30th June

Last day of the month... Today I queue for 15 mins to buy some tapioca kueh and bring back to office for the team to eat. Actually my purpose is to buy for her to try. I remember she say before during her previous job, she had tried one nonya buffet and she liked it. I know she don't like to walk long distance especially when she wearing heels, that why I packet her the kueh, so she can enjoy it without having to walk so far.

During lunch, I noticed she is quiet and extremely bored. I tried to chat with her a few times but my friends keep switching the topic back to work which she can't get involved... Once my friend done with his lunch, I suggest to go off and accompany her for a walk to let her release her boredom before proceeding back to office. Her mood seem to be better.

She told me about her daily life, is a routine of work, go home, dinner, watch tv, surf net, then sleep and begin another day. I wanted to tell her I hope I can break her cycle and go to different places after work with her, relaxed ourselves after a day of work...

Don't know for what reason, I feel very tired today. Not physically but mentally... Suddenly I wish after work, I can go out with the gal I like (which is her) and went for a dinner, then go out for a walk or enjoy the night with her before sending her home...
"我怎么都不想睡
天特別亮夜特別的黑
当我深深的呼吸
心中充满想你的甜蜜
想和你走在雨中
想要你牵我的手
傻傻的你不敢说爱
而我也故意要你为我等待
说不出有多么快乐
还是不够　这感觉这一切
就好像飘在外太空
别的星球　　只有我们存在"
有你的快乐

Turning my head to look at her in office, waiting for her to reply my message, waiting for her to go lunch or knock off, waiting for her to on msn become my daily habit... But too bad she not online today... Maybe she too engrossed with her drama or busy with household chores... Everytime I go out with her, I will usually look out for flat ground as her heels is hard to walk on uneven ground, touched her arm or back when crossing the road or avoiding passerby.. Does she notice all these small "caring" action?