深深的呼吸
心中充满想你的甜蜜
想和你走在雨中
想要你牵我的手
傻傻的你不敢说爱
而我也故意要你为我等待
说不出有多么快乐
还是不够 这感觉这一切
就好像飘在外太空
别的星球 只有我们存在"
有你的快乐
Turning my head to look at her in office, waiting for her to reply my message, waiting for her to go lunch or knock off, waiting for her to on msn become my daily habit... But too bad she not online today... Maybe she too engrossed with her drama or busy with household chores... Everytime I go out with her, I will usually look out for flat ground as her heels is hard to walk on uneven ground, touched her arm or back when crossing the road or avoiding passerby.. Does she notice all these small "caring" action?
During lunch, I noticed she is quiet and extremely bored. I tried to chat with her a few times but my friends keep switching the topic back to work which she can't get involved... Once my friend done with his lunch, I suggest to go off and accompany her for a walk to let her release her boredom before proceeding back to office. Her mood seem to be better.
She told me about her daily life, is a routine of work, go home, dinner, watch tv, surf net, then sleep and begin another day. I wanted to tell her I hope I can break her cycle and go to different places after work with her, relaxed ourselves after a day of work...
Don't know for what reason, I feel very tired today. Not physically but mentally... Suddenly I wish after work, I can go out with the gal I like (which is her) and went for a dinner, then go out for a walk or enjoy the night with her before sending her home...
"我怎么都不想睡
天特別亮夜特別的黑
当我深深的呼吸
心中充满想你的甜蜜
想和你走在雨中
想要你牵我的手
傻傻的你不敢说爱
而我也故意要你为我等待
说不出有多么快乐
还是不够 这感觉这一切
就好像飘在外太空
别的星球 只有我们存在"
有你的快乐
Turning my head to look at her in office, waiting for her to reply my message, waiting for her to go lunch or knock off, waiting for her to on msn become my daily habit... But too bad she not online today... Maybe she too engrossed with her drama or busy with household chores... Everytime I go out with her, I will usually look out for flat ground as her heels is hard to walk on uneven ground, touched her arm or back when crossing the road or avoiding passerby.. Does she notice all these small "caring" action?
Monday, June 29, 2009
29th June
A tired day... Maybe is due to not enough sleep on the previous day.. Quite a boring monday, nothing much to do.. But happy can see her again after 2 days.. She ask me how long I had waited yesterday, then I realised that I waited for 5 hrs to let her save 2 hrs of traveling time. When I become so noble???? Is she really so important in my heart that I don't mind sacrificing my time for hers especially it is after a tiring shutdown?? I think the answer is YES as I already proven in action.. I still ask her out to go marina barrage despite I am tired, this clearly prove that with her, I don't mind doing anything.. and I will cherish every moments that I can be with her..
"我看見星光灿烂 是你的双眼 我听见宁静夜晚 有你的呼吸 你的陪伴
多少相愛 多少徬徨 多少迷乱 多少相聚 多少失败 多少不安
愛了你我才学会 真情相慰 不會后悔
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我感觉所有的你 在我的心里 我的记忆
我相信只要有你 我才有力气 不会放弃
尽管世界 依然纷乱 依然离开 只愿与你
相信相愛相信平凡 這一生冷暖悲欢 承若着愛 天涯相伴
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过了泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我祈求每一分可能 用我生命将愛完成
我祈求不管寒冬再冷 只要你伴我一生"
She told me tomorrow she got to do inventory check and top up first aid stock. I wanted to tell her that I actually don't mind helping her out. Just like today, my colleague arranged a kopi session with my boss and asked me to join. At first, I agreed but when going to go off, I saw her need help in confirming the delivery order, I immediately went over and help her out before proceeding to the kopi place even though I know I will be late...
She will forget things if she don't jot down the instruction. I think she had forgotten that her manager ask her to check the aircon diffuser inside the office as this is a verbal instruction. Behind her, I already instructed the cleaning supervisor to do the cleaning so she will not get "reprimanded".. Will she be touched if she know that behind her, I had been the mediator closing the gap of her and the cleaning team, helping her to give instruction, etc?
"懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深"
非你莫属
"我看見星光灿烂 是你的双眼 我听见宁静夜晚 有你的呼吸 你的陪伴
多少相愛 多少徬徨 多少迷乱 多少相聚 多少失败 多少不安
愛了你我才学会 真情相慰 不會后悔
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我感觉所有的你 在我的心里 我的记忆
我相信只要有你 我才有力气 不会放弃
尽管世界 依然纷乱 依然离开 只愿与你
相信相愛相信平凡 這一生冷暖悲欢 承若着愛 天涯相伴
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过了泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我祈求每一分可能 用我生命将愛完成
我祈求不管寒冬再冷 只要你伴我一生"
She told me tomorrow she got to do inventory check and top up first aid stock. I wanted to tell her that I actually don't mind helping her out. Just like today, my colleague arranged a kopi session with my boss and asked me to join. At first, I agreed but when going to go off, I saw her need help in confirming the delivery order, I immediately went over and help her out before proceeding to the kopi place even though I know I will be late...
