Last day of the month... Today I queue for 15 mins to buy some tapioca kueh and bring back to office for the team to eat. Actually my purpose is to buy for her to try. I remember she say before during her previous job, she had tried one nonya buffet and she liked it. I know she don't like to walk long distance especially when she wearing heels, that why I packet her the kueh, so she can enjoy it without having to walk so far.
During lunch, I noticed she is quiet and extremely bored. I tried to chat with her a few times but my friends keep switching the topic back to work which she can't get involved... Once my friend done with his lunch, I suggest to go off and accompany her for a walk to let her release her boredom before proceeding back to office. Her mood seem to be better.
She told me about her daily life, is a routine of work, go home, dinner, watch tv, surf net, then sleep and begin another day. I wanted to tell her I hope I can break her cycle and go to different places after work with her, relaxed ourselves after a day of work...
Don't know for what reason, I feel very tired today. Not physically but mentally... Suddenly I wish after work, I can go out with the gal I like (which is her) and went for a dinner, then go out for a walk or enjoy the night with her before sending her home...
"我怎么都不想睡
天特別亮夜特別的黑
当我深深的呼吸
心中充满想你的甜蜜
想和你走在雨中
想要你牵我的手
傻傻的你不敢说爱
而我也故意要你为我等待
说不出有多么快乐
还是不够 这感觉这一切
就好像飘在外太空
别的星球 只有我们存在"
有你的快乐
Turning my head to look at her in office, waiting for her to reply my message, waiting for her to go lunch or knock off, waiting for her to on msn become my daily habit... But too bad she not online today... Maybe she too engrossed with her drama or busy with household chores... Everytime I go out with her, I will usually look out for flat ground as her heels is hard to walk on uneven ground, touched her arm or back when crossing the road or avoiding passerby.. Does she notice all these small "caring" action?
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
29th June
A tired day... Maybe is due to not enough sleep on the previous day.. Quite a boring monday, nothing much to do.. But happy can see her again after 2 days.. She ask me how long I had waited yesterday, then I realised that I waited for 5 hrs to let her save 2 hrs of traveling time. When I become so noble???? Is she really so important in my heart that I don't mind sacrificing my time for hers especially it is after a tiring shutdown?? I think the answer is YES as I already proven in action.. I still ask her out to go marina barrage despite I am tired, this clearly prove that with her, I don't mind doing anything.. and I will cherish every moments that I can be with her..
"我看見星光灿烂 是你的双眼 我听见宁静夜晚 有你的呼吸 你的陪伴
多少相愛 多少徬徨 多少迷乱 多少相聚 多少失败 多少不安
愛了你我才学会 真情相慰 不會后悔
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我感觉所有的你 在我的心里 我的记忆
我相信只要有你 我才有力气 不会放弃
尽管世界 依然纷乱 依然离开 只愿与你
相信相愛相信平凡 這一生冷暖悲欢 承若着愛 天涯相伴
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过了泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我祈求每一分可能 用我生命将愛完成
我祈求不管寒冬再冷 只要你伴我一生"
She told me tomorrow she got to do inventory check and top up first aid stock. I wanted to tell her that I actually don't mind helping her out. Just like today, my colleague arranged a kopi session with my boss and asked me to join. At first, I agreed but when going to go off, I saw her need help in confirming the delivery order, I immediately went over and help her out before proceeding to the kopi place even though I know I will be late...
She will forget things if she don't jot down the instruction. I think she had forgotten that her manager ask her to check the aircon diffuser inside the office as this is a verbal instruction. Behind her, I already instructed the cleaning supervisor to do the cleaning so she will not get "reprimanded".. Will she be touched if she know that behind her, I had been the mediator closing the gap of her and the cleaning team, helping her to give instruction, etc?
"懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深"
非你莫属
"我看見星光灿烂 是你的双眼 我听见宁静夜晚 有你的呼吸 你的陪伴
多少相愛 多少徬徨 多少迷乱 多少相聚 多少失败 多少不安
愛了你我才学会 真情相慰 不會后悔
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我感觉所有的你 在我的心里 我的记忆
我相信只要有你 我才有力气 不会放弃
尽管世界 依然纷乱 依然离开 只愿与你
相信相愛相信平凡 這一生冷暖悲欢 承若着愛 天涯相伴
让风吹 让心去追 追过了梦 流过了泪
让风吹 让心去飞 敞开心扉 真愛相隨
我祈求每一分可能 用我生命将愛完成
我祈求不管寒冬再冷 只要你伴我一生"
She told me tomorrow she got to do inventory check and top up first aid stock. I wanted to tell her that I actually don't mind helping her out. Just like today, my colleague arranged a kopi session with my boss and asked me to join. At first, I agreed but when going to go off, I saw her need help in confirming the delivery order, I immediately went over and help her out before proceeding to the kopi place even though I know I will be late...
She will forget things if she don't jot down the instruction. I think she had forgotten that her manager ask her to check the aircon diffuser inside the office as this is a verbal instruction. Behind her, I already instructed the cleaning supervisor to do the cleaning so she will not get "reprimanded".. Will she be touched if she know that behind her, I had been the mediator closing the gap of her and the cleaning team, helping her to give instruction, etc?
"懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深"
非你莫属
Sunday, June 28, 2009
28th June
Sunday, going back to samsung hub to resume back the M&E system.. Sleeping for 4 hrs only make me feel tired.. But strange, I feel spirited when I think I will be seeing her again in the afternoon. My tiredness gone when she agreed to go to marina barrage after we finished the ozonation work... But happiness don't last, soon she sms me again saying she can't make it and need to go off after the work done. Not wanted to be surrounded by doubts, I ask her if she is meeting her boyfriend and her answer is family. So is still fine with me as long as the person is not him... All I can say my reaction is human jealousy... But she arranged to go marina barrage with me next week, hope she will not forget about it.
