23rd June

Today is a bad day, suddenly my cunning sly boss shoot many arrows at me. Receive negative feedback about me from him through an ex colleague, but I can't remember stepping on his tail regarding work matters. Suddenly have an urge to tender resignation, but upon cooling down, there is still a reason for me to stay. With her, I think nothing matters.... Looking forward for tomorrow dinner with her.. and my duty engineer...
"今夜还吹着风, 想起你好温柔, 有你的日子分外的轻松
也不是无影踪, 只是想你太浓, 怎么会无时无刻把你梦"

I can remember clearly of what we had chatted before. When she asked me if I know where can get watches at a cheaper price and evaded the question of who it is for, my brain immediately pieced the info with what she asked me last time if I got any idea for a surprise birthday. My prediction will be: she is buying a watch for her boyfriend birthday. Why my memory and brain work so efficiently? Now the prediction cause my confidence to drop.... I hope my prediction is incorrect but chances is not high...

Test water today and found out the most they meet is 2 times per week over the weekend. She say that isn't an issue as they call each other everyday but prefer if can meet weekday and weekend. Seem like they going on fine but why she just can't show some rejectness when I treating her so special? Is she putting on a strong front or she just don't know how to reject?
"在我心上用力的开一枪,让一切归零　在这声巨响
如果愛是说什么都不能放, 我不掙扎　反正我也　沒差"
人质

As we go walk walk after lunch, she told me her boyfriend is going to take photo with her in the graduation robe after her october graduation as both of them is degree holder. I wonder what so great about degree? I also got one.... I think at the moment, my jealousy overrule my mind..

If he really cherish her so much, why he don't spend more time with her, only a phone call per night... Some more, her job always got last minute and weekend work which made her weekend burn, if he really love her, he should spend more effort to meet her after work as how far traveling distance can it be?

If I am her boyfriend, I will spend more time with her as once or twice a week just doesn't seem enough. No matter how independent and strong gals are, at the end of the day, they still need a shoulder to lean and ears to listen to their sorrow. Maybe it is due to their honeymoon period over, but one just can't take things for granted..

Remember she told me that last weekend she didn't go to marina barrage as planned is due to they will unable to make it to the last shuttle service ferrying them out. If I were the one with her, I would still go there and if can't catch the last shuttle, I would take a slow stroll with her and enjoy the night scene along the way just like that friday nite. Nothing matter as long as she is with me...
"牵我手 跟着我走 风再大有怎样
你有了我 再也不会迷失方向"
流星雨

What her reaction will be if I told her directly that I had fallen for her??