She will forget things if she don't jot down the instruction. I think she had forgotten that her manager ask her to check the aircon diffuser inside the office as this is a verbal instruction. Behind her, I already instructed the cleaning supervisor to do the cleaning so she will not get "reprimanded".. Will she be touched if she know that behind her, I had been the mediator closing the gap of her and the cleaning team, helping her to give instruction, etc?
"懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深"
非你莫属
Sunday, June 28, 2009
28th June
Sunday, going back to samsung hub to resume back the M&E system.. Sleeping for 4 hrs only make me feel tired.. But strange, I feel spirited when I think I will be seeing her again in the afternoon. My tiredness gone when she agreed to go to marina barrage after we finished the ozonation work... But happiness don't last, soon she sms me again saying she can't make it and need to go off after the work done. Not wanted to be surrounded by doubts, I ask her if she is meeting her boyfriend and her answer is family. So is still fine with me as long as the person is not him... All I can say my reaction is human jealousy... But she arranged to go marina barrage with me next week, hope she will not forget about it.
By 12pm, I should be able to leave... But thinking she will be coming at 3 for the ozonation work, I stay back to wait for her. Come to think of it, since she only coming back to sign off the service report and need to rush back to meet her family, I told her that I will help her to sign off the service report and check whatever necessary stuff, so she do not need to waste 2 hr of traveling time to and fro.. She agreed..
I glad that this weekend she can relaxed as both days her work is covered by me. Do such a man still exist? Covered the gal work so she got more time to meet her boyfriend.. Maybe this explain that love doesn't mean possession, as long as she is happy, I will be happy to do anything for her... But when I become so noble? Haha...
"一天一天贴近你的心你开心我关心
一点一滴我都能感应你是我最美的相信
等不到双子座流星雨撒满天际
新点燃九支仙女棒代替
最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影
把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
最浪漫的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言"
By 12pm, I should be able to leave... But thinking she will be coming at 3 for the ozonation work, I stay back to wait for her. Come to think of it, since she only coming back to sign off the service report and need to rush back to meet her family, I told her that I will help her to sign off the service report and check whatever necessary stuff, so she do not need to waste 2 hr of traveling time to and fro.. She agreed..
I glad that this weekend she can relaxed as both days her work is covered by me. Do such a man still exist? Covered the gal work so she got more time to meet her boyfriend.. Maybe this explain that love doesn't mean possession, as long as she is happy, I will be happy to do anything for her... But when I become so noble? Haha...
"一天一天贴近你的心你开心我关心
一点一滴我都能感应你是我最美的相信
等不到双子座流星雨撒满天际
新点燃九支仙女棒代替
最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影
把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
最浪漫的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言"
27th June
After 19 days, today is the first day that we didn't meet... msn with her last night till 145am, I think that is an unusual timing for her as she always sleep at 11+, so am I consider lucky? Hehe...
Today a busy day for me as samsung hub power shutdown. But as this is not my site, I am suppose to play as a supporting role. In the end, I do almost all the isolation, shutdown, maintenance servicing checking, powering up and start to direct the later part of the integrated system testing due to the site engineer too slow... Unintentionally, I challenge my manager and he lose.. Haha.. Somehow I feel that this shutdown is meant for me to perform.. I grade myself 8 out of 10...
My vendor told me they are quite many FM job in the market and base on my "work ability", I don't need to suffer under my manager. Then they ask me when I going to switch job. I wanted to reply at that moment I will stay here for the sake of a gal.. It sound foolish, doesn't it? But I just can't explain why... Just spending time with her will make me feel contented even watching her silently by her side. I don't understand why her boyfriend can bear to meet her for only 1 time per week and she still can tolerate....
"Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life well always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on"
She gone to watch the magic performance at central tonight. I wish I am the one beside her but I know this can't be happening as her sat night is reserved for someone... It will be good if she still unattached, I will shower her with care and concern and shelter anything for her. Why a simple gal like her can make me do so much for her? Fate?
Today a busy day for me as samsung hub power shutdown. But as this is not my site, I am suppose to play as a supporting role. In the end, I do almost all the isolation, shutdown, maintenance servicing checking, powering up and start to direct the later part of the integrated system testing due to the site engineer too slow... Unintentionally, I challenge my manager and he lose.. Haha.. Somehow I feel that this shutdown is meant for me to perform.. I grade myself 8 out of 10...