By 12pm, I should be able to leave... But thinking she will be coming at 3 for the ozonation work, I stay back to wait for her. Come to think of it, since she only coming back to sign off the service report and need to rush back to meet her family, I told her that I will help her to sign off the service report and check whatever necessary stuff, so she do not need to waste 2 hr of traveling time to and fro.. She agreed..
I glad that this weekend she can relaxed as both days her work is covered by me. Do such a man still exist? Covered the gal work so she got more time to meet her boyfriend.. Maybe this explain that love doesn't mean possession, as long as she is happy, I will be happy to do anything for her... But when I become so noble? Haha...
"一天一天贴近你的心你开心我关心
一点一滴我都能感应你是我最美的相信
等不到双子座流星雨撒满天际
新点燃九支仙女棒代替
最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影
把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
最浪漫的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言"
By 12pm, I should be able to leave... But thinking she will be coming at 3 for the ozonation work, I stay back to wait for her. Come to think of it, since she only coming back to sign off the service report and need to rush back to meet her family, I told her that I will help her to sign off the service report and check whatever necessary stuff, so she do not need to waste 2 hr of traveling time to and fro.. She agreed..
I glad that this weekend she can relaxed as both days her work is covered by me. Do such a man still exist? Covered the gal work so she got more time to meet her boyfriend.. Maybe this explain that love doesn't mean possession, as long as she is happy, I will be happy to do anything for her... But when I become so noble? Haha...
"一天一天贴近你的心你开心我关心
一点一滴我都能感应你是我最美的相信
等不到双子座流星雨撒满天际
新点燃九支仙女棒代替
最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
看你眼睛有幸福的倒影
把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
最浪漫的心愿便利贴贴成无限
就是我们最富有的宣言"
27th June
After 19 days, today is the first day that we didn't meet... msn with her last night till 145am, I think that is an unusual timing for her as she always sleep at 11+, so am I consider lucky? Hehe...
Today a busy day for me as samsung hub power shutdown. But as this is not my site, I am suppose to play as a supporting role. In the end, I do almost all the isolation, shutdown, maintenance servicing checking, powering up and start to direct the later part of the integrated system testing due to the site engineer too slow... Unintentionally, I challenge my manager and he lose.. Haha.. Somehow I feel that this shutdown is meant for me to perform.. I grade myself 8 out of 10...
My vendor told me they are quite many FM job in the market and base on my "work ability", I don't need to suffer under my manager. Then they ask me when I going to switch job. I wanted to reply at that moment I will stay here for the sake of a gal.. It sound foolish, doesn't it? But I just can't explain why... Just spending time with her will make me feel contented even watching her silently by her side. I don't understand why her boyfriend can bear to meet her for only 1 time per week and she still can tolerate....
"Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life well always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on"
She gone to watch the magic performance at central tonight. I wish I am the one beside her but I know this can't be happening as her sat night is reserved for someone... It will be good if she still unattached, I will shower her with care and concern and shelter anything for her. Why a simple gal like her can make me do so much for her? Fate?
Today a busy day for me as samsung hub power shutdown. But as this is not my site, I am suppose to play as a supporting role. In the end, I do almost all the isolation, shutdown, maintenance servicing checking, powering up and start to direct the later part of the integrated system testing due to the site engineer too slow... Unintentionally, I challenge my manager and he lose.. Haha.. Somehow I feel that this shutdown is meant for me to perform.. I grade myself 8 out of 10...
My vendor told me they are quite many FM job in the market and base on my "work ability", I don't need to suffer under my manager. Then they ask me when I going to switch job. I wanted to reply at that moment I will stay here for the sake of a gal.. It sound foolish, doesn't it? But I just can't explain why... Just spending time with her will make me feel contented even watching her silently by her side. I don't understand why her boyfriend can bear to meet her for only 1 time per week and she still can tolerate....
"Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life well always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And youre here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Youre here, theres nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
Well stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on"
She gone to watch the magic performance at central tonight. I wish I am the one beside her but I know this can't be happening as her sat night is reserved for someone... It will be good if she still unattached, I will shower her with care and concern and shelter anything for her. Why a simple gal like her can make me do so much for her? Fate?
Friday, June 26, 2009
26th June
It finally friday... Today pass quite fast, maybe due to function preparation. I noticed she constantly checking her handphone for any new sms. My prediction will be her boyfriend didn't reply her sms. But when coming to evening, her sms increase again.. Don't know why but I got a negative feeling whenever she sms, my confidence level also drop...
I told her that I will cover for her tomorrow work, so she can get more rest and prepare for the next few weekend A&A works. At first, she insist but after a few times of persuade, she agreed. Will she know that I cover for her is because I don't want her to over tire herself and only she has the privilege?
Another day of work till 11+. Actually I am not required to stand by for tonight function. If only my handyman is around, I may or may not stay back. But tonight because she is staying back, that why I opt to stay back to assist her. Throughout the whole function, there are 2 times I am exceptionally happy when one secretary say "我就猜到你们两个一定会留下来" and one cleaner ask me when I change job to become bodyguard to someone. Does that mean we look compatible? Haha...
The whole function is almost a waiting session but I don't mind as I am together with her. Last part of the function where we were "allowed" to drink is more fun. After which will be the clearing part where we assist each other and finished everything in less than half an hour time. Dinner is a difficult choice as we had been discussing since the late afternoon and we decided to try our luck at boat quay and see which stall is still opened.. After finished our dinner at a malay stall, I accompanied her to the bus stop as usual and proceed back home when she had boarded the bus.
"我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局"
童话
I told her that I will cover for her tomorrow work, so she can get more rest and prepare for the next few weekend A&A works. At first, she insist but after a few times of persuade, she agreed. Will she know that I cover for her is because I don't want her to over tire herself and only she has the privilege?
Another day of work till 11+. Actually I am not required to stand by for tonight function. If only my handyman is around, I may or may not stay back. But tonight because she is staying back, that why I opt to stay back to assist her. Throughout the whole function, there are 2 times I am exceptionally happy when one secretary say "我就猜到你们两个一定会留下来" and one cleaner ask me when I change job to become bodyguard to someone. Does that mean we look compatible? Haha...