My vendor told me they are quite many FM job in the market and base on my "work ability", I don't need to suffer under my manager. Then they ask me when I going to switch job. I wanted to reply at that moment I will stay here for the sake of a gal.. It sound foolish, doesn't it? But I just can't explain why... Just spending time with her will make me feel contented even watching her silently by her side. I don't understand why her boyfriend can bear to meet her for only 1 time per week and she still can tolerate....
"Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life well always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on"
She gone to watch the magic performance at central tonight. I wish I am the one beside her but I know this can't be happening as her sat night is reserved for someone... It will be good if she still unattached, I will shower her with care and concern and shelter anything for her. Why a simple gal like her can make me do so much for her? Fate?
Friday, June 26, 2009
26th June
It finally friday... Today pass quite fast, maybe due to function preparation. I noticed she constantly checking her handphone for any new sms. My prediction will be her boyfriend didn't reply her sms. But when coming to evening, her sms increase again.. Don't know why but I got a negative feeling whenever she sms, my confidence level also drop...
I told her that I will cover for her tomorrow work, so she can get more rest and prepare for the next few weekend A&A works. At first, she insist but after a few times of persuade, she agreed. Will she know that I cover for her is because I don't want her to over tire herself and only she has the privilege?
Another day of work till 11+. Actually I am not required to stand by for tonight function. If only my handyman is around, I may or may not stay back. But tonight because she is staying back, that why I opt to stay back to assist her. Throughout the whole function, there are 2 times I am exceptionally happy when one secretary say "我就猜到你们两个一定会留下来" and one cleaner ask me when I change job to become bodyguard to someone. Does that mean we look compatible? Haha...
The whole function is almost a waiting session but I don't mind as I am together with her. Last part of the function where we were "allowed" to drink is more fun. After which will be the clearing part where we assist each other and finished everything in less than half an hour time. Dinner is a difficult choice as we had been discussing since the late afternoon and we decided to try our luck at boat quay and see which stall is still opened.. After finished our dinner at a malay stall, I accompanied her to the bus stop as usual and proceed back home when she had boarded the bus.
"我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局"
童话
I told her that I will cover for her tomorrow work, so she can get more rest and prepare for the next few weekend A&A works. At first, she insist but after a few times of persuade, she agreed. Will she know that I cover for her is because I don't want her to over tire herself and only she has the privilege?
Another day of work till 11+. Actually I am not required to stand by for tonight function. If only my handyman is around, I may or may not stay back. But tonight because she is staying back, that why I opt to stay back to assist her. Throughout the whole function, there are 2 times I am exceptionally happy when one secretary say "我就猜到你们两个一定会留下来" and one cleaner ask me when I change job to become bodyguard to someone. Does that mean we look compatible? Haha...
The whole function is almost a waiting session but I don't mind as I am together with her. Last part of the function where we were "allowed" to drink is more fun. After which will be the clearing part where we assist each other and finished everything in less than half an hour time. Dinner is a difficult choice as we had been discussing since the late afternoon and we decided to try our luck at boat quay and see which stall is still opened.. After finished our dinner at a malay stall, I accompanied her to the bus stop as usual and proceed back home when she had boarded the bus.
"我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局"
童话
Thursday, June 25, 2009
25th June
Inside the office, turning my head and look back has become 1 of my habit. Hope I can cover all these places with her in the future...
I wonder do she feel surprise when I remember what her likes and her don't like.. During lunch today, we go and eat char kway teow. As I know she can't drink kopi and don't eat clam, before ordering, I double check with her that her plate do not want any clam as she didn't specific in the first place.. I know that almond is her favorite, so I suggested we go for almond paste at one of the famous dessert store after lunch. I also told her not to have kopi when we are ordering for drinks on the previous night.. I hope she had noticed all these...
During our way to tea break, I ask her why this sat afternoon got no ongoing work and she still want to come back? Then she think for a while and answer just drop by and take a look. On my wishful thinking, I hope she come just to meet me for a while..... haha...
I got a feeling that she start to treat me differently. Maybe is due to these 2 days I notice that her sms seem to gone down.. But her sms to me has gone up... haha.. Our topics seem to be getting more as days went past, maybe this is due to we share the same interest and job field. I can sense that her laughter is from the heart when I joke with her but she seem to think a lot when silence is in the air. I wish one day she can share her troubles with me and I will shoulder for her.
"No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true
And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you"
I know she like shopping very much. I hope I will got the chance to comb all the shopping centre with her. I don't mind standing at one corner waiting for her while she shop as I will be satisfied just to be with her.....
I had a strange dream just now.. I dream of her boyfriend initiated a break off with her and she is sad... Even if that the case, I will stand by there for her..
Tomorrow night we will be having dinner together again as there is some function ongoing which will last till 7+ pm.. Let see if we got chance to go walk walk again...
"I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul."
Everyday I Love You
I wonder do she feel surprise when I remember what her likes and her don't like.. During lunch today, we go and eat char kway teow. As I know she can't drink kopi and don't eat clam, before ordering, I double check with her that her plate do not want any clam as she didn't specific in the first place.. I know that almond is her favorite, so I suggested we go for almond paste at one of the famous dessert store after lunch. I also told her not to have kopi when we are ordering for drinks on the previous night.. I hope she had noticed all these...
During our way to tea break, I ask her why this sat afternoon got no ongoing work and she still want to come back? Then she think for a while and answer just drop by and take a look. On my wishful thinking, I hope she come just to meet me for a while..... haha...
I got a feeling that she start to treat me differently. Maybe is due to these 2 days I notice that her sms seem to gone down.. But her sms to me has gone up... haha.. Our topics seem to be getting more as days went past, maybe this is due to we share the same interest and job field. I can sense that her laughter is from the heart when I joke with her but she seem to think a lot when silence is in the air. I wish one day she can share her troubles with me and I will shoulder for her.
"No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true
And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you"
I know she like shopping very much. I hope I will got the chance to comb all the shopping centre with her. I don't mind standing at one corner waiting for her while she shop as I will be satisfied just to be with her.....
I had a strange dream just now.. I dream of her boyfriend initiated a break off with her and she is sad... Even if that the case, I will stand by there for her..
Tomorrow night we will be having dinner together again as there is some function ongoing which will last till 7+ pm.. Let see if we got chance to go walk walk again...
"I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul."
Everyday I Love You
24th June
It quite funny today, can't get back to sleep after waking up at 5+ am. Got a feeling just like small kid waiting to go on an excursion. Tonight is the first time that I had prearranged to ask her out. The day proceed as usual with nothing much to do. Notice today that she didn't sms as much as the past few days. Not sure what happen but I quite happy. I am getting more evil I think. Haha. The shirt she wearing today is the same as last fri except that time is blue and today is peach color. Looking forward to the time to hit 6.. Just 15 mins before 6, receive sms from her that she need help to pin up some notice which needed to be completed by today. Me and my 2 colleagues quickly help her to do the job so we can go out earlier. Everything is completed by 6.35. Me and her with my duty engineer decided to go orchard to have dinner.
I suggested to go to the new shopping centre and upon reaching, we found out most shops are not opened. So we proceed to cineleisure and try the HK cafe over there. After which, 3 of us intended to go for movie but due to sold out, we take a walk down orchard road. Inside HMV, me and her is always side by side while my duty engineer is on his own. She same as me, prefer chinese song only. Find out she seldom watch movie, I wonder what she and her boyfriend always do..
As the time is still early, we decided to walk down to borders at wheel lock place as suggested by my duty engineer. Me and her share 1 magazine and were browsing through when her handphone got sms alert. I guess it is from her boyfriend. But after 3-4 sms, we continue back our magazine where I found out we both are interested in gossip news when we across an article on adultery. Haha.
Seeing her getting tired, I suggested is time to call it a day as the book store is closing also... She and my duty engineer took cab home as both live in the west while I took bus.
I guess our "friendship" had taken a small step forward. Hehe.. I am happy tonight. If she is my girlfriend, everyday will be like today, share her workload, after work, me and her will go walk walk, dinner before sending her home. I will still do that even when I not working in the same building, cos seeing her will make me forget the work stress of that day... Ask me to endure my cunning sly fox boss and my manager for her sake, I also don't mind...
"每个朝朝和暮暮 我都要和你共度
让手心 一直都热呼呼
爱情路 有种缓慢的幸福
伴随一点辛苦
相遇是幸福 等待一点辛苦
爱情路 有了你我什么都顶的住..."
爱情路
Tonight is 2nd time we were together till 11+... Although got a last minute work when knocking off, but the feeling of striving to complete it and enjoying the fruit of the labour together is great. Thanks for the enjoyable night....
"watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still...
all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift"
The Gift
I suggested to go to the new shopping centre and upon reaching, we found out most shops are not opened. So we proceed to cineleisure and try the HK cafe over there. After which, 3 of us intended to go for movie but due to sold out, we take a walk down orchard road. Inside HMV, me and her is always side by side while my duty engineer is on his own. She same as me, prefer chinese song only. Find out she seldom watch movie, I wonder what she and her boyfriend always do..
As the time is still early, we decided to walk down to borders at wheel lock place as suggested by my duty engineer. Me and her share 1 magazine and were browsing through when her handphone got sms alert. I guess it is from her boyfriend. But after 3-4 sms, we continue back our magazine where I found out we both are interested in gossip news when we across an article on adultery. Haha.
Seeing her getting tired, I suggested is time to call it a day as the book store is closing also... She and my duty engineer took cab home as both live in the west while I took bus.