The whole function is almost a waiting session but I don't mind as I am together with her. Last part of the function where we were "allowed" to drink is more fun. After which will be the clearing part where we assist each other and finished everything in less than half an hour time. Dinner is a difficult choice as we had been discussing since the late afternoon and we decided to try our luck at boat quay and see which stall is still opened.. After finished our dinner at a malay stall, I accompanied her to the bus stop as usual and proceed back home when she had boarded the bus.
"我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局"
童话
Thursday, June 25, 2009
25th June
Inside the office, turning my head and look back has become 1 of my habit. Hope I can cover all these places with her in the future...
I wonder do she feel surprise when I remember what her likes and her don't like.. During lunch today, we go and eat char kway teow. As I know she can't drink kopi and don't eat clam, before ordering, I double check with her that her plate do not want any clam as she didn't specific in the first place.. I know that almond is her favorite, so I suggested we go for almond paste at one of the famous dessert store after lunch. I also told her not to have kopi when we are ordering for drinks on the previous night.. I hope she had noticed all these...
During our way to tea break, I ask her why this sat afternoon got no ongoing work and she still want to come back? Then she think for a while and answer just drop by and take a look. On my wishful thinking, I hope she come just to meet me for a while..... haha...
I got a feeling that she start to treat me differently. Maybe is due to these 2 days I notice that her sms seem to gone down.. But her sms to me has gone up... haha.. Our topics seem to be getting more as days went past, maybe this is due to we share the same interest and job field. I can sense that her laughter is from the heart when I joke with her but she seem to think a lot when silence is in the air. I wish one day she can share her troubles with me and I will shoulder for her.
"No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true
And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you"
I know she like shopping very much. I hope I will got the chance to comb all the shopping centre with her. I don't mind standing at one corner waiting for her while she shop as I will be satisfied just to be with her.....
I had a strange dream just now.. I dream of her boyfriend initiated a break off with her and she is sad... Even if that the case, I will stand by there for her..
Tomorrow night we will be having dinner together again as there is some function ongoing which will last till 7+ pm.. Let see if we got chance to go walk walk again...
"I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul."
Everyday I Love You
I wonder do she feel surprise when I remember what her likes and her don't like.. During lunch today, we go and eat char kway teow. As I know she can't drink kopi and don't eat clam, before ordering, I double check with her that her plate do not want any clam as she didn't specific in the first place.. I know that almond is her favorite, so I suggested we go for almond paste at one of the famous dessert store after lunch. I also told her not to have kopi when we are ordering for drinks on the previous night.. I hope she had noticed all these...
During our way to tea break, I ask her why this sat afternoon got no ongoing work and she still want to come back? Then she think for a while and answer just drop by and take a look. On my wishful thinking, I hope she come just to meet me for a while..... haha...
I got a feeling that she start to treat me differently. Maybe is due to these 2 days I notice that her sms seem to gone down.. But her sms to me has gone up... haha.. Our topics seem to be getting more as days went past, maybe this is due to we share the same interest and job field. I can sense that her laughter is from the heart when I joke with her but she seem to think a lot when silence is in the air. I wish one day she can share her troubles with me and I will shoulder for her.
"No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true
And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you"
I know she like shopping very much. I hope I will got the chance to comb all the shopping centre with her. I don't mind standing at one corner waiting for her while she shop as I will be satisfied just to be with her.....
I had a strange dream just now.. I dream of her boyfriend initiated a break off with her and she is sad... Even if that the case, I will stand by there for her..
Tomorrow night we will be having dinner together again as there is some function ongoing which will last till 7+ pm.. Let see if we got chance to go walk walk again...
"I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul."
Everyday I Love You
24th June
It quite funny today, can't get back to sleep after waking up at 5+ am. Got a feeling just like small kid waiting to go on an excursion. Tonight is the first time that I had prearranged to ask her out. The day proceed as usual with nothing much to do. Notice today that she didn't sms as much as the past few days. Not sure what happen but I quite happy. I am getting more evil I think. Haha. The shirt she wearing today is the same as last fri except that time is blue and today is peach color. Looking forward to the time to hit 6.. Just 15 mins before 6, receive sms from her that she need help to pin up some notice which needed to be completed by today. Me and my 2 colleagues quickly help her to do the job so we can go out earlier. Everything is completed by 6.35. Me and her with my duty engineer decided to go orchard to have dinner.
I suggested to go to the new shopping centre and upon reaching, we found out most shops are not opened. So we proceed to cineleisure and try the HK cafe over there. After which, 3 of us intended to go for movie but due to sold out, we take a walk down orchard road. Inside HMV, me and her is always side by side while my duty engineer is on his own. She same as me, prefer chinese song only. Find out she seldom watch movie, I wonder what she and her boyfriend always do..
As the time is still early, we decided to walk down to borders at wheel lock place as suggested by my duty engineer. Me and her share 1 magazine and were browsing through when her handphone got sms alert. I guess it is from her boyfriend. But after 3-4 sms, we continue back our magazine where I found out we both are interested in gossip news when we across an article on adultery. Haha.
Seeing her getting tired, I suggested is time to call it a day as the book store is closing also... She and my duty engineer took cab home as both live in the west while I took bus.
I guess our "friendship" had taken a small step forward. Hehe.. I am happy tonight. If she is my girlfriend, everyday will be like today, share her workload, after work, me and her will go walk walk, dinner before sending her home. I will still do that even when I not working in the same building, cos seeing her will make me forget the work stress of that day... Ask me to endure my cunning sly fox boss and my manager for her sake, I also don't mind...
"每个朝朝和暮暮 我都要和你共度
让手心 一直都热呼呼
爱情路 有种缓慢的幸福
伴随一点辛苦
相遇是幸福 等待一点辛苦
爱情路 有了你我什么都顶的住..."