I guess our "friendship" had taken a small step forward. Hehe.. I am happy tonight. If she is my girlfriend, everyday will be like today, share her workload, after work, me and her will go walk walk, dinner before sending her home. I will still do that even when I not working in the same building, cos seeing her will make me forget the work stress of that day... Ask me to endure my cunning sly fox boss and my manager for her sake, I also don't mind...
"每个朝朝和暮暮 我都要和你共度
让手心 一直都热呼呼
爱情路 有种缓慢的幸福
伴随一点辛苦
相遇是幸福 等待一点辛苦
爱情路 有了你我什么都顶的住..."
爱情路
Tonight is 2nd time we were together till 11+... Although got a last minute work when knocking off, but the feeling of striving to complete it and enjoying the fruit of the labour together is great. Thanks for the enjoyable night....
"watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still...
all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift"
The Gift
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
23rd June
Today is a bad day, suddenly my cunning sly boss shoot many arrows at me. Receive negative feedback about me from him through an ex colleague, but I can't remember stepping on his tail regarding work matters. Suddenly have an urge to tender resignation, but upon cooling down, there is still a reason for me to stay. With her, I think nothing matters.... Looking forward for tomorrow dinner with her.. and my duty engineer...
"今夜还吹着风, 想起你好温柔, 有你的日子分外的轻松
也不是无影踪, 只是想你太浓, 怎么会无时无刻把你梦"
I can remember clearly of what we had chatted before. When she asked me if I know where can get watches at a cheaper price and evaded the question of who it is for, my brain immediately pieced the info with what she asked me last time if I got any idea for a surprise birthday. My prediction will be: she is buying a watch for her boyfriend birthday. Why my memory and brain work so efficiently? Now the prediction cause my confidence to drop.... I hope my prediction is incorrect but chances is not high...
Test water today and found out the most they meet is 2 times per week over the weekend. She say that isn't an issue as they call each other everyday but prefer if can meet weekday and weekend. Seem like they going on fine but why she just can't show some rejectness when I treating her so special? Is she putting on a strong front or she just don't know how to reject?
"在我心上用力的开一枪,让一切归零 在这声巨响
如果愛是说什么都不能放, 我不掙扎 反正我也 沒差"
人质
As we go walk walk after lunch, she told me her boyfriend is going to take photo with her in the graduation robe after her october graduation as both of them is degree holder. I wonder what so great about degree? I also got one.... I think at the moment, my jealousy overrule my mind..
If he really cherish her so much, why he don't spend more time with her, only a phone call per night... Some more, her job always got last minute and weekend work which made her weekend burn, if he really love her, he should spend more effort to meet her after work as how far traveling distance can it be?
If I am her boyfriend, I will spend more time with her as once or twice a week just doesn't seem enough. No matter how independent and strong gals are, at the end of the day, they still need a shoulder to lean and ears to listen to their sorrow. Maybe it is due to their honeymoon period over, but one just can't take things for granted..
Remember she told me that last weekend she didn't go to marina barrage as planned is due to they will unable to make it to the last shuttle service ferrying them out. If I were the one with her, I would still go there and if can't catch the last shuttle, I would take a slow stroll with her and enjoy the night scene along the way just like that friday nite. Nothing matter as long as she is with me...
"牵我手 跟着我走 风再大有怎样
你有了我 再也不会迷失方向"
流星雨
What her reaction will be if I told her directly that I had fallen for her??
"今夜还吹着风, 想起你好温柔, 有你的日子分外的轻松
也不是无影踪, 只是想你太浓, 怎么会无时无刻把你梦"
I can remember clearly of what we had chatted before. When she asked me if I know where can get watches at a cheaper price and evaded the question of who it is for, my brain immediately pieced the info with what she asked me last time if I got any idea for a surprise birthday. My prediction will be: she is buying a watch for her boyfriend birthday. Why my memory and brain work so efficiently? Now the prediction cause my confidence to drop.... I hope my prediction is incorrect but chances is not high...
Test water today and found out the most they meet is 2 times per week over the weekend. She say that isn't an issue as they call each other everyday but prefer if can meet weekday and weekend. Seem like they going on fine but why she just can't show some rejectness when I treating her so special? Is she putting on a strong front or she just don't know how to reject?
"在我心上用力的开一枪,让一切归零 在这声巨响
如果愛是说什么都不能放, 我不掙扎 反正我也 沒差"
人质
As we go walk walk after lunch, she told me her boyfriend is going to take photo with her in the graduation robe after her october graduation as both of them is degree holder. I wonder what so great about degree? I also got one.... I think at the moment, my jealousy overrule my mind..
If he really cherish her so much, why he don't spend more time with her, only a phone call per night... Some more, her job always got last minute and weekend work which made her weekend burn, if he really love her, he should spend more effort to meet her after work as how far traveling distance can it be?
If I am her boyfriend, I will spend more time with her as once or twice a week just doesn't seem enough. No matter how independent and strong gals are, at the end of the day, they still need a shoulder to lean and ears to listen to their sorrow. Maybe it is due to their honeymoon period over, but one just can't take things for granted..
Remember she told me that last weekend she didn't go to marina barrage as planned is due to they will unable to make it to the last shuttle service ferrying them out. If I were the one with her, I would still go there and if can't catch the last shuttle, I would take a slow stroll with her and enjoy the night scene along the way just like that friday nite. Nothing matter as long as she is with me...
"牵我手 跟着我走 风再大有怎样
你有了我 再也不会迷失方向"
流星雨
What her reaction will be if I told her directly that I had fallen for her??
Monday, June 22, 2009
22nd June
When going to knock off, I summon my courage and ask her if wed night she is free and asked her out for dinner to celebrate her graduation. She agreed. Actually that day my duty engineer happened to be her friend, my initial intention is to rope him in also, but just to "test water", I never mentioned he is going also.. She agreed even though just the two of us going out, so what does that mean to her? Normal friend celebrating her graduation?
Thinking she will spend tonight celebrating with her boyfriend, she told me she is not celebrating. But she is going to harbourfront instead of home, so I waited with her for her bus to come.. I am curious why she is going there, if she is going there to celebrate with her boyfriend, why she don't tell me frankly?
I think it is already quite obvious that I got feelings for her after all those "small action" I do:
1. Talking to her in gentle tone
2. Always stay by her side when walking or sitting down
3. Always stay back with her and knock off together
4. Accompany her around especially during weekends
5. Wait with her for her bus/cab to arrive
6. Deliberately go back to office to meet her on weekends
7. Always find topics to chat with her
8. Accompany her during her meals
Don't tell me she think all these actions will be done by a normal friend??
If there is a machine that can bring back to the time before they kicked off, how good will it be, I will not feel so troubled liao....
Thinking she will spend tonight celebrating with her boyfriend, she told me she is not celebrating. But she is going to harbourfront instead of home, so I waited with her for her bus to come.. I am curious why she is going there, if she is going there to celebrate with her boyfriend, why she don't tell me frankly?
I think it is already quite obvious that I got feelings for her after all those "small action" I do:
1. Talking to her in gentle tone
2. Always stay by her side when walking or sitting down
3. Always stay back with her and knock off together
4. Accompany her around especially during weekends
5. Wait with her for her bus/cab to arrive
6. Deliberately go back to office to meet her on weekends
7. Always find topics to chat with her
8. Accompany her during her meals
Don't tell me she think all these actions will be done by a normal friend??
If there is a machine that can bring back to the time before they kicked off, how good will it be, I will not feel so troubled liao....
22nd June
I realised that since she transferred to this site, I had stopped bringing laptop, cut down many tea break and lunch session with my boss. Instead, I would stay in the office, waiting to answer any inquiry she had or follow up any work with her.
She had passed her final exam today. I think I am the first few that get to know the news. Thinking of how should I celebrate with her... Maybe rope in my shift engineer also, so it will not be so awkward... But why am I treating her like she is unattached? Is it because from her expression, I always sensed that something is bothering her and portraying a troubled feeling? Even my friend that had lunch with her for a few times only, also sensed that.
Even when we are not doing anything, just by watching her silently or following behind her, I will still feel a sense of happiness. Wonder if she feel the same?
There are many common likes and similarities between us including stuff that can have 1001 varieties, such as signature. I noticed hers is at least 90% similar to mine. Does this mean affinity? As time goes by, I find out she seem to fulfill most of of the requirement of what I looking for.
My requirement:
1. Non christian
2. Preferable cantonese sounded
3. Same interest; watch tvb, taiwan variety show, play mahjong, etc.
4. Similar field, so can have more topic and understand each other work commitment, especially my current job field always got last minute happening..
5. Not a frequent clubber
6. Non smoker
7. Do household chores, not always but at least know how to do
8. Live nearby
9. Preferable younger than me and not must not taller than me
10. Independent at times
What should I do? To tell the truth or just bury it in my heart?
She had passed her final exam today. I think I am the first few that get to know the news. Thinking of how should I celebrate with her... Maybe rope in my shift engineer also, so it will not be so awkward... But why am I treating her like she is unattached? Is it because from her expression, I always sensed that something is bothering her and portraying a troubled feeling? Even my friend that had lunch with her for a few times only, also sensed that.
Even when we are not doing anything, just by watching her silently or following behind her, I will still feel a sense of happiness. Wonder if she feel the same?
There are many common likes and similarities between us including stuff that can have 1001 varieties, such as signature. I noticed hers is at least 90% similar to mine. Does this mean affinity? As time goes by, I find out she seem to fulfill most of of the requirement of what I looking for.