爱情路
Tonight is 2nd time we were together till 11+... Although got a last minute work when knocking off, but the feeling of striving to complete it and enjoying the fruit of the labour together is great. Thanks for the enjoyable night....
"watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still...
all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift"
The Gift
I suggested to go to the new shopping centre and upon reaching, we found out most shops are not opened. So we proceed to cineleisure and try the HK cafe over there. After which, 3 of us intended to go for movie but due to sold out, we take a walk down orchard road. Inside HMV, me and her is always side by side while my duty engineer is on his own. She same as me, prefer chinese song only. Find out she seldom watch movie, I wonder what she and her boyfriend always do..
As the time is still early, we decided to walk down to borders at wheel lock place as suggested by my duty engineer. Me and her share 1 magazine and were browsing through when her handphone got sms alert. I guess it is from her boyfriend. But after 3-4 sms, we continue back our magazine where I found out we both are interested in gossip news when we across an article on adultery. Haha.
Seeing her getting tired, I suggested is time to call it a day as the book store is closing also... She and my duty engineer took cab home as both live in the west while I took bus.
I guess our "friendship" had taken a small step forward. Hehe.. I am happy tonight. If she is my girlfriend, everyday will be like today, share her workload, after work, me and her will go walk walk, dinner before sending her home. I will still do that even when I not working in the same building, cos seeing her will make me forget the work stress of that day... Ask me to endure my cunning sly fox boss and my manager for her sake, I also don't mind...
"每个朝朝和暮暮 我都要和你共度
让手心 一直都热呼呼
爱情路 有种缓慢的幸福
伴随一点辛苦
相遇是幸福 等待一点辛苦
爱情路 有了你我什么都顶的住..."
爱情路
Tonight is 2nd time we were together till 11+... Although got a last minute work when knocking off, but the feeling of striving to complete it and enjoying the fruit of the labour together is great. Thanks for the enjoyable night....
"watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still...
all i want is to hold you forever
all i need is you more every day
you saved my heart
from being broken apart
you gave your love away
and i'm thankful every day
for the gift"
The Gift
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
23rd June
Today is a bad day, suddenly my cunning sly boss shoot many arrows at me. Receive negative feedback about me from him through an ex colleague, but I can't remember stepping on his tail regarding work matters. Suddenly have an urge to tender resignation, but upon cooling down, there is still a reason for me to stay. With her, I think nothing matters.... Looking forward for tomorrow dinner with her.. and my duty engineer...
"今夜还吹着风, 想起你好温柔, 有你的日子分外的轻松
也不是无影踪, 只是想你太浓, 怎么会无时无刻把你梦"
I can remember clearly of what we had chatted before. When she asked me if I know where can get watches at a cheaper price and evaded the question of who it is for, my brain immediately pieced the info with what she asked me last time if I got any idea for a surprise birthday. My prediction will be: she is buying a watch for her boyfriend birthday. Why my memory and brain work so efficiently? Now the prediction cause my confidence to drop.... I hope my prediction is incorrect but chances is not high...
Test water today and found out the most they meet is 2 times per week over the weekend. She say that isn't an issue as they call each other everyday but prefer if can meet weekday and weekend. Seem like they going on fine but why she just can't show some rejectness when I treating her so special? Is she putting on a strong front or she just don't know how to reject?
"在我心上用力的开一枪,让一切归零 在这声巨响
如果愛是说什么都不能放, 我不掙扎 反正我也 沒差"
人质
As we go walk walk after lunch, she told me her boyfriend is going to take photo with her in the graduation robe after her october graduation as both of them is degree holder. I wonder what so great about degree? I also got one.... I think at the moment, my jealousy overrule my mind..
If he really cherish her so much, why he don't spend more time with her, only a phone call per night... Some more, her job always got last minute and weekend work which made her weekend burn, if he really love her, he should spend more effort to meet her after work as how far traveling distance can it be?
If I am her boyfriend, I will spend more time with her as once or twice a week just doesn't seem enough. No matter how independent and strong gals are, at the end of the day, they still need a shoulder to lean and ears to listen to their sorrow. Maybe it is due to their honeymoon period over, but one just can't take things for granted..
Remember she told me that last weekend she didn't go to marina barrage as planned is due to they will unable to make it to the last shuttle service ferrying them out. If I were the one with her, I would still go there and if can't catch the last shuttle, I would take a slow stroll with her and enjoy the night scene along the way just like that friday nite. Nothing matter as long as she is with me...
"牵我手 跟着我走 风再大有怎样
你有了我 再也不会迷失方向"
流星雨
What her reaction will be if I told her directly that I had fallen for her??
"今夜还吹着风, 想起你好温柔, 有你的日子分外的轻松
也不是无影踪, 只是想你太浓, 怎么会无时无刻把你梦"
I can remember clearly of what we had chatted before. When she asked me if I know where can get watches at a cheaper price and evaded the question of who it is for, my brain immediately pieced the info with what she asked me last time if I got any idea for a surprise birthday. My prediction will be: she is buying a watch for her boyfriend birthday. Why my memory and brain work so efficiently? Now the prediction cause my confidence to drop.... I hope my prediction is incorrect but chances is not high...
Test water today and found out the most they meet is 2 times per week over the weekend. She say that isn't an issue as they call each other everyday but prefer if can meet weekday and weekend. Seem like they going on fine but why she just can't show some rejectness when I treating her so special? Is she putting on a strong front or she just don't know how to reject?
"在我心上用力的开一枪,让一切归零 在这声巨响
如果愛是说什么都不能放, 我不掙扎 反正我也 沒差"
人质
As we go walk walk after lunch, she told me her boyfriend is going to take photo with her in the graduation robe after her october graduation as both of them is degree holder. I wonder what so great about degree? I also got one.... I think at the moment, my jealousy overrule my mind..
If he really cherish her so much, why he don't spend more time with her, only a phone call per night... Some more, her job always got last minute and weekend work which made her weekend burn, if he really love her, he should spend more effort to meet her after work as how far traveling distance can it be?
If I am her boyfriend, I will spend more time with her as once or twice a week just doesn't seem enough. No matter how independent and strong gals are, at the end of the day, they still need a shoulder to lean and ears to listen to their sorrow. Maybe it is due to their honeymoon period over, but one just can't take things for granted..
Remember she told me that last weekend she didn't go to marina barrage as planned is due to they will unable to make it to the last shuttle service ferrying them out. If I were the one with her, I would still go there and if can't catch the last shuttle, I would take a slow stroll with her and enjoy the night scene along the way just like that friday nite. Nothing matter as long as she is with me...
"牵我手 跟着我走 风再大有怎样
你有了我 再也不会迷失方向"
流星雨
What her reaction will be if I told her directly that I had fallen for her??
Monday, June 22, 2009
22nd June
When going to knock off, I summon my courage and ask her if wed night she is free and asked her out for dinner to celebrate her graduation. She agreed. Actually that day my duty engineer happened to be her friend, my initial intention is to rope him in also, but just to "test water", I never mentioned he is going also.. She agreed even though just the two of us going out, so what does that mean to her? Normal friend celebrating her graduation?
Thinking she will spend tonight celebrating with her boyfriend, she told me she is not celebrating. But she is going to harbourfront instead of home, so I waited with her for her bus to come.. I am curious why she is going there, if she is going there to celebrate with her boyfriend, why she don't tell me frankly?
I think it is already quite obvious that I got feelings for her after all those "small action" I do:
1. Talking to her in gentle tone
2. Always stay by her side when walking or sitting down
3. Always stay back with her and knock off together
4. Accompany her around especially during weekends
5. Wait with her for her bus/cab to arrive
6. Deliberately go back to office to meet her on weekends
7. Always find topics to chat with her
8. Accompany her during her meals
Don't tell me she think all these actions will be done by a normal friend??
If there is a machine that can bring back to the time before they kicked off, how good will it be, I will not feel so troubled liao....
Thinking she will spend tonight celebrating with her boyfriend, she told me she is not celebrating. But she is going to harbourfront instead of home, so I waited with her for her bus to come.. I am curious why she is going there, if she is going there to celebrate with her boyfriend, why she don't tell me frankly?
I think it is already quite obvious that I got feelings for her after all those "small action" I do:
1. Talking to her in gentle tone
2. Always stay by her side when walking or sitting down
3. Always stay back with her and knock off together
4. Accompany her around especially during weekends
5. Wait with her for her bus/cab to arrive
6. Deliberately go back to office to meet her on weekends
7. Always find topics to chat with her
8. Accompany her during her meals
Don't tell me she think all these actions will be done by a normal friend??
If there is a machine that can bring back to the time before they kicked off, how good will it be, I will not feel so troubled liao....
22nd June
I realised that since she transferred to this site, I had stopped bringing laptop, cut down many tea break and lunch session with my boss. Instead, I would stay in the office, waiting to answer any inquiry she had or follow up any work with her.
She had passed her final exam today. I think I am the first few that get to know the news. Thinking of how should I celebrate with her... Maybe rope in my shift engineer also, so it will not be so awkward... But why am I treating her like she is unattached? Is it because from her expression, I always sensed that something is bothering her and portraying a troubled feeling? Even my friend that had lunch with her for a few times only, also sensed that.
Even when we are not doing anything, just by watching her silently or following behind her, I will still feel a sense of happiness. Wonder if she feel the same?
There are many common likes and similarities between us including stuff that can have 1001 varieties, such as signature. I noticed hers is at least 90% similar to mine. Does this mean affinity? As time goes by, I find out she seem to fulfill most of of the requirement of what I looking for.
My requirement:
1. Non christian
2. Preferable cantonese sounded
3. Same interest; watch tvb, taiwan variety show, play mahjong, etc.
4. Similar field, so can have more topic and understand each other work commitment, especially my current job field always got last minute happening..
5. Not a frequent clubber
6. Non smoker
7. Do household chores, not always but at least know how to do
8. Live nearby
9. Preferable younger than me and not must not taller than me
10. Independent at times
What should I do? To tell the truth or just bury it in my heart?
She had passed her final exam today. I think I am the first few that get to know the news. Thinking of how should I celebrate with her... Maybe rope in my shift engineer also, so it will not be so awkward... But why am I treating her like she is unattached? Is it because from her expression, I always sensed that something is bothering her and portraying a troubled feeling? Even my friend that had lunch with her for a few times only, also sensed that.
Even when we are not doing anything, just by watching her silently or following behind her, I will still feel a sense of happiness. Wonder if she feel the same?
There are many common likes and similarities between us including stuff that can have 1001 varieties, such as signature. I noticed hers is at least 90% similar to mine. Does this mean affinity? As time goes by, I find out she seem to fulfill most of of the requirement of what I looking for.
My requirement:
1. Non christian
2. Preferable cantonese sounded
3. Same interest; watch tvb, taiwan variety show, play mahjong, etc.
4. Similar field, so can have more topic and understand each other work commitment, especially my current job field always got last minute happening..
5. Not a frequent clubber
6. Non smoker
7. Do household chores, not always but at least know how to do
8. Live nearby
9. Preferable younger than me and not must not taller than me
10. Independent at times
What should I do? To tell the truth or just bury it in my heart?
Sunday, June 21, 2009
喜欢
I believed that songs can be used to express how one feeling.. This song best describe what I feeling now.... Should I let her know the existence of this blog??