My requirement:
1. Non christian
2. Preferable cantonese sounded
3. Same interest; watch tvb, taiwan variety show, play mahjong, etc.
4. Similar field, so can have more topic and understand each other work commitment, especially my current job field always got last minute happening..
5. Not a frequent clubber
6. Non smoker
7. Do household chores, not always but at least know how to do
8. Live nearby
9. Preferable younger than me and not must not taller than me
10. Independent at times
What should I do? To tell the truth or just bury it in my heart?
Sunday, June 21, 2009
喜欢
I believed that songs can be used to express how one feeling.. This song best describe what I feeling now.... Should I let her know the existence of this blog??
喜欢你的头发 喜欢你的脸颊
喜欢你微笑的时候眼里藏不住的光
喜欢你的害羞 喜欢你的疯狂
想要一天二十四个小时守在你身旁
喜欢开你玩笑 喜欢叫你傻瓜
喜欢吓你一跳时候看你慌张的模样
喜欢搭你肩膀 喜欢你会怕痒
喜欢趁你没有防备偷袭你的手指甲
想要抱你一下 贴紧我的胸膛
想要告诉你这样下去不是办法
想要把你绑架 想要带你回家
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
思念你令我惊慌 想到你令我膨胀
你的每个笑容都会令我幸福的快爆炸
见你的时候我总是说些傻呼呼的蠢话
令我随时随地濒临疯狂
喜欢
21th June
Today is no different from yesterday.. I still need to go back office to reset back some system but main reason I went back is because she also going back.. When everything almost finished, she still hanging around, first thought that came to my mind is she most probably waiting for her boyfriend to come, so I also hanged around with her. When we going off, she then told me she is going home, naturally I walked with her to find a cab. I suggested as the time is still early, we go central to take a walk, she rejected but she told me she will walked with me to central and took a cab from there. As usual, we chat and joke along the way. The reason why she want to go home is because she already planned to iron a few weeks of clothing...
I don't know why but I got an urge to find out more about her relationship, I had a feeling that she is not really that happy. Maybe it is my wishful thinking, I feel that if I were to bare my feelings for her, I might stand a chance... I still can't figure out a reason why an attached gal would go out with a guy that treat her so "special", behave like a couple? I also noticed that she don't demand much from her boyfriend beside occasionally sms-ing, weekdays she also no meet him for dinner or anything.. Maybe it is like what my friend had said, their relationship is on the rocks, already quite dull and she is just holding on.. I hope that is true even though it is a evil thought... haha..
There are a lot of things that I planned to talk with her but upon seeing her, I forgot what I want to say, words just can't come out from my mouth... haiz....
I don't know why but I got an urge to find out more about her relationship, I had a feeling that she is not really that happy. Maybe it is my wishful thinking, I feel that if I were to bare my feelings for her, I might stand a chance... I still can't figure out a reason why an attached gal would go out with a guy that treat her so "special", behave like a couple? I also noticed that she don't demand much from her boyfriend beside occasionally sms-ing, weekdays she also no meet him for dinner or anything.. Maybe it is like what my friend had said, their relationship is on the rocks, already quite dull and she is just holding on.. I hope that is true even though it is a evil thought... haha..
There are a lot of things that I planned to talk with her but upon seeing her, I forgot what I want to say, words just can't come out from my mouth... haiz....
Would you be there
If I were to send her the below song, don't know what her reaction will be???
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...
Would You Be There
Saturday, June 20, 2009
20th June
As usual, I was back in the office even though is saturday. Actually today I can go off early, but as she said she is coming back in the afternoon, I waited for her to come and do carpet inspection with her. After everything completed, I asked her if she want to go walk walk. She agreed and as we walked, I found out the answer that unfold my doubt, she is attached and already together for 2 years. This explained why I always seen her sms-ing which I thought is to normal friend. Got a sudden sadness rush to my heart. Why? Is it due to the feelings that had stayed in my heart since dunno when.... But I still walk with her from my office to esplanade then to marina where she had arranged to meet her boyfriend.
When I first heard she is meeting her boyfriend, I thought my ears is playing a joke on me. Initially, I choose to escape from the truth but later come to think of it, I decided to confirm and face it, no point hiding, as it will be just lying to myself...
Inside esplanade library, I asked her if love and career is placed in front of her, what would she choose? She answered it would be love. At that moment, I would want to let her know that if there is anything that can make me stay in my current job, it would be her. Although if I were to switch job, my prospect will definitely be better, but I don't mind sacrifice career for her sake... Now I finally understand why the recent taiwan drama that I had just finished "败犬女皇" , the male actor can sacrifice his career for the actress, the power of love....
Something I find it funny,
1. If she is attached, why her daily routine is like work and home only?
2. Why an attached gal don't show some "reject-ness" from a guy whom is behaving more than a normal colleague or even a normal friend?