喜欢你的头发 喜欢你的脸颊
喜欢你微笑的时候眼里藏不住的光
喜欢你的害羞 喜欢你的疯狂
想要一天二十四个小时守在你身旁
喜欢开你玩笑 喜欢叫你傻瓜
喜欢吓你一跳时候看你慌张的模样
喜欢搭你肩膀 喜欢你会怕痒
喜欢趁你没有防备偷袭你的手指甲
想要抱你一下 贴紧我的胸膛
想要告诉你这样下去不是办法
想要把你绑架 想要带你回家
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒
思念你令我惊慌 想到你令我膨胀
你的每个笑容都会令我幸福的快爆炸
见你的时候我总是说些傻呼呼的蠢话
令我随时随地濒临疯狂
喜欢
21th June
Today is no different from yesterday.. I still need to go back office to reset back some system but main reason I went back is because she also going back.. When everything almost finished, she still hanging around, first thought that came to my mind is she most probably waiting for her boyfriend to come, so I also hanged around with her. When we going off, she then told me she is going home, naturally I walked with her to find a cab. I suggested as the time is still early, we go central to take a walk, she rejected but she told me she will walked with me to central and took a cab from there. As usual, we chat and joke along the way. The reason why she want to go home is because she already planned to iron a few weeks of clothing...
I don't know why but I got an urge to find out more about her relationship, I had a feeling that she is not really that happy. Maybe it is my wishful thinking, I feel that if I were to bare my feelings for her, I might stand a chance... I still can't figure out a reason why an attached gal would go out with a guy that treat her so "special", behave like a couple? I also noticed that she don't demand much from her boyfriend beside occasionally sms-ing, weekdays she also no meet him for dinner or anything.. Maybe it is like what my friend had said, their relationship is on the rocks, already quite dull and she is just holding on.. I hope that is true even though it is a evil thought... haha..
There are a lot of things that I planned to talk with her but upon seeing her, I forgot what I want to say, words just can't come out from my mouth... haiz....
I don't know why but I got an urge to find out more about her relationship, I had a feeling that she is not really that happy. Maybe it is my wishful thinking, I feel that if I were to bare my feelings for her, I might stand a chance... I still can't figure out a reason why an attached gal would go out with a guy that treat her so "special", behave like a couple? I also noticed that she don't demand much from her boyfriend beside occasionally sms-ing, weekdays she also no meet him for dinner or anything.. Maybe it is like what my friend had said, their relationship is on the rocks, already quite dull and she is just holding on.. I hope that is true even though it is a evil thought... haha..
There are a lot of things that I planned to talk with her but upon seeing her, I forgot what I want to say, words just can't come out from my mouth... haiz....
Would you be there
If I were to send her the below song, don't know what her reaction will be???
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...
Would You Be There
Saturday, June 20, 2009
20th June
As usual, I was back in the office even though is saturday. Actually today I can go off early, but as she said she is coming back in the afternoon, I waited for her to come and do carpet inspection with her. After everything completed, I asked her if she want to go walk walk. She agreed and as we walked, I found out the answer that unfold my doubt, she is attached and already together for 2 years. This explained why I always seen her sms-ing which I thought is to normal friend. Got a sudden sadness rush to my heart. Why? Is it due to the feelings that had stayed in my heart since dunno when.... But I still walk with her from my office to esplanade then to marina where she had arranged to meet her boyfriend.
When I first heard she is meeting her boyfriend, I thought my ears is playing a joke on me. Initially, I choose to escape from the truth but later come to think of it, I decided to confirm and face it, no point hiding, as it will be just lying to myself...
Inside esplanade library, I asked her if love and career is placed in front of her, what would she choose? She answered it would be love. At that moment, I would want to let her know that if there is anything that can make me stay in my current job, it would be her. Although if I were to switch job, my prospect will definitely be better, but I don't mind sacrifice career for her sake... Now I finally understand why the recent taiwan drama that I had just finished "败犬女皇" , the male actor can sacrifice his career for the actress, the power of love....
Something I find it funny,
1. If she is attached, why her daily routine is like work and home only?
2. Why an attached gal don't show some "reject-ness" from a guy whom is behaving more than a normal colleague or even a normal friend?
3. When going out, why we can behave like a couple? Walk from place to place, talk and joke freely, discuss from heaven to earth and even personal stuff?
4. How can a boyfriend only spend time with his girlfriend once or twice a week, isn't that too few times??
Maybe that is her usual way of treating "friends" but definitely from my angle, I am not treating her as a normal friend, she has gone beyond that level in my heart....
These few days I ask myself why an average looking gal can cause me to have special feelings for her? Maybe is the imperfect in her that made her become perfect to me, a feeling that never occur to me before.. Last time when I saw her, I don't have a deep impression of her, just a normal colleague.. Maybe after she transferred to this site and we have plenty of chances working together, I get to know her more and find her character, interest, etc. attracted me...
Even though the truth is out, I will still treat her the same. Just like the traditional saying "you can don't like me but you can't stop me from liking you". I will continue to support her from behind and pave her way to better working relationship with rest of the team till my last day at the site.
All I can wish now is to move her heart in the near future but that doesn't make I hope she breakup with her boyfriend... I respect her decision... At least, please don't try to keep a distance from me...
Fate just like to play a fool on me.....
When I first heard she is meeting her boyfriend, I thought my ears is playing a joke on me. Initially, I choose to escape from the truth but later come to think of it, I decided to confirm and face it, no point hiding, as it will be just lying to myself...
Inside esplanade library, I asked her if love and career is placed in front of her, what would she choose? She answered it would be love. At that moment, I would want to let her know that if there is anything that can make me stay in my current job, it would be her. Although if I were to switch job, my prospect will definitely be better, but I don't mind sacrifice career for her sake... Now I finally understand why the recent taiwan drama that I had just finished "败犬女皇" , the male actor can sacrifice his career for the actress, the power of love....
Something I find it funny,
1. If she is attached, why her daily routine is like work and home only?
2. Why an attached gal don't show some "reject-ness" from a guy whom is behaving more than a normal colleague or even a normal friend?
3. When going out, why we can behave like a couple? Walk from place to place, talk and joke freely, discuss from heaven to earth and even personal stuff?
4. How can a boyfriend only spend time with his girlfriend once or twice a week, isn't that too few times??
Maybe that is her usual way of treating "friends" but definitely from my angle, I am not treating her as a normal friend, she has gone beyond that level in my heart....
These few days I ask myself why an average looking gal can cause me to have special feelings for her? Maybe is the imperfect in her that made her become perfect to me, a feeling that never occur to me before.. Last time when I saw her, I don't have a deep impression of her, just a normal colleague.. Maybe after she transferred to this site and we have plenty of chances working together, I get to know her more and find her character, interest, etc. attracted me...
Even though the truth is out, I will still treat her the same. Just like the traditional saying "you can don't like me but you can't stop me from liking you". I will continue to support her from behind and pave her way to better working relationship with rest of the team till my last day at the site.
All I can wish now is to move her heart in the near future but that doesn't make I hope she breakup with her boyfriend... I respect her decision... At least, please don't try to keep a distance from me...
Fate just like to play a fool on me.....
19th June
Today I had a memorable night with her. At first, I thought it is just a simple farewell dinner for one of the cleaner. After dinner, all went home except me and her walking around bugis as she want to buy some stuff. I thought the night will end there but eventually we walked around at the nearby shopping centre and ended up in singapore river where we chit chat over there for an hour plus. Due to the last bus, we had to go. How I wish the time would just stop there. Although we had an enjoyable night, my intuition told me that something is bothering her. Wanted to ask her but somehow the question just stuck in my heart.
I noticed she is now more open to the team, eg. She asked for my help to pin up some notice. During dinner, the team also treated her more friendlier which I am glad to know.
Start to know more of her. She do washing and ironing at home. I think nowadays gals seldom do that. She mention that she hate walking, but she still walk with me from bugis to clark quay. I was surprised.
She like to go shopping but will prefer not to have her boyfriend along, but if it is me, I dun mind waiting for my girlfriend while she shopped for her stuff just like tonight.
It had been a long time since I go out with a gal till so late. Tonight will be a night that will be staying in my memory, for how long I cant conclude, but at least in the near future....
I noticed she is now more open to the team, eg. She asked for my help to pin up some notice. During dinner, the team also treated her more friendlier which I am glad to know.
Start to know more of her. She do washing and ironing at home. I think nowadays gals seldom do that. She mention that she hate walking, but she still walk with me from bugis to clark quay. I was surprised.
She like to go shopping but will prefer not to have her boyfriend along, but if it is me, I dun mind waiting for my girlfriend while she shopped for her stuff just like tonight.
It had been a long time since I go out with a gal till so late. Tonight will be a night that will be staying in my memory, for how long I cant conclude, but at least in the near future....
Thursday, June 18, 2009
18th June
Today is a stressful day, whole day busy doing electrical calculation, but somehow chatting with her make me relax a bit..
She told me about her last night shopping happening. I not sure she deliberately or unintentionally for not answering my question of is she attached.. This remain as a mystery... I also took the chance of asking her out on saturday but too bad she is not free on the evening..
She told me she is not feeling well today due to drinking latte as she is "allergic" to pure coffee. Something I will take note when going for tea break next time.
Finally got her msn, does that mean there is some progress?? I hope so...
Getting to find out more about her is like playing jigsaw puzzle. Everyday piece by piece, when can I finish the whole puzzle????
She told me about her last night shopping happening. I not sure she deliberately or unintentionally for not answering my question of is she attached.. This remain as a mystery... I also took the chance of asking her out on saturday but too bad she is not free on the evening..
She told me she is not feeling well today due to drinking latte as she is "allergic" to pure coffee. Something I will take note when going for tea break next time.
Finally got her msn, does that mean there is some progress?? I hope so...
Getting to find out more about her is like playing jigsaw puzzle. Everyday piece by piece, when can I finish the whole puzzle????
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
17th June
Notice there is a change of behavior in her during office hours and during lunch or after office hour. During office hour, she put on a serious face and only talk about work related stuff and conversation is short. But when come to lunch, it is a different story. Wonder why this is so... Stress, office politics, or I am too sensitive?
Follow her for a site inspection with the cleaning supervisor, I roughly get the idea of her working style. I will think of what can be done to facilitate both parties, so she will faced lesser difficulties in the future, should I happened not to be in this site anymore.. This will also be a test for my management skill.
Her action of reading a copy of newspaper together make me got the feel like a couple.. Hope I don't got the wrong feeling... Hehe =) Maybe due to we always go in and out together, my pantry staff call her as my girlfriend behind her back.. Haha
When the working day going to end, she told me she is going out. I took the chance to ask her if she is going for a date. She answered that she is going for a sale with her friends.. Better to think positively...
Follow her for a site inspection with the cleaning supervisor, I roughly get the idea of her working style. I will think of what can be done to facilitate both parties, so she will faced lesser difficulties in the future, should I happened not to be in this site anymore.. This will also be a test for my management skill.
Her action of reading a copy of newspaper together make me got the feel like a couple.. Hope I don't got the wrong feeling... Hehe =) Maybe due to we always go in and out together, my pantry staff call her as my girlfriend behind her back.. Haha
When the working day going to end, she told me she is going out. I took the chance to ask her if she is going for a date. She answered that she is going for a sale with her friends.. Better to think positively...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
16th June
I finally know why she is not free on saturday morning as she is having taekwondo class. I surprise when she told me during lunch that she knows taekwondo, her appearance just don't seem so.. We start to "gossip" about other people and talk more of personnel stuff, is this a sign of moving towards the next level of friendship?
14th June
During the last half-yearly ozonation, I don't even bother to make it a point to go back to office even though I just live nearby. But this time round, even though it is sunday, I went back to office to reset back the fire alarm and at the same time meet her as she is back to sign off the service report. After everything completed, I pick up my courage to ask her if she want to go to PC show or marina to shop. I was quite nervous as I don't know what her answer will be and quite happy when she agreed. After seeing the large crowd at suntec, we decided to go to marina and shop around before deciding to have a drink at mac. We chit chat for a hour plus and after which I accompany her to bus stop as she is having dinner at home.. This has been quite some time since I had go out with a gal alone...
From the chit chat, I found out that we actually shared the same interest, i.e. watching TVB drama, taiwan variety show, listening to 音乐日记, chinese song, etc.