3. When going out, why we can behave like a couple? Walk from place to place, talk and joke freely, discuss from heaven to earth and even personal stuff?
4. How can a boyfriend only spend time with his girlfriend once or twice a week, isn't that too few times??
Maybe that is her usual way of treating "friends" but definitely from my angle, I am not treating her as a normal friend, she has gone beyond that level in my heart....
These few days I ask myself why an average looking gal can cause me to have special feelings for her? Maybe is the imperfect in her that made her become perfect to me, a feeling that never occur to me before.. Last time when I saw her, I don't have a deep impression of her, just a normal colleague.. Maybe after she transferred to this site and we have plenty of chances working together, I get to know her more and find her character, interest, etc. attracted me...
Even though the truth is out, I will still treat her the same. Just like the traditional saying "you can don't like me but you can't stop me from liking you". I will continue to support her from behind and pave her way to better working relationship with rest of the team till my last day at the site.
All I can wish now is to move her heart in the near future but that doesn't make I hope she breakup with her boyfriend... I respect her decision... At least, please don't try to keep a distance from me...
Fate just like to play a fool on me.....
When I first heard she is meeting her boyfriend, I thought my ears is playing a joke on me. Initially, I choose to escape from the truth but later come to think of it, I decided to confirm and face it, no point hiding, as it will be just lying to myself...
Inside esplanade library, I asked her if love and career is placed in front of her, what would she choose? She answered it would be love. At that moment, I would want to let her know that if there is anything that can make me stay in my current job, it would be her. Although if I were to switch job, my prospect will definitely be better, but I don't mind sacrifice career for her sake... Now I finally understand why the recent taiwan drama that I had just finished "败犬女皇" , the male actor can sacrifice his career for the actress, the power of love....
Something I find it funny,
1. If she is attached, why her daily routine is like work and home only?
2. Why an attached gal don't show some "reject-ness" from a guy whom is behaving more than a normal colleague or even a normal friend?
3. When going out, why we can behave like a couple? Walk from place to place, talk and joke freely, discuss from heaven to earth and even personal stuff?
4. How can a boyfriend only spend time with his girlfriend once or twice a week, isn't that too few times??
Maybe that is her usual way of treating "friends" but definitely from my angle, I am not treating her as a normal friend, she has gone beyond that level in my heart....
These few days I ask myself why an average looking gal can cause me to have special feelings for her? Maybe is the imperfect in her that made her become perfect to me, a feeling that never occur to me before.. Last time when I saw her, I don't have a deep impression of her, just a normal colleague.. Maybe after she transferred to this site and we have plenty of chances working together, I get to know her more and find her character, interest, etc. attracted me...
Even though the truth is out, I will still treat her the same. Just like the traditional saying "you can don't like me but you can't stop me from liking you". I will continue to support her from behind and pave her way to better working relationship with rest of the team till my last day at the site.
All I can wish now is to move her heart in the near future but that doesn't make I hope she breakup with her boyfriend... I respect her decision... At least, please don't try to keep a distance from me...
Fate just like to play a fool on me.....
19th June
Today I had a memorable night with her. At first, I thought it is just a simple farewell dinner for one of the cleaner. After dinner, all went home except me and her walking around bugis as she want to buy some stuff. I thought the night will end there but eventually we walked around at the nearby shopping centre and ended up in singapore river where we chit chat over there for an hour plus. Due to the last bus, we had to go. How I wish the time would just stop there. Although we had an enjoyable night, my intuition told me that something is bothering her. Wanted to ask her but somehow the question just stuck in my heart.
I noticed she is now more open to the team, eg. She asked for my help to pin up some notice. During dinner, the team also treated her more friendlier which I am glad to know.
Start to know more of her. She do washing and ironing at home. I think nowadays gals seldom do that. She mention that she hate walking, but she still walk with me from bugis to clark quay. I was surprised.
She like to go shopping but will prefer not to have her boyfriend along, but if it is me, I dun mind waiting for my girlfriend while she shopped for her stuff just like tonight.
It had been a long time since I go out with a gal till so late. Tonight will be a night that will be staying in my memory, for how long I cant conclude, but at least in the near future....
I noticed she is now more open to the team, eg. She asked for my help to pin up some notice. During dinner, the team also treated her more friendlier which I am glad to know.
Start to know more of her. She do washing and ironing at home. I think nowadays gals seldom do that. She mention that she hate walking, but she still walk with me from bugis to clark quay. I was surprised.
She like to go shopping but will prefer not to have her boyfriend along, but if it is me, I dun mind waiting for my girlfriend while she shopped for her stuff just like tonight.
It had been a long time since I go out with a gal till so late. Tonight will be a night that will be staying in my memory, for how long I cant conclude, but at least in the near future....
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