I think my doubt is somehow coming to a clear, "she still single!!!" I hope my guess is correct. YEA!!!!
From the chit chat, I found out that we actually shared the same interest, i.e. watching TVB drama, taiwan variety show, listening to 音乐日记, chinese song, etc.
I think my doubt is somehow coming to a clear, "she still single!!!" I hope my guess is correct. YEA!!!!
13th June
This is the first saturday that I saw her back in office. As she came in a bit late, I follow up her job with the vendor. Almost forgot that she haven't had breakfast, I bring her breakfast to where she is and accompany her. Even though it was my servicing day, I am not required to stay throughout as my duty engineer can supervise the whole servicing but as she is around, I stay back and find some excuse that I had to supervise my servicing till she had also finished hers. Saw her calling someone that she had done with her job and ask that person to come to the ground floor, I start to suspect is she in a relationship? I think without knowing when, I start to develop feelings for her... The doubt of is she attached keep wandering in my head...
11th June
She took MC today due to fever.. Somehow I feel something is missing in the office.. Maybe I already used to seeing her when I walk to my desk as hers is just behind mine, talking about non-work or work related stuff, having lunch together...
10th June
Heard she want to get a netbook, an idea come to my mind, go PC show with her.. Thinking of asking her to go on either thurs or sun as there is a work that need to be carried out on sun and we can go after that.. Since don't know when, I start to ask her along whenever I go, partly is to let her have more site exposure and also to let her know that she don't need to stress herself too much as my site always practised work as a team.. I hope that she will have lesser conflict with rest of the team and I will continue to help her pave the way by slowly changing the rest of the team opinion of her.. Everyday I will go off at the same time with her even I got no much work to do. This is not my usual self as last time, I usually knock off on the dot. Even at different site, I will still chat with her using the intranet chatting system till she knocked off. What is happening to me????
9th June
When talking to her, I can speak freely even though I "officially" know her is less than a month. I don't need to watch my words or anything. I curious to know why... Fate?
saw from her friendster, her status is single, is that the truth or she didn't update? Time will tell....
saw from her friendster, her status is single, is that the truth or she didn't update? Time will tell....
8th June
Finally monday came after a weekend that seem like a super long one.. Life is super bored at home.. Learn from my colleague that she came back to office on saturday after 1 hour I left.. Then she joked with me why I never waited for her to come back... If I know that, I will reconsider as I quite free for that afternoon...
6th June
Today is saturday and I am back in office alone doing nothing. Got a urge that monday can come quickly.. Why? Why? Why??
4th June
I tentatively arrange a late lunch with my ex colleague and she rejected without saying why. After I arranged an earlier lunch, I confirmed with her again if she joining us and she agreed this time round. Maybe she thinks me and her still not that familiar, so quite awkward to ask me to change the lunch hour timing. Actually I don't mind if she tell me that she prefer to have an earlier lunch...
2nd June
After "knowing" each other for almost 2 weeks, we start to talk about other non work related matters such as entertainment news, but impression of her is still the same, normal colleague. I also explain more details of the working style and history of this site, hoping that she will adapt to this site more easily and thus, changing her ways to have a better relationship with the rest of the team.
By sharing the workload of the cleaning team, I hope they will have lesser grumble towards her, which will slowly let them adapt to each other working style. Think she must be curious when she saw me carrying those dirty cups to the pantry. I also can't remember when is the last time I had help to repair door spring, fix those miscellaneous furniture as I was always "away" from office.. But now doing all these things again doesn't matter to me as long as they can work better with her....
By sharing the workload of the cleaning team, I hope they will have lesser grumble towards her, which will slowly let them adapt to each other working style. Think she must be curious when she saw me carrying those dirty cups to the pantry. I also can't remember when is the last time I had help to repair door spring, fix those miscellaneous furniture as I was always "away" from office.. But now doing all these things again doesn't matter to me as long as they can work better with her....
30th May
Here comes the boring saturday again... office is empty as well as mentally.. Eating lunch alone might as well go on diet... Why am I having this feeling? Isn't I already used to loneliness??
27th May
I surprise today after lunch when we were about to proceed to enter the lift at the building ground floor, she suddenly ask me to accompany her to a travel agency to collect her refund. As we were still quite unfamiliar to each other, I thought she will ask me to go back office first while she collects the refund herself.
26th May
I started to receive feedback from various team members that they had difficulties working with her. Most of their common comment is negative. To a certain degree, I believed this is needed from her by the management. I believed she is too used to her ex site culture and she need more time to adapt to the new culture. As I don't find her as "bad" as what others had described, I decided to be the mediator by telling them that she still new and will changed when times goes by. Hope I am correct...
23rd May
Saturday still had to work is common for my site. Due to some reason, she requested to come in the afternoon. As the scheduled work is finishing faster than expected, site manager told her no need to come back. Her absence doesn't affect me much as I am used to cover everything by myself.
21st May
Today my ex colleague ask me out for lunch. Thinking she will be alone again, I sms her for lunch using the bank messaging system. At first, I thought she not joining as she no reply. After finishing my early lunch and went back to office, I found out that she actually reply to the messaging system which will not received any message. Strange, my first reaction instead of telling her the truth, I went to eat lunch with her again. I think this is the first time in life I had a double lunch within 2 hours. This is also the first time having lunch alone with her. The interaction during lunch is not much due to the limited topics and we still quite unfamiliar to each other.
20th May
A new colleague was transferred to my site. As usual, my site manager was showing and introducing her around. As I had met her a few times before, no much introduction is needed. Like any other new site colleague, I don't have much impression of her. Thinking that my site manager will give her a welcome lunch, I went ahead mine with my duty engineer. As we were about to finish, my duty engineer whom had worked with her at another site before, received a call from her asking where we were having lunch. On good will, I told my duty engineer to ask her to join in. This is how our first conversation start. After lunch, as usual, 3 of us walk around raffles place before heading back to work.